Hello,
i want to write this trip report because it really plays a huge part in my life and there are maybe people reading who had similar experiences an i wanted to share it with you. i warn you in advance this wont be quite short since i cant really sum up shortly.
well to start of, i was 18 at that time and i wasnt really happy. i have always been a pretty active childe, talking a lot and somtimes amuse myself joking around. but at some point when i was 16 i feld a depressiv mood. there were many couses that led to this problem like family, school, social enviroment and me just kinda being disinteresster in everything and not looking afer my needs and health and many more what could also be a result of the unpleasent time i was facing. so i kinda found out cannabis i was using before only to havea fun, acctually was helping me to get out of my chair and say to my self " why the fuck i waste my time poking holes and dont do something produktive" and i would get super motivated and start doing my homewort or any work (what dosent always work quite well when high). but after a while i recogniced this medicine does only help me short term and dosent solve the origins of my problems . so i kept searching the internet for different techniques to defeat this annoying illnes. i tried yoga, meditation, went out for more bike tours, ate healthy. these activitys were defenetly good, but i didnt feel any major changes after some weeks so my motivation diminish. so after a while of watching different psychologist and sientict talking about this topic i bump into the uses of psychedelics. i read a lot of wonderful (and bad) stories about psylocibin and lsd and how it cant do wonder for some people and has changed many peoples live in the positive after only one intense session. well i got really intersetet since i read it can cure depression.
so after absorbing as much information of it as i could i ordered 5 tabs laid with aparently 115ug. well that day i wasnt relly feared or anxius about what could happen, i just felt ready for anything whatewer would happen and had the feeling im doing the right thing cause i just felt it in my guts. i got on my bike and took half of a trip for safty. drove into the fores looking for a quiet spot in the weed between the trees. i laid down and waited for something to happen. so after a while i didnt feel any real changes i decidet to take the other half, and keept listening to the bees what got louder and mor intensive after some time. i decied to stand up and go to my bike and i had a feeling like i was hearing every noise much clearer. so i went on my bike and kept driving in the forrest. i had headphones on an i really enjoied the music and i was just facinated by every human that i encounteredw. driving out of the forrest and then being in the middle of the streets where there was so much traffic made me a bit paranoid and everything just seemed not looking natural. so i quickly changed my way back into the forrest and called a friend (i have never had so much problems in controling my phone what made a phone call nearly impissible) i wanted to meet him at the forrest so he told me where i should meet him but i didnt have any clue where i was so i just kept in line with him for the rest of the time i found him and just randomly drove into one direction, whitch turned out to be the right one. we were walking together throug the forrest while i came up with crazy philosophys of life and the universe an made his mind blow and had the feeling like i was understanding them in a different way. when we sat down on a bench i could see leafs becoming eyes and looking at me, what gave me the feeling the universe is completly created by my mind and it kinda watches me and i watch back at it what kinda was looking at myself. my friend said: "look at your hands" and when i did so i was so astounished i just couldent look back. you see like how the blue veins crawl through your hand and the then suddenly they kina disapear and you see you whole hand shining in red life colour. and then i looked at them cloosley and it seemt like the point on my hand i was focusing on was getting bigger an i could soom into my skin like i had a microscope. after that we went to a babecue, but that was not very relaxing, because i felt unconfortable with these people and the steaks got a bit overburnt what made me feel bad and stopped my hunger. after a while i left the barbecue party and decidet to take anoter full blotter. so i put that in my mouth and drove back home with my bike.the way back was dark but i had no fear i was like going throug whatever may stand my way. so there came a place where the forrest road cuts the pebbel street. on the exit of that forrest road there was a small canyon what you have to overcome in order to get to that pebbel street. but that canyon was full of water but i just didnt give a fuck and just drove right in the canyon and walked with my bike throug the 15cm high water. witch schoes that are complety wet i just set on my bike and kept driving as if nothing happend till im home. it felt like a very uniqe way of being home. i felt like this man that came freshborn from jungle and now kinda sees his house shining with new beauty. i went up to my room and didnt know what to do so i walked around a bit. then after i recognized i had to do something or im being stuck in this kind of helplessness. so i went to my bath an tought it was a good idea to smoke a full bowl of supper slutty haze (i think thats what it was called). i inhaled the hole thing and really could feel my eyes slowly going black when i exhaled. watched few minutes to the ground but then fellt the power arising in me and i looked at the mirrage and my face would always seem to present himself in different looks. i looked at the granit floor and the shapes would look so beautiful and make sense like there was a hidden meaning in the mandala that was showing itself on the surface. and at some moment suddenly immages would go throu my head like some small gnome and things like that and i could see them and they were comunicating to me with other than language. that moment i realiced their message a undescribal euphoria i have never fellt bevore conquered my whole body (an i have tryed mdma). this feeling was so intense i couldnt stop smiling and claping my hands to the sink. i was ther about 10-15 min performing some stone age ritual/dance arount my sink with a never ending and constans feeling of pure love. after this experience i felt like a researcher of his own mind, so i picked my phone put the flashlight on and was exploring the other rooms like i enter new realitys behind every door. i went in my room and put on my headphones with some really trippy relaxin and love songs and kept walking around my dark room with my flashlight. at some point i didnt only hear the musik, but could also see it like its waves or its soul forming wonderful shapes and feelt like the musik is alive and dancing in its rythim in my head. it also felt like i could hear or see like hidden parts of the musik, that when listen to sober wont be noticed. i examined my chair like a dog from the ground and it looked like my vision had improved and i could see it in better quality. then i shined with the flashlight to one wall and i sundely could see some sord of android figures ontop of the light beam making signs to watch out for traffic. i thought at this moment that was somhow programmed in the phone and can be only noticed when on psychadelic drugs. so it would make people who drive home on their bike on lsd and use they smartphone flashlight as bike light aware of the traffic by reminding them to watch out. but of course that was just the only explenation i could construct while i was just so out of ordinary reality logics. then i sat at the computer and looked just straight at the wallpaper. after a short while the smoke in the win10 standard wallpaper began to grow like roots or veins across the screen, what would look like a tree growing roots. then i decidet to watch different art. that really made me think from a new perspective. i interpreted in them so much i wasnt thinking about when looking at them sober. like i could really feel what the arist intend was and what he wants to say with that picture. after a while my cute cat came visit me and jumped into my bed and layd in my lap. that was one of the most wonderful experienxes i have ever had. my cat normaly never comes sleep in my led but this time he looked at me with big eyes and i think he could feel something was different that day. so i could feel his heat and was listening to musik and i was still so facinated by the musiks soul. but i could not only see the musik, but there was something that was my own soul or energy or whaever and there was that of my cat. and i could see it with my eyes closed and when my cat moved it changed its energymovement and the same when the musik was playing and when i was moving or forming a thougt. that way me, my cat and the music were conected and created one unit. it was just the most wonderful experience in my life, the music just sounded so wonderful and special like never before, everywhere there would be beautiful patterns where i look and i had constantly tears of joy rolling down my cheeks. and then i fall asleep after i disconected myself from the great world of music. i slept really good and in the next day i fellt wonderful. i stopped smoking cannabis what i was doing at that time pretty frequently and i finnlay approached people in my school again, with whom i havent speaked for a long time since i was always kinda escaping from society and other people but couldnt really tell why i was withdrawling from my social enviroment. and ever since i have dreams again that occur quiet often and i really enjoy dreaming again after a so long time. since this experience i could integrate myself and have overall more fun in life an really feel so proud to be alive as if my eyes were opend to the natural beauty, mystery and love in this life.
tank you for reading this trip report, it is my first trip report about my first encounter with psychedelics. i hope you enjoyed my report on my experience and i welcome any feedback and opinions from you guys
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i want to write this trip report because it really plays a huge part in my life and there are maybe people reading who had similar experiences an i wanted to share it with you. i warn you in advance this wont be quite short since i cant really sum up shortly.
well to start of, i was 18 at that time and i wasnt really happy. i have always been a pretty active childe, talking a lot and somtimes amuse myself joking around. but at some point when i was 16 i feld a depressiv mood. there were many couses that led to this problem like family, school, social enviroment and me just kinda being disinteresster in everything and not looking afer my needs and health and many more what could also be a result of the unpleasent time i was facing. so i kinda found out cannabis i was using before only to havea fun, acctually was helping me to get out of my chair and say to my self " why the fuck i waste my time poking holes and dont do something produktive" and i would get super motivated and start doing my homewort or any work (what dosent always work quite well when high). but after a while i recogniced this medicine does only help me short term and dosent solve the origins of my problems . so i kept searching the internet for different techniques to defeat this annoying illnes. i tried yoga, meditation, went out for more bike tours, ate healthy. these activitys were defenetly good, but i didnt feel any major changes after some weeks so my motivation diminish. so after a while of watching different psychologist and sientict talking about this topic i bump into the uses of psychedelics. i read a lot of wonderful (and bad) stories about psylocibin and lsd and how it cant do wonder for some people and has changed many peoples live in the positive after only one intense session. well i got really intersetet since i read it can cure depression.
so after absorbing as much information of it as i could i ordered 5 tabs laid with aparently 115ug. well that day i wasnt relly feared or anxius about what could happen, i just felt ready for anything whatewer would happen and had the feeling im doing the right thing cause i just felt it in my guts. i got on my bike and took half of a trip for safty. drove into the fores looking for a quiet spot in the weed between the trees. i laid down and waited for something to happen. so after a while i didnt feel any real changes i decidet to take the other half, and keept listening to the bees what got louder and mor intensive after some time. i decied to stand up and go to my bike and i had a feeling like i was hearing every noise much clearer. so i went on my bike and kept driving in the forrest. i had headphones on an i really enjoied the music and i was just facinated by every human that i encounteredw. driving out of the forrest and then being in the middle of the streets where there was so much traffic made me a bit paranoid and everything just seemed not looking natural. so i quickly changed my way back into the forrest and called a friend (i have never had so much problems in controling my phone what made a phone call nearly impissible) i wanted to meet him at the forrest so he told me where i should meet him but i didnt have any clue where i was so i just kept in line with him for the rest of the time i found him and just randomly drove into one direction, whitch turned out to be the right one. we were walking together throug the forrest while i came up with crazy philosophys of life and the universe an made his mind blow and had the feeling like i was understanding them in a different way. when we sat down on a bench i could see leafs becoming eyes and looking at me, what gave me the feeling the universe is completly created by my mind and it kinda watches me and i watch back at it what kinda was looking at myself. my friend said: "look at your hands" and when i did so i was so astounished i just couldent look back. you see like how the blue veins crawl through your hand and the then suddenly they kina disapear and you see you whole hand shining in red life colour. and then i looked at them cloosley and it seemt like the point on my hand i was focusing on was getting bigger an i could soom into my skin like i had a microscope. after that we went to a babecue, but that was not very relaxing, because i felt unconfortable with these people and the steaks got a bit overburnt what made me feel bad and stopped my hunger. after a while i left the barbecue party and decidet to take anoter full blotter. so i put that in my mouth and drove back home with my bike.the way back was dark but i had no fear i was like going throug whatever may stand my way. so there came a place where the forrest road cuts the pebbel street. on the exit of that forrest road there was a small canyon what you have to overcome in order to get to that pebbel street. but that canyon was full of water but i just didnt give a fuck and just drove right in the canyon and walked with my bike throug the 15cm high water. witch schoes that are complety wet i just set on my bike and kept driving as if nothing happend till im home. it felt like a very uniqe way of being home. i felt like this man that came freshborn from jungle and now kinda sees his house shining with new beauty. i went up to my room and didnt know what to do so i walked around a bit. then after i recognized i had to do something or im being stuck in this kind of helplessness. so i went to my bath an tought it was a good idea to smoke a full bowl of supper slutty haze (i think thats what it was called). i inhaled the hole thing and really could feel my eyes slowly going black when i exhaled. watched few minutes to the ground but then fellt the power arising in me and i looked at the mirrage and my face would always seem to present himself in different looks. i looked at the granit floor and the shapes would look so beautiful and make sense like there was a hidden meaning in the mandala that was showing itself on the surface. and at some moment suddenly immages would go throu my head like some small gnome and things like that and i could see them and they were comunicating to me with other than language. that moment i realiced their message a undescribal euphoria i have never fellt bevore conquered my whole body (an i have tryed mdma). this feeling was so intense i couldnt stop smiling and claping my hands to the sink. i was ther about 10-15 min performing some stone age ritual/dance arount my sink with a never ending and constans feeling of pure love. after this experience i felt like a researcher of his own mind, so i picked my phone put the flashlight on and was exploring the other rooms like i enter new realitys behind every door. i went in my room and put on my headphones with some really trippy relaxin and love songs and kept walking around my dark room with my flashlight. at some point i didnt only hear the musik, but could also see it like its waves or its soul forming wonderful shapes and feelt like the musik is alive and dancing in its rythim in my head. it also felt like i could hear or see like hidden parts of the musik, that when listen to sober wont be noticed. i examined my chair like a dog from the ground and it looked like my vision had improved and i could see it in better quality. then i shined with the flashlight to one wall and i sundely could see some sord of android figures ontop of the light beam making signs to watch out for traffic. i thought at this moment that was somhow programmed in the phone and can be only noticed when on psychadelic drugs. so it would make people who drive home on their bike on lsd and use they smartphone flashlight as bike light aware of the traffic by reminding them to watch out. but of course that was just the only explenation i could construct while i was just so out of ordinary reality logics. then i sat at the computer and looked just straight at the wallpaper. after a short while the smoke in the win10 standard wallpaper began to grow like roots or veins across the screen, what would look like a tree growing roots. then i decidet to watch different art. that really made me think from a new perspective. i interpreted in them so much i wasnt thinking about when looking at them sober. like i could really feel what the arist intend was and what he wants to say with that picture. after a while my cute cat came visit me and jumped into my bed and layd in my lap. that was one of the most wonderful experienxes i have ever had. my cat normaly never comes sleep in my led but this time he looked at me with big eyes and i think he could feel something was different that day. so i could feel his heat and was listening to musik and i was still so facinated by the musiks soul. but i could not only see the musik, but there was something that was my own soul or energy or whaever and there was that of my cat. and i could see it with my eyes closed and when my cat moved it changed its energymovement and the same when the musik was playing and when i was moving or forming a thougt. that way me, my cat and the music were conected and created one unit. it was just the most wonderful experience in my life, the music just sounded so wonderful and special like never before, everywhere there would be beautiful patterns where i look and i had constantly tears of joy rolling down my cheeks. and then i fall asleep after i disconected myself from the great world of music. i slept really good and in the next day i fellt wonderful. i stopped smoking cannabis what i was doing at that time pretty frequently and i finnlay approached people in my school again, with whom i havent speaked for a long time since i was always kinda escaping from society and other people but couldnt really tell why i was withdrawling from my social enviroment. and ever since i have dreams again that occur quiet often and i really enjoy dreaming again after a so long time. since this experience i could integrate myself and have overall more fun in life an really feel so proud to be alive as if my eyes were opend to the natural beauty, mystery and love in this life.
tank you for reading this trip report, it is my first trip report about my first encounter with psychedelics. i hope you enjoyed my report on my experience and i welcome any feedback and opinions from you guys
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