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acid...amazing
Here goes again.. another trip report, but no language to discribe acuratly.
2 hits strong liquid.
Started to some up after about 30 mins.. quite a strong energy rush.. mild anticipation and anxiety. I begin to play the guitar, and it feels wonderfull, my playing alot more fluid and uninhibited. sounding alot better, able to improvise alot better. starting to enjoy the beginning of my trip. UNTIL.. people that i hadnt planned on comming to my friends place, came. my friends girl friend, another girl and this guy that wernt tripping. I thought to myself things are going to start fucking up if we introduce non-trippers into the equation. It it was actually ok. The guy that came wasnt really kewl with me, we were sorta old friends but there was quite a bit of tension between us, which i thought would amplify itself under the influence of acid..
This is where i report my first revelation : he was talking, he was in a drunk stupor, but for the first time in my life.. i looked into his eyes and a strange wave of nostalgia came over me, not only that but it was if i could view the world from his eyes, and see all the pain and witheld emotion within him. i really really felt his pain.. last night i became kewl with him, all in a matter of 5 mins.. 2 years of hate and anomosity . ZAP . GONE. I just had lunch with the guy now and its like we never fought. Its amazing the way i can empathise with people now. I will give you another example of this, further down the line. Lesson learned : Dont hate, because of their views or their lifestyle, their brains have been programmed a different way.its impossible for us to experience of think what they think, if this is the case, how can we judge them?. He ends up leaving with one of the girls he comes with, it just leaves two of my guy friends X and Y and Y's Girlfriend Z. We decide to get down to business and slam on some hendrix. I was lying perfectly still on the bed and i can only discribe what happened next : Life, reality, everything we SAY DO or hear, is in continual flow, life is like a film strip.. everything leads into one another, its beautiful. I was creating my own film. I felt like a director, i felt so in control of what i saw, heard and said. I lost all sense of self. I have never felt so at peace with the world in all my life. i was riding the waves of life..THATS IT. PERIOD. no worrying about money, or wealth or all those manmade coping mechanisms.Instead of actually spending time living, i realise people just spend and consume to cover the fact that they CANT cope with living, they cant cope with the chaos that is life, they see this choas and they cant take it.
I felt the wall, the trees, the plants, my friends, the TV , the music, everything... morph into me and form one glowing universal mass. i closed me eyes and i saw everything spiraling in a never ending mass, of eternity. Everytime i trip on acid, it seems to effect how i deal with people around me, X and Y had the same experience, as ive mentioned in one of my previous trip reports, its like ESP. I could connect on so many levels with my friends, however, this is where it would get a little fucked up: whenever one of my friends left the scene, the whole trip changed. i began to focus on his problems, on his life, and all that troubled him. i cried, i fucking cried. but they wernt totally sad tears. For the first time in my life, i wasnt totally absorbed in my own emotions and feelings. i was thinking in my wise mind, the middle groud between the emotional and the rational mind. i was there.
I realised that "reality" is fake.. totally fake, we call it reality but everything we read and see on TV are just other people's realities impacting our own, humanity is stuck in a groove of spend spend spend.. nobody is themselves anymore, and those who are, are considered freaks.. thats how fucked up it is, and while i was tripping this view of the world just made me break down in tears. The only reason i cant be myself in this "normal" world, is because in order to get by, you have to be a part of the rat race..
We decided to go to the supermarket up the road to get some food and drink. This is where things started to get interesting. We started walking, but is seems as if we wernt getting anywhere. i was walking aimlessly and i didnt really care about our destination, it didnt really matter, each step was full of anticipation and joy. it was like a was in one of those old video games where the same background repeats itself over and over and over. My friends place is near the nightclub area here in Melbourne. So we walked past all the drunks, wild eyed, confused, disorientated. I felt so in tune with everything.. i wanted them to experience what i was experiencing.. a totally new feeling of "i know something you dont know" came over me. I saw sluts, whores, people trying to sell their image, and for the first time in my life, i didnt dislike them, i just realised that there was no way for me to experience their emotions because I WAS NOT THEM. i couldnt view the world through their eyes, so im not in the position to judge them. period. everything outside felt like a giant cartoon. flowing nicely. we returned to my friends appartment and it felt as if we didnt go anywere (usual acid loss of time).
We started listening to music.. TOOL really sounded good for that moment. i was just lost in the lyrics. floating. The trip progressed like this for awhile, until me and my friends started having a conversation putting philosophical framework around what we were experiencing. It was amazing, we talked for hours, about life, religion.. asking questions... not trying to find answers. ive realised that is the key.. asking questions dosnt mean you need to find answers, that is the novilty of life... It really got me thinking.. take a life form as simple as a tree... to us it looks like a mass of cells, contributing to our oxgyen production..but.. what if.. they had senses we didnt know about? what if they were as alive as us? what if they communicated? what if they socialised? how would we know? science is IRRELEVENT!... we cant ever be sure of these things with science, science trys to answer questions and THAT only make us more confused.. I also by this point have learned that to live you have to implement some of your own reality... grow by listening to your iternal emotions rather then some dude on TV. WE are all one, WE are all a part of a great scheme that is incomprehensible!.. there is more to life then what is written in the bible, or the torah or the quran.. you cant simplify life into a book.. its just like fitting the mass of the whole universe into a bottle!... discover your own realities, learn to fine tune yourself.. i will close in saying.. acid is a very special substance, it should only be taken by those who are ready and willing to learn.. it really does break everything down into little peices.. you have to put them together in your own way.. to make sense out of the mess.. I hope this trip report makes sense and i hope im not sounding like someone who is psychotic..
peace, and i mean PEACE...
Emmett
Here goes again.. another trip report, but no language to discribe acuratly.
2 hits strong liquid.
Started to some up after about 30 mins.. quite a strong energy rush.. mild anticipation and anxiety. I begin to play the guitar, and it feels wonderfull, my playing alot more fluid and uninhibited. sounding alot better, able to improvise alot better. starting to enjoy the beginning of my trip. UNTIL.. people that i hadnt planned on comming to my friends place, came. my friends girl friend, another girl and this guy that wernt tripping. I thought to myself things are going to start fucking up if we introduce non-trippers into the equation. It it was actually ok. The guy that came wasnt really kewl with me, we were sorta old friends but there was quite a bit of tension between us, which i thought would amplify itself under the influence of acid..
This is where i report my first revelation : he was talking, he was in a drunk stupor, but for the first time in my life.. i looked into his eyes and a strange wave of nostalgia came over me, not only that but it was if i could view the world from his eyes, and see all the pain and witheld emotion within him. i really really felt his pain.. last night i became kewl with him, all in a matter of 5 mins.. 2 years of hate and anomosity . ZAP . GONE. I just had lunch with the guy now and its like we never fought. Its amazing the way i can empathise with people now. I will give you another example of this, further down the line. Lesson learned : Dont hate, because of their views or their lifestyle, their brains have been programmed a different way.its impossible for us to experience of think what they think, if this is the case, how can we judge them?. He ends up leaving with one of the girls he comes with, it just leaves two of my guy friends X and Y and Y's Girlfriend Z. We decide to get down to business and slam on some hendrix. I was lying perfectly still on the bed and i can only discribe what happened next : Life, reality, everything we SAY DO or hear, is in continual flow, life is like a film strip.. everything leads into one another, its beautiful. I was creating my own film. I felt like a director, i felt so in control of what i saw, heard and said. I lost all sense of self. I have never felt so at peace with the world in all my life. i was riding the waves of life..THATS IT. PERIOD. no worrying about money, or wealth or all those manmade coping mechanisms.Instead of actually spending time living, i realise people just spend and consume to cover the fact that they CANT cope with living, they cant cope with the chaos that is life, they see this choas and they cant take it.
I felt the wall, the trees, the plants, my friends, the TV , the music, everything... morph into me and form one glowing universal mass. i closed me eyes and i saw everything spiraling in a never ending mass, of eternity. Everytime i trip on acid, it seems to effect how i deal with people around me, X and Y had the same experience, as ive mentioned in one of my previous trip reports, its like ESP. I could connect on so many levels with my friends, however, this is where it would get a little fucked up: whenever one of my friends left the scene, the whole trip changed. i began to focus on his problems, on his life, and all that troubled him. i cried, i fucking cried. but they wernt totally sad tears. For the first time in my life, i wasnt totally absorbed in my own emotions and feelings. i was thinking in my wise mind, the middle groud between the emotional and the rational mind. i was there.
I realised that "reality" is fake.. totally fake, we call it reality but everything we read and see on TV are just other people's realities impacting our own, humanity is stuck in a groove of spend spend spend.. nobody is themselves anymore, and those who are, are considered freaks.. thats how fucked up it is, and while i was tripping this view of the world just made me break down in tears. The only reason i cant be myself in this "normal" world, is because in order to get by, you have to be a part of the rat race..
We decided to go to the supermarket up the road to get some food and drink. This is where things started to get interesting. We started walking, but is seems as if we wernt getting anywhere. i was walking aimlessly and i didnt really care about our destination, it didnt really matter, each step was full of anticipation and joy. it was like a was in one of those old video games where the same background repeats itself over and over and over. My friends place is near the nightclub area here in Melbourne. So we walked past all the drunks, wild eyed, confused, disorientated. I felt so in tune with everything.. i wanted them to experience what i was experiencing.. a totally new feeling of "i know something you dont know" came over me. I saw sluts, whores, people trying to sell their image, and for the first time in my life, i didnt dislike them, i just realised that there was no way for me to experience their emotions because I WAS NOT THEM. i couldnt view the world through their eyes, so im not in the position to judge them. period. everything outside felt like a giant cartoon. flowing nicely. we returned to my friends appartment and it felt as if we didnt go anywere (usual acid loss of time).
We started listening to music.. TOOL really sounded good for that moment. i was just lost in the lyrics. floating. The trip progressed like this for awhile, until me and my friends started having a conversation putting philosophical framework around what we were experiencing. It was amazing, we talked for hours, about life, religion.. asking questions... not trying to find answers. ive realised that is the key.. asking questions dosnt mean you need to find answers, that is the novilty of life... It really got me thinking.. take a life form as simple as a tree... to us it looks like a mass of cells, contributing to our oxgyen production..but.. what if.. they had senses we didnt know about? what if they were as alive as us? what if they communicated? what if they socialised? how would we know? science is IRRELEVENT!... we cant ever be sure of these things with science, science trys to answer questions and THAT only make us more confused.. I also by this point have learned that to live you have to implement some of your own reality... grow by listening to your iternal emotions rather then some dude on TV. WE are all one, WE are all a part of a great scheme that is incomprehensible!.. there is more to life then what is written in the bible, or the torah or the quran.. you cant simplify life into a book.. its just like fitting the mass of the whole universe into a bottle!... discover your own realities, learn to fine tune yourself.. i will close in saying.. acid is a very special substance, it should only be taken by those who are ready and willing to learn.. it really does break everything down into little peices.. you have to put them together in your own way.. to make sense out of the mess.. I hope this trip report makes sense and i hope im not sounding like someone who is psychotic..
peace, and i mean PEACE...
Emmett
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