I did a sugar cube that i got from a trustworty friend one morning after leaving Lounge on swanston street. We got to my friends house in the middle of nowhere in Pakenham.
The setting was good. He has been a friend of mine for 4 years and we are very comfortable with each other. Most of my first experiances with different drugs have been with him.
his house is on a street with a few other houses in a newly established estate. Theres grass and trees, flowers everywhere. a small river that leads to a lake with a man-made island in the middle.
As it was my first time i only did half the sugarcube, and since i am more experianced with drugs, we agreed that my friend would wait until i see how it was before he did it too. After about half an hour nothing was happening so i did the second half. My friend also did his at the same time.
We went outside for a smoke and sat down on a sofa in his garage. Slowly, and very subtly the garage door, which is that tin material and is sorta wavey, started to slowly wobble. when i looked around everything was sort of moving like a wave. but t was very subtle and i didnt know if it was because i didnt wear my glasses or of it was the lsd. a few minutes later we noticed the brick wall was changing. all the different specks of brick were changing and moving. individual bricks were rotating places. we were staring at a cabinet and the colors on the wood were bleeding. just dripping as if paint was leaking off it.
we were havin a great time, amazed at how powerful this drug was. It was just the begining though. We walked out in the backyard. The clouds were snow white and puffy and the sun was shining. We sat on the grass and it felt as if the long grass was carryng me. the clouds were moving at an incredible speed and it seemed as if they were playing with each other.
We decided to go for a walk and all the colors of nature just hit us like a ton of bricks. we had huge smiles on our faces and could not believe at how beautiful everything was. we sat down in the middle of the island and just watched the water flow. A bee sat on me and i didnt freak out at all. The bee grew, it grew to about half my size and then just flew up into the sky.
It had been about 4 hours since we had dropped. Its hard to explain everything i felt and saw. I was happy. Life was good and i knew that there had to be some sort of god out there. Everything was just to beautiful. Full of life and energy. Everything was connected to each other through the energy. there were these really faint and subtle lazer rays coming out of the points of my fingers, connecting with everything else that had life.
when we got back to the house, this is when things went bad. It was about 3pm. His mum was to be home in about 2 hours. We thought we would sober up by then. At 4 we decided to have a few cones to get to sleep (bad idea).
after a few big cones, i stood up. walked inside and started to laugh like a mad man. i didnt know what was funny. Laughter turned into screams. screams turned into tears and i suddenly blacked out. I know this because the next thing i remember my mate was holding me in his arms on the floor. I started to yell at him, asking him why he was grabbing me. i thought he was tryng to fight me. He calmed me down, and we went into his room to get some sleep.
I shut my eyes, but i just couldnt sleep. all i could see and feel in my mind was this little man sitting in the middle of my brain, making everything work. It felt as if he was working overtime and not coping with all the work he had to do. My mind was racin and was just going so fast. It sorta felt like how a mouse feels running on that wheel thingy. It just keeps running and running. as fast as it can, making all the other wheels and levers turn.
I got up, my friend got up. Both at the same time. In the same way. we were scared. We both knew we couldnt sleep. We wernt talking. Closed our eyes again. both got up same time. decided we needed to sleep in seperate rooms. Im alone, tryng to sleep. Brain was working way to fast. I get up, go to the kitchen, i see my friend walking to the kitchen. Everything we do is exactly the same. not even a split second of a difference. We watch tv and the tv is just telling us that we're like this forever, and that the only way to get out is we we stick together and help each other out. at this stage, i start to get memory blanks. I sorta feel as if im blacking in and out.
I feel huge paranoia. i feel as if my friend wants me to go home, but also as if he wants me to stay because he is scared. after a few arguments. i cant handle it anymore. i leave. im scared for me and my friend. I feel as if i leave him he will die, but if i stay that we will both die anyway. I get into my car (this was stupid, i know. but i was so scared that i took the risk) driving home was like one big loop. Drive, change gears, headcheck, stop at red light. Every car was a Holden, or so it seemed, it felt as if thy were undercovers following me, so i was even more scared.
It was one big loop. a 15km drive took me 2 hours. drive, gears, headcheck, stop. one big loop. I got to the park next to my house and turned on the car stereo. my friend was talking to me. asking why i left him, why i just let him die. i turn it off. but he doesnt leave. hes in my head, yelling, screaming for his life. i call numerous other friends to get them to comfort me. I feel better when on the phone to them. but once they have to go, i spiral back out of control. I stayed at the car park for 6 hours. from about 6pm to midnight. waiting for my friend to finish work to come get me.
He comes to get me, i feel exhausted. brain is a mess. tryng to make sense of everything.
****** that was the only time i tried lsd, and after numerous months of talking with co-tripper. we decided that the reason everything went to shit was because we knew his mum would be coming home, and that we tried to sober up. I will be having my second trip as soon as i can. I cant wait to experiance the beauty of it all again. I am doing it with my sister, we agreed if done with my other mate, bad experiances might pop up. Im going to have some valium and xanax with me just incase things turn bad again..
but im confident i am ready for it all again, going into it with an open mind.