Hi everyone, as you can see, I'm new to the forums and just made account to post this and get some relevant feedback.
This might become too long to read, but I'll try to use words sparingly. About a couple of months ago I did my first shrooms followed by acid a few weeks later. After experimenting with different dosages and not really having too serious effects from anything and having realized I can cope with the substances, I decided to take shrooms one day at a friend's house. Since they didn't work after about 2 hours, I decided to drop one tab of acid that I had previously taken two with no serious effects. To make this clear, I'll post a schedule of what happened:
2PM - 15g Hollandia truffles, psilocybin
T+2h 1 hit of LSD
T+3h 1 hit of LSD
T+4h 2 hits of LSD
T+5.5h 1 joint of weed
After smoking the weed, it became apparent that weed should not be underestimated under the influence of LSD as I was soon completely out of it, I saw tracers with massive pixel trails when my buddy moved his head, the visuals became so intense I couldn't differentiate objects or people from the background or my own visuals that were like a layer in front of everything I saw. I then decided to lay down and try to reason with myself, acknowledging I'd taken a drug and it will pass in a couple of hours. Needless to say, I was caught pants-down with my dick in my hand when the peak hit me, so after about 30 seconds of laying down, my body felt odd as if I wasn't in it anymore. I couldn't really think either, because my mind was racing faster than it ever has with CEV-s that I couldn't just hide from. This scared me and I decided to get some water, but lord oh lord, on the way to the kitchen I happened to see myself in the mirror from close up, which scared me even more. I'm not going to expand on the mirror-experience, since they're always individual and unique and most people who have done acid will know what I'm trying to convey here. I also need to mention the fact I had promised my girlfriend that I would be home at around 8PM, but by the time the peak hit me, it was already 8PM and I started getting extremely guilt-ridden and paranoid, which basically induced a bad trip.
Anyhow, after about 45 minutes of such tripping, I decided I couldn't handle it and dropped 4 Valium which brought me back to my senses in about 30-40 minutes, also talking with a fellow acid tripper on MSN calmed me down as he was sober and talked me through it.
I just dropped acid yesterday, this time I approached it more carefully, so 2 tabs of the same acid. On the come-up, I was having bad anxiety and fear of going back to the state I was in the last time. This lasted for about 2 hours and I kept feeling the same sensation of nearly having another OBE, which was something I definitely didn't want. It didn't get as bad and we decide to smoke some weed, just a couple of very small hits, unlike a full joint last time. After about 15 minutes, I felt some slight panic rushes come over as I thought I heard voices and footsteps in the hallway. During the trip, I also kept worrying about my friends, one of whom tried acid for the first time, as I felt I couldn't cope with a situation where everybody had lost their minds, I needed some grip on reality to hold onto. Luckily, they were fine, the first-timer was a bit overwhelmed by the peak waves from time to time.
Now to my actual question: any suggestions or tips to prevent the anxiety and paranoia that comes with the come-up and the peak (not knowing how hard the acid peak will hit you and fearing to go back into the state I was in last time, losing bodily senses) next time? Pointers on how to let go and let the experience immerse you without feeling fear would be much appreciated. I thought about not doing acid or shrooms for about 1-2 months and taking a very good day with the perfect set and setting (perhaps even somewhere else than my buddy's place, which has been the place we've dropped each and every time) to revisit Lucy. This time, I did set two back-up plans that would have calmed me down if things had gone south. One of them was knowing we had a wide array of benzos and plenty of Valium to come down from the trip fast and I also had an experienced tripper available on the phone when necessary.
I'm aware this has everything to do with my mindset and psychology, the experience from my last trip and I also know I have a relatively strong psyche and while sober, not much can bring me out of balance. I will be more careful with the set and make sure nothing has been bothering me and also make sure I'm ready and good to go and experience a full-blown acid trip again.
This might become too long to read, but I'll try to use words sparingly. About a couple of months ago I did my first shrooms followed by acid a few weeks later. After experimenting with different dosages and not really having too serious effects from anything and having realized I can cope with the substances, I decided to take shrooms one day at a friend's house. Since they didn't work after about 2 hours, I decided to drop one tab of acid that I had previously taken two with no serious effects. To make this clear, I'll post a schedule of what happened:
2PM - 15g Hollandia truffles, psilocybin
T+2h 1 hit of LSD
T+3h 1 hit of LSD
T+4h 2 hits of LSD
T+5.5h 1 joint of weed
After smoking the weed, it became apparent that weed should not be underestimated under the influence of LSD as I was soon completely out of it, I saw tracers with massive pixel trails when my buddy moved his head, the visuals became so intense I couldn't differentiate objects or people from the background or my own visuals that were like a layer in front of everything I saw. I then decided to lay down and try to reason with myself, acknowledging I'd taken a drug and it will pass in a couple of hours. Needless to say, I was caught pants-down with my dick in my hand when the peak hit me, so after about 30 seconds of laying down, my body felt odd as if I wasn't in it anymore. I couldn't really think either, because my mind was racing faster than it ever has with CEV-s that I couldn't just hide from. This scared me and I decided to get some water, but lord oh lord, on the way to the kitchen I happened to see myself in the mirror from close up, which scared me even more. I'm not going to expand on the mirror-experience, since they're always individual and unique and most people who have done acid will know what I'm trying to convey here. I also need to mention the fact I had promised my girlfriend that I would be home at around 8PM, but by the time the peak hit me, it was already 8PM and I started getting extremely guilt-ridden and paranoid, which basically induced a bad trip.
Anyhow, after about 45 minutes of such tripping, I decided I couldn't handle it and dropped 4 Valium which brought me back to my senses in about 30-40 minutes, also talking with a fellow acid tripper on MSN calmed me down as he was sober and talked me through it.
I just dropped acid yesterday, this time I approached it more carefully, so 2 tabs of the same acid. On the come-up, I was having bad anxiety and fear of going back to the state I was in the last time. This lasted for about 2 hours and I kept feeling the same sensation of nearly having another OBE, which was something I definitely didn't want. It didn't get as bad and we decide to smoke some weed, just a couple of very small hits, unlike a full joint last time. After about 15 minutes, I felt some slight panic rushes come over as I thought I heard voices and footsteps in the hallway. During the trip, I also kept worrying about my friends, one of whom tried acid for the first time, as I felt I couldn't cope with a situation where everybody had lost their minds, I needed some grip on reality to hold onto. Luckily, they were fine, the first-timer was a bit overwhelmed by the peak waves from time to time.
Now to my actual question: any suggestions or tips to prevent the anxiety and paranoia that comes with the come-up and the peak (not knowing how hard the acid peak will hit you and fearing to go back into the state I was in last time, losing bodily senses) next time? Pointers on how to let go and let the experience immerse you without feeling fear would be much appreciated. I thought about not doing acid or shrooms for about 1-2 months and taking a very good day with the perfect set and setting (perhaps even somewhere else than my buddy's place, which has been the place we've dropped each and every time) to revisit Lucy. This time, I did set two back-up plans that would have calmed me down if things had gone south. One of them was knowing we had a wide array of benzos and plenty of Valium to come down from the trip fast and I also had an experienced tripper available on the phone when necessary.
I'm aware this has everything to do with my mindset and psychology, the experience from my last trip and I also know I have a relatively strong psyche and while sober, not much can bring me out of balance. I will be more careful with the set and make sure nothing has been bothering me and also make sure I'm ready and good to go and experience a full-blown acid trip again.
