jkyl
Bluelighter
First, a couple disclaimers. I never set into an experience with the intention to document it and as such the timeline and details of this one are a bit foggy, despite the fact this happened just last night, but I felt it warranted the good old college try. I must also inform you that like many before me I will fall victim to one of the classic blunders of attempting to explain that which words cannot define.
10:03PM I put 7 blotters under my tongue and not quite 15 minutes later I could already feel my first alerts. I then jumped in the shower as my visuals and typical quivers of LSDsplosion began to really vamp up. The next 30 minutes that passed probably seemed like a couple hours to me as the complex visuals threatened to engulf me entirely. I existed in a fog of fractals and it made little difference whether my eyes were open or closed. Even turning lights on and off couldn't penetrate the swath of colors before me and my range of effective vision was probably little more than 8 inches. Then I took 2 more just because I'm kind of a hardhead and wanted to ramp things up even further. It took me nearly 10 minutes to make it from my room to my car(a usual trip of maybe a minute and a half), where I went to smoke a cigarette and listen to Crystal Castles. When I returned, I loaded 2 bulbs in succession, as many of us tend to do to rocket things just a little higher. Then something happened. Something that just by attempting to describe, I will enact my next and truest failing.
Time did not stop so much as cease to lose relevance and in an instant I felt all that I was, physically and spiritually crumble into dust and darkness. And then light. It's that moment when the subtle realization begins to dawn on you that everything has just changed and there's nothing you can do about it. That little "ah" of utter disbelief as something completely impossible yet inexorable unfolds before your eyes. I witnessed cataclysmic decadence that the Romans themselves couldn't have dreamed of in their wildest fantasies. The end of everything that I knew laid out in front of me. With indignation at this cruel fate I seemed to hear my ego thrust itself back upon me in a bewildered tone of "whatthe-" and suddenly all was as it was.
That's all I feel the need to elaborate upon, since that experience was what inspired me to write this, my first trip report. I don't know if this is what other people would describe as a ++++ and I don't now consider myself to be an accomplished psychonaut, but rather just fortunate to have been able to experience what I can only again fail to describe as pure awe. Hope yall enjoyed the read. In retrospect, I think I enjoyed the ride.
10:03PM I put 7 blotters under my tongue and not quite 15 minutes later I could already feel my first alerts. I then jumped in the shower as my visuals and typical quivers of LSDsplosion began to really vamp up. The next 30 minutes that passed probably seemed like a couple hours to me as the complex visuals threatened to engulf me entirely. I existed in a fog of fractals and it made little difference whether my eyes were open or closed. Even turning lights on and off couldn't penetrate the swath of colors before me and my range of effective vision was probably little more than 8 inches. Then I took 2 more just because I'm kind of a hardhead and wanted to ramp things up even further. It took me nearly 10 minutes to make it from my room to my car(a usual trip of maybe a minute and a half), where I went to smoke a cigarette and listen to Crystal Castles. When I returned, I loaded 2 bulbs in succession, as many of us tend to do to rocket things just a little higher. Then something happened. Something that just by attempting to describe, I will enact my next and truest failing.
Time did not stop so much as cease to lose relevance and in an instant I felt all that I was, physically and spiritually crumble into dust and darkness. And then light. It's that moment when the subtle realization begins to dawn on you that everything has just changed and there's nothing you can do about it. That little "ah" of utter disbelief as something completely impossible yet inexorable unfolds before your eyes. I witnessed cataclysmic decadence that the Romans themselves couldn't have dreamed of in their wildest fantasies. The end of everything that I knew laid out in front of me. With indignation at this cruel fate I seemed to hear my ego thrust itself back upon me in a bewildered tone of "whatthe-" and suddenly all was as it was.
That's all I feel the need to elaborate upon, since that experience was what inspired me to write this, my first trip report. I don't know if this is what other people would describe as a ++++ and I don't now consider myself to be an accomplished psychonaut, but rather just fortunate to have been able to experience what I can only again fail to describe as pure awe. Hope yall enjoyed the read. In retrospect, I think I enjoyed the ride.
