Wu-tang killa beez
Greenlighter
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- Oct 25, 2016
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A little back story.
I've gone through a lot of depression, anxiety, break downs and more due to events that happend when I was a child to early teen. Because of these events I missed years apon years of school and spent most of my teenage years locked in my room playing video games. One day when I was 18 I was forced to do something about it so I packed my bags moved to the other side of the country and started an apprenticeship. This apprenticeship has been the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life mentally and physically especially because I moved 22 hours away from anyone I know but it was the only way to get out of the hole I was stuck in.
Fast forwarding 3 years down the track to were I am now.
I have made serious progress with my issues, I'm getting on top of my anxiety and depression it took a lot of hard work and I'm not close to 100% yet but I'm able to live a normal life. I'm not a social person at all I just cant think of anything to say it feels like my mind is being blocked, like the wifi is turned off and I cannot access the information even with my GF who I'm 100% comfortable around I find it difficult to conversate and its the same with solving difficult problems.
Now a little drug history for future reference.
I've smoked a lot of weed throughout my life, I've done ice for maybe 6 months and it broke me I'm completely off that stuff that's another story in itself. I've done MDMA maybe 20 times in smaller and larger doses. And I recently got into LSD I have tripped about 20 times always the same LSD claimed to be 100-110ug although I feel it might be more around 70ug yet I have nothing to compare that to as this is the only LSD I have tried.I feel 100% comfortable and ready to try a higher dosage and I'm also pretty excited, set and setting will be my house, I live alone and I'm very comfortable here so I'm not worried about anything going wrong but ill get to that later.
The story I come to tell you.
So I started dosing 200-300ug every weekend for about 5 weeks up until last weekend (I'm on a break now) just recreationally but with intent to reset my mind and help me through the work week ahead. now I've started to notice a few postive effects my anxiety seems to have dulled down a noticeable amount, I barley feel depressed recently and I used to feel so drained about work and hated going but now I'm working 60 hour weeks and making loads of cash without any difficulty other then a bit of exhaustion lol. I'm a little bit more social which is big for me I'm having short conversations I feel overall happier and I feel like my mind is a lot less cloudy
It seems to me that the LSD has blasted open a door that should of been opened a long time ago or maybe its just plecebo I'm not sure.
So I had a few questions such as
I'm going to be trying a higher dose for the first time (500-600ug?) for the purpose of delving deep into my mind and seeing if there's more I can do in terms of anxiety depression and being more social, seeing anti depressants turned me into a zombie and didn't help my situation my plan is to meditate for the first time ever and just roll with it see what happens.
If anyone had any insite advice tips or tricks going into it that might help me id like to know because I feel I'm going in a little blind.
And does anyone have a similar story were LSD has helped them?
Do you think it is even possible or is it plecebo and a bunch of crazy talk?
I would apprentice any feedback.
Cheers.
Apologies for the long write up and bad grammer.
I've gone through a lot of depression, anxiety, break downs and more due to events that happend when I was a child to early teen. Because of these events I missed years apon years of school and spent most of my teenage years locked in my room playing video games. One day when I was 18 I was forced to do something about it so I packed my bags moved to the other side of the country and started an apprenticeship. This apprenticeship has been the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life mentally and physically especially because I moved 22 hours away from anyone I know but it was the only way to get out of the hole I was stuck in.
Fast forwarding 3 years down the track to were I am now.
I have made serious progress with my issues, I'm getting on top of my anxiety and depression it took a lot of hard work and I'm not close to 100% yet but I'm able to live a normal life. I'm not a social person at all I just cant think of anything to say it feels like my mind is being blocked, like the wifi is turned off and I cannot access the information even with my GF who I'm 100% comfortable around I find it difficult to conversate and its the same with solving difficult problems.
Now a little drug history for future reference.
I've smoked a lot of weed throughout my life, I've done ice for maybe 6 months and it broke me I'm completely off that stuff that's another story in itself. I've done MDMA maybe 20 times in smaller and larger doses. And I recently got into LSD I have tripped about 20 times always the same LSD claimed to be 100-110ug although I feel it might be more around 70ug yet I have nothing to compare that to as this is the only LSD I have tried.I feel 100% comfortable and ready to try a higher dosage and I'm also pretty excited, set and setting will be my house, I live alone and I'm very comfortable here so I'm not worried about anything going wrong but ill get to that later.
The story I come to tell you.
So I started dosing 200-300ug every weekend for about 5 weeks up until last weekend (I'm on a break now) just recreationally but with intent to reset my mind and help me through the work week ahead. now I've started to notice a few postive effects my anxiety seems to have dulled down a noticeable amount, I barley feel depressed recently and I used to feel so drained about work and hated going but now I'm working 60 hour weeks and making loads of cash without any difficulty other then a bit of exhaustion lol. I'm a little bit more social which is big for me I'm having short conversations I feel overall happier and I feel like my mind is a lot less cloudy
It seems to me that the LSD has blasted open a door that should of been opened a long time ago or maybe its just plecebo I'm not sure.
So I had a few questions such as
I'm going to be trying a higher dose for the first time (500-600ug?) for the purpose of delving deep into my mind and seeing if there's more I can do in terms of anxiety depression and being more social, seeing anti depressants turned me into a zombie and didn't help my situation my plan is to meditate for the first time ever and just roll with it see what happens.
If anyone had any insite advice tips or tricks going into it that might help me id like to know because I feel I'm going in a little blind.
And does anyone have a similar story were LSD has helped them?
Do you think it is even possible or is it plecebo and a bunch of crazy talk?
I would apprentice any feedback.
Cheers.
Apologies for the long write up and bad grammer.