psychedelic_truths
Greenlighter
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At the peak of my acid experience I remember transcending time and space into what felt like a spiritual universe. While arriving at this place it felt like a billion memories, from a previous life before becoming human, were flooding into my mind. I had forgotten who I was on earth and simply remembered everything before it. I remember asking myself "How am I supposed to go back to my life after gaining this knowledge and remembering everything." But then a female being that was guiding me through all of it told me it was time to be reintegrated back into the human reality and that I would forget where I came from.
Before the peak when I was approaching this universe or whatever, I remember seeing a spiral slowly unravel and when it become a straight line I reached the place and remembered everything. I thought, "How did I forget all of this. I can't believe I got lost and caught up in all of this human society with all of the unnecessary concerns and silly social rules and forgot why I was here."
The only reason I remember this now is because I tried it, LSD, several times after this and the third time I managed to bring back pieces. But each time I was like "How in the world could I forget all of this." Anyway, when she said it was time to return, there was a terrible feeling each time. I saw the line ravel back up into this tight and constricted spiral and I was forced into my human body.
During this process which felt like eternity I experienced a loop where reality would more or less reset and I'd be back at the start of the spiral loop. This happened again and again and I kept thinking about how I would reintegrate into this reality again and I would try so hard to hold onto any knowledge. But the clarity I experienced in that state was gone and my fallible human mind with it's unreliable memory took hold again and I slowly forgot and it was painful. It was almost like a really bad joke being played on me. I became distracted with what I was experiencing and forgot most of it. I also remember thinking about my life and saw myself getting in and out of bed over and over again and returning to a potentially monotonous life.
When it happened the first time, I came back and didn't recall a single thing that happened. Later I tried LSD again and my intentions where not to remember b/c I didn't even remember forgetting, I just wanted to enjoy the experience but I returned to that place and I remembered everything that happened the first time while experiencing it again. I remember trying to tell my friend, while the memories from the previous trip returned, so I could remember but I couldn't speak.I then left and went back to the place I had been to before.
I have done LSD many times and have only experienced this maybe four times and on high doses only. Each time I would experience this in this reality all I did was sit there in a catatonic state and would occasionally yell or mumble gibberish. My friends thought I had lost it. But each time I would come back and in a second become completely lucid and normal. They couldn't believe it.
I would go from staring off into space, not responding and having trouble remembering my name to being perfectly fine. Towards the end I remember being fine in the head and just watching as my body would do and say all of this stupid crap. It was like being in the passenger seat.
I look back on this and feel like everything up until that point had been planned to get me to the place I had reached. And after the first time it seemed like there was an invitation to stay or remember or to change my life and I couldn't handle everything I was shown; So then it would spiral out of control.
One more interesting note. The last time this happened, right before I went to the place again, I managed to right down "beatific experience" then crossed out experience and wrote "vision". Then I lost my shit in the real world and mentally/spiritually went back to the place, which I remember being referred to as the Source or Core or something like that, I still don't understand the name.
After I "returned" mentally my friends showed my what I wrote and were making fun of me for inventing words. It wasn't until about 3 weeks later I googled it and found out it was a real word. And not only that but it explained a part of the final experience perfectly. After this experience is when I came back from a painful experience with total peace. And it has, for the most part, lasted since then.
Anyway that's my story. I am interested in any feedback I can receive.
Before the peak when I was approaching this universe or whatever, I remember seeing a spiral slowly unravel and when it become a straight line I reached the place and remembered everything. I thought, "How did I forget all of this. I can't believe I got lost and caught up in all of this human society with all of the unnecessary concerns and silly social rules and forgot why I was here."
The only reason I remember this now is because I tried it, LSD, several times after this and the third time I managed to bring back pieces. But each time I was like "How in the world could I forget all of this." Anyway, when she said it was time to return, there was a terrible feeling each time. I saw the line ravel back up into this tight and constricted spiral and I was forced into my human body.
During this process which felt like eternity I experienced a loop where reality would more or less reset and I'd be back at the start of the spiral loop. This happened again and again and I kept thinking about how I would reintegrate into this reality again and I would try so hard to hold onto any knowledge. But the clarity I experienced in that state was gone and my fallible human mind with it's unreliable memory took hold again and I slowly forgot and it was painful. It was almost like a really bad joke being played on me. I became distracted with what I was experiencing and forgot most of it. I also remember thinking about my life and saw myself getting in and out of bed over and over again and returning to a potentially monotonous life.
When it happened the first time, I came back and didn't recall a single thing that happened. Later I tried LSD again and my intentions where not to remember b/c I didn't even remember forgetting, I just wanted to enjoy the experience but I returned to that place and I remembered everything that happened the first time while experiencing it again. I remember trying to tell my friend, while the memories from the previous trip returned, so I could remember but I couldn't speak.I then left and went back to the place I had been to before.
I have done LSD many times and have only experienced this maybe four times and on high doses only. Each time I would experience this in this reality all I did was sit there in a catatonic state and would occasionally yell or mumble gibberish. My friends thought I had lost it. But each time I would come back and in a second become completely lucid and normal. They couldn't believe it.
I would go from staring off into space, not responding and having trouble remembering my name to being perfectly fine. Towards the end I remember being fine in the head and just watching as my body would do and say all of this stupid crap. It was like being in the passenger seat.
I look back on this and feel like everything up until that point had been planned to get me to the place I had reached. And after the first time it seemed like there was an invitation to stay or remember or to change my life and I couldn't handle everything I was shown; So then it would spiral out of control.
One more interesting note. The last time this happened, right before I went to the place again, I managed to right down "beatific experience" then crossed out experience and wrote "vision". Then I lost my shit in the real world and mentally/spiritually went back to the place, which I remember being referred to as the Source or Core or something like that, I still don't understand the name.
After I "returned" mentally my friends showed my what I wrote and were making fun of me for inventing words. It wasn't until about 3 weeks later I googled it and found out it was a real word. And not only that but it explained a part of the final experience perfectly. After this experience is when I came back from a painful experience with total peace. And it has, for the most part, lasted since then.
Anyway that's my story. I am interested in any feedback I can receive.
