Baker
Bluelighter
After getting lost and spending a couple hours trying to double back on ourselves we arrived at the venue by about 4:30. Before settling down for a bit we decided to explore the venue and bumped into a couple of friends who we brought back to the campsite and smoked a bit of weed. The weed helped set the mood as we all sat around feeling relaxed and joking about the irony and beauty of life. Fast forward to chilling out and getting to know a few doofers it was starting to get dark so we headed in to see a shpongle set. This is where I was undecided on which or whether I would be taking drugs. My friend ended up buying a few tabs so we split them between us. So apparently we ate approximately 300ug of LSD according to the dealer and other doofers opinions (of course you never really know, but it's nice to have at least some indication).
Within 5 minutes I began noticing slight visual disturbances and a increase in energy, I began developing an acid tongue (where the flavour of my mouth changes according to the taste the acid often leaves behind). So I sit down with my friend talking about our friendship and our relationship, what motivates us about our life and an hour fly’s by (I don’t have a clock so I don’t have any idea what the time period is like). Anyway I notice myself becoming entranced by the fire twirlers in front of me and I realise I’ve fallen into a fairly strong sense of ego loss. I am suddenly full of energy and go to stand up and realise that my inner child feels a lot smaller then the outside body, so I’m stumbling all around the place and tell my friend I have to work off some of my energy.
I’m walking around and the energy within me is quite intense and I’m actually shaking a bit, so I dance around like a hippy off his head for a bit, then head out into this beautiful open grassy field between the arenas and bump into my friend. We have a chat about our perspectives on life and we begin to communicate without opening our mouths, the trip is starting to hit me really hard now, I am starting to see peoples historys and futures as they walk past us laying on the grass. I’m looking at the trees and they are folding into themselves into huge fractal patterns. I look into the sky and the clouds are making beautiful fractal rainbows and shining down on my face, I look at my friend and I can see 3 different coloured cone perspectives of my friend, red green and blue. His face just mutates into rainbows between these three coloured perspectives, kind of like 3D glasses. We star communicating almost telepathically if you have the imagination to believe in that. We start exploring the universe as two opposites that have created everything, light and darkness I feel myself leaving my body I am completely ready to die at this point as it is just a part of the never ending cycle of life, and death can be treated as a blessing. I am happy and content I may repeat this life forever but at least I know I can enjoy it, there is no reason to be stressed and fearful.
I open the door on the edge of the universe I could easily step over and reach enlightenment it feels like, and my body would be left behind as a vegetable, my friend understands what I’m thinking about, looks at me and tells me not to go. I think “fuck that, as if I’d leave all these beautiful people behind without giving them any direction on how to find this place”. My friend thanks me for showing me what I see. Our other friends see us laying on the grass and join in the peacefulness but don’t quite reach the same understanding (they weren’t tripping nearly as hard though and seemed to hold the fear of letting go and accepting the trip and all it has to offer). I had virtually no mindfuck but was able to understand the empathy of everyone around especially when these two guys walked up and made a joke about the two friends who weren’t tripping without even using their mouth, the fact that we understood and they knew we understood was orgasmic. I was one with everything and was trying to work out that if I’m a buddhist whether I was the light in this world and brought repetition or whether I was darkness and killed repetition (if that makes sense). Neither light or darkness is evil in this world, they both just exist and if everyone was to avoid being pulled into other peoples light and to appreciate their own enlightenment would be reached.
I understood my gender and reasons for procreation as unecessary, I as a human am meant to prevent the recreation of life, as we are fucking up the earth… The population has reached massive proportions and I don’t deserve the pleasure of repeating the cycle and bringing another human into this world that may not be able to appreciate the world to the same extent as I have. At least I am able to share the light I enjoy with others… while I’m still here. So I philosophised about how much of my life was vanity and arrogance and how much modesty I hold, my friends talk me up as a person too much, I can’t help but be a little arrogant can I, even if I know arrogance will hold me back from truly appreciating the company of others. Compassion is more enjoyable then pity just like attachements hold people back from true beauty. There was a period where it felt like I was sitting on the edge of the universe, with all of it’s beautiful colours and complete darkness, and I chose to stay on this side for a purpose.
So once I’d decided to stay I decided to get up walk off and enjoy the rest of the music in the night, it was about 2am and I was still a little jittery but suprisingly everything seemed pretty much back to normal, the mindfuck never reached an intense state it was always quite simple and as soon as I was walking around again, I felt virtually sober. The visuals weren’t jumping out at me like they were, everything looked pretty normal and everything made the same sense it normally does rather then melting off, fading, glowing and bending into different colours and fractal patterns. Everything was simple I was just loaded with energy and my heart was beating very fast, so I went for a run and still had heaps of energy.
About an hour later I got a bit worried because my heart was hurting for some strange reason, so I took a valium and it slowed the beat just enough to stop hurting but still leave me with plenty of energy. So I went wondering around the doof enjoying the company of others, meeting lots of interesting people and contemplating my future, understanding the world from mathematical perspectives and joking about trashy events we could put on for my 21st in a couple of years. With seedy noisecore/speedcore and fuck with peoples heads having films of scat porn and disturbing shit so people walk away all jittery, haha lots of acid humour for the next several hours. Settling down enjoying an awesome set by hallucinogen and the rest of the music the doof had to offer, with it’s awesome psy trance.
All in all was a pretty awesome trip, wasn’t as intense as I expected, defenitely could have gone deeper and taken more but I don’t see the purpose in such a high dose of LSD, it seems the deeper one goes the more difficult it is to integrate what is learnt, or find meaning in everyday life. It was funny because it felt like I got to see the edge of the universe, got to appreciate the blissfulness and carelessness that death during that moment would offer and then before I knew it, I was virtually back to normal.. quite funny. I did notice I was still hallucinating up to about 12 hours later but it just wasn’t anywhere near as intense so I hadn’t noticed.
OPEN DOOR TO EDGE OF UNIVERSE, PEAK OVER THE EDGE, LAUGH… CLOSE DOOR, HELLO BACK TO REALITY.
Within 5 minutes I began noticing slight visual disturbances and a increase in energy, I began developing an acid tongue (where the flavour of my mouth changes according to the taste the acid often leaves behind). So I sit down with my friend talking about our friendship and our relationship, what motivates us about our life and an hour fly’s by (I don’t have a clock so I don’t have any idea what the time period is like). Anyway I notice myself becoming entranced by the fire twirlers in front of me and I realise I’ve fallen into a fairly strong sense of ego loss. I am suddenly full of energy and go to stand up and realise that my inner child feels a lot smaller then the outside body, so I’m stumbling all around the place and tell my friend I have to work off some of my energy.
I’m walking around and the energy within me is quite intense and I’m actually shaking a bit, so I dance around like a hippy off his head for a bit, then head out into this beautiful open grassy field between the arenas and bump into my friend. We have a chat about our perspectives on life and we begin to communicate without opening our mouths, the trip is starting to hit me really hard now, I am starting to see peoples historys and futures as they walk past us laying on the grass. I’m looking at the trees and they are folding into themselves into huge fractal patterns. I look into the sky and the clouds are making beautiful fractal rainbows and shining down on my face, I look at my friend and I can see 3 different coloured cone perspectives of my friend, red green and blue. His face just mutates into rainbows between these three coloured perspectives, kind of like 3D glasses. We star communicating almost telepathically if you have the imagination to believe in that. We start exploring the universe as two opposites that have created everything, light and darkness I feel myself leaving my body I am completely ready to die at this point as it is just a part of the never ending cycle of life, and death can be treated as a blessing. I am happy and content I may repeat this life forever but at least I know I can enjoy it, there is no reason to be stressed and fearful.
I open the door on the edge of the universe I could easily step over and reach enlightenment it feels like, and my body would be left behind as a vegetable, my friend understands what I’m thinking about, looks at me and tells me not to go. I think “fuck that, as if I’d leave all these beautiful people behind without giving them any direction on how to find this place”. My friend thanks me for showing me what I see. Our other friends see us laying on the grass and join in the peacefulness but don’t quite reach the same understanding (they weren’t tripping nearly as hard though and seemed to hold the fear of letting go and accepting the trip and all it has to offer). I had virtually no mindfuck but was able to understand the empathy of everyone around especially when these two guys walked up and made a joke about the two friends who weren’t tripping without even using their mouth, the fact that we understood and they knew we understood was orgasmic. I was one with everything and was trying to work out that if I’m a buddhist whether I was the light in this world and brought repetition or whether I was darkness and killed repetition (if that makes sense). Neither light or darkness is evil in this world, they both just exist and if everyone was to avoid being pulled into other peoples light and to appreciate their own enlightenment would be reached.
I understood my gender and reasons for procreation as unecessary, I as a human am meant to prevent the recreation of life, as we are fucking up the earth… The population has reached massive proportions and I don’t deserve the pleasure of repeating the cycle and bringing another human into this world that may not be able to appreciate the world to the same extent as I have. At least I am able to share the light I enjoy with others… while I’m still here. So I philosophised about how much of my life was vanity and arrogance and how much modesty I hold, my friends talk me up as a person too much, I can’t help but be a little arrogant can I, even if I know arrogance will hold me back from truly appreciating the company of others. Compassion is more enjoyable then pity just like attachements hold people back from true beauty. There was a period where it felt like I was sitting on the edge of the universe, with all of it’s beautiful colours and complete darkness, and I chose to stay on this side for a purpose.
So once I’d decided to stay I decided to get up walk off and enjoy the rest of the music in the night, it was about 2am and I was still a little jittery but suprisingly everything seemed pretty much back to normal, the mindfuck never reached an intense state it was always quite simple and as soon as I was walking around again, I felt virtually sober. The visuals weren’t jumping out at me like they were, everything looked pretty normal and everything made the same sense it normally does rather then melting off, fading, glowing and bending into different colours and fractal patterns. Everything was simple I was just loaded with energy and my heart was beating very fast, so I went for a run and still had heaps of energy.
About an hour later I got a bit worried because my heart was hurting for some strange reason, so I took a valium and it slowed the beat just enough to stop hurting but still leave me with plenty of energy. So I went wondering around the doof enjoying the company of others, meeting lots of interesting people and contemplating my future, understanding the world from mathematical perspectives and joking about trashy events we could put on for my 21st in a couple of years. With seedy noisecore/speedcore and fuck with peoples heads having films of scat porn and disturbing shit so people walk away all jittery, haha lots of acid humour for the next several hours. Settling down enjoying an awesome set by hallucinogen and the rest of the music the doof had to offer, with it’s awesome psy trance.
All in all was a pretty awesome trip, wasn’t as intense as I expected, defenitely could have gone deeper and taken more but I don’t see the purpose in such a high dose of LSD, it seems the deeper one goes the more difficult it is to integrate what is learnt, or find meaning in everyday life. It was funny because it felt like I got to see the edge of the universe, got to appreciate the blissfulness and carelessness that death during that moment would offer and then before I knew it, I was virtually back to normal.. quite funny. I did notice I was still hallucinating up to about 12 hours later but it just wasn’t anywhere near as intense so I hadn’t noticed.
OPEN DOOR TO EDGE OF UNIVERSE, PEAK OVER THE EDGE, LAUGH… CLOSE DOOR, HELLO BACK TO REALITY.
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