Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
So I end my Bluelight posting with a trip report.
The events witnessed on 03-04/03/2007 were ones not to be forgotten.
Me my friends P, S and K decided to embark on an acid trip together, we had all tripped on acid once before except P who had never tripped on acid before but had experienced mushrooms and salvia on many occasions (Fully breaking through on many) The last time we all dropped was at a party, we were surrounded by our friends and were in a familiar place. We all loved it and didn’t get one sense of fear.
We set the date: 03/03/2007. We picked up 2 Davinchi Blotters of an acid dealer we have met many times before. He was a reliable guy and gave us sound advice. He suggested that first time acid tripper P took 1 blotter. Previously we bought 2 drops of liquid LSD off him, it was pretty intense but I felt I wanted to go up a small step. He said that 1 blotter was slightly stronger than each drop. So roughly 2 blotters was about 2 and half drops of the previous acid we had bought. I thought to myself this was the perfect amount.
Now for some reason we didn’t exactly plan out set and setting too well, I really don’t remember why we didn’t. We decided to drop at our local park (Very big and very nice park) it was a perfect sunny day, wasn’t too cold and wasn’t too hot. We all decided to drop both our blotters at the same time (Even first timer P) We had out good friend T with us who was sober for our sitter. I started feeling the acid around 15 minutes as dropping it, about 30-40 minutes later I was fully up. It was amazing, I watched the clouds transform and the trees around me split into hundreds of trees. We all had major giggles and ended up laughing for about 20 minutes. I then thought to myself how funny it would be if we saw a dog walking round with a suit on, this was hilarious, we all started imagining it. P then started talking about what suits would suit which dogs, it was such an in depth convocation about completely and utter randomness. We all then decided to walk somewhere. It took us about 10 minutes to stand up. I was looking down at the grass and watched it grow up towards me and change colours. We started walking somewhere but got about 3 minutes into to the walk and all turned around to each other and said ‘Where the fuck are we going’ we all laughed and sat back down.
It had been about 30 minutes of silence (Everyone was just enjoying the visuals around us) I put my hand in front of my face and moved it side to side, it streaked as I did it. It was like my hand in slow motion. Our sitter decided we should move somewhere else as it was getting cold and windy in the field we were in. We all walked about 100 meters but it seemed about 2 miles. We described the walk all the same…. ‘I keep turning around to one of you to see if you know where we are going or what’s going on but then I realsied you’re as fucked as me’ At this point the acid was peaking like a mother fucked, it was INTENSE, a lot more intense than the last trip I had. We got to the bench and I stood up on it and looked around. We continued to question each other on what we are doing and where we are going. We’d ask each other then look at each other with a smile on our faces and all say ‘Fuck knows’ at the same time.
Out sitter said that she had to go at this point but would be back out in about an hour. Out sitter T was like out mother, we were crazed on acid and didn’t know what was going on (Was hilarious and not scary or anything in a bad way) we had no sense of what was real or what was happening around us. Did we look fucked to the outside world? I questioned how many people I have walked passed on the street on acid and I didn’t even know and what this was going through their head when I waked passed them. Out sitter left us an we were lost, we didn’t know where to go. I then took lead role and told everyone we need to get back to our home town (About a 40 minute sober walk) we started to walk then we’d all stop and be like ‘Uhh where we going… what’s going on HAHAHA?’ we looked around to the need of the road behind us and our sitter was still standing there watching us making sure we got down the road OK. We carried on walking for about 10 which seemed about 4 hours.
This is the point where it all started going wrong. We were in out own bubble, oblivious to what was going on around us. We were on a main road that was for sure (there was still a sidewalk) the auditory hallucinations I was getting at this point were crazy, every time a car went passed it would sound like it was underwater with bubbles coming out of it ‘Chug chug chug chug’ is what I heard. I watched the cars speed pass me and it looked as if they broke through a half invisible wall a certain distance in front of me. We were nearly half way to our destination and me and P (first timer) were doing great. Sure we’d stop every few mins and wonder where we were going but we saw the bigger picture and realized we had to get back to our home town before it got dark. It then became a race to get back before it was dark, but us being under the influence made things a little difficult. Both K and S started freaking out at this point. They’d ask where we were going and where we were and me and P would explain where, we kept telling them it will be ok when we get back to our home town. It was like arguing with a child at this point and it got worse and worse. We told them we were going back and they would ask why and we’d explain because we need to before it gets dark. You got see the fear in S’s eyes, he was freaked and I knew it. I knew that I had to take lead to hopefully end this madness.
I decided to take us the scenic route to avoid the roads. Unfortunately S and K didn’t know the area, which made them even more lost. They’d ask me if I knew where I was going and I’d answer with a yes but still questioning if I truly did know. Maybe I was more crazed than them? Who’s to say… not me. We were nearly at our destination but at this point S was seriously freaked out and was calling for his friend J. We needed people with us at this point, people who weren’t in another world. We called up our friends who were planning on meeting us, luckily our friend A was already at our destination. S and K wanted to just sit down on the sidewalk but I had to explain to them we had to keep walking. At this point we named this adventure ‘M, K’s, S’s and P’s Epic Acid Adventure) (Good name I know) But this beyond a joke for S and K and I could see that. Again I explained to them we need to go with proceeded with them shouting at me, I decided to take off with P as we had to get back. Luckily they followed us.
We walked down a couple of alleys and got to our destination which happened to be out local park which we have spend many summers hanging at, we knew it like the back of out hand and it was like out home. S had gotten worse he was near crying point and seriously needed J to be here. I continually called him telling him to run here. S was running around screaming for help we got A who was waiting for us at a bit of the park. S was slightly comforted by here but was sooo freaked, he was shouting for his parents, an ambulance, the police… ANYONE. He wanted to be out of what he was experiencing. This cleary was freaking me and P out, and at this point K had just got annoying to us. We’d be trying to help S and she would come out with stupid bullshit we didn’t need at that point in time. She wasn’t getting the fear but just making it worse for all of us.
S continued to run around like a mad man screaming, passing out. He shouted at me ‘M WHERE’S MY HOUSE!?’ and I said ‘Why S you don’t need to know where it is we need to stay here’ ‘WHY!?’ The was ‘why’ was used on this day will never be forgotten, if anyone ever asks me why will I always remember this day? I think so. I had to tell him so I said it was in that direction (I pointed) we were pretty close to his house but he couldn’t go back in that state. His parents would kill him and we’d all get fucked. I’;ve never seen anyone so scared and fucked up in all my life. A car pulled into the park car park and S ran over and started creaming at the guy in the car ‘PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME’ by this time J and J.H had arrived. THANK FUCK they were hear. J was a very good friend of S and is very comforting for him. J.H knows his stuff; he’s done a lot of research on acid and knows what he’s doing. He’s a clover guy. This lifted such a weight off mine and Ps shoulders. We were near insanity ourselves. And yes I do mean S was at insanity.
S was trying to run into the road to get home but luckily J.H just grabbed him and took him back. He seemed to calm down slightly but had the scariest look on his face, he then randomly ran off into the field shouting ‘PLEASE SOMEONE FUCKING HELP ME’ J and J.H ran after him and he asked who they even were.
Our friends M and T (Our previous sitter) had no arrived, we calmed S down and were all sitting around having nice conversations, I felt good once again. But at this point S was just lying in T’s arms crying. I knew he was fucked buy tried to keep my mind off of it. In S’s crazed state he tried to ring a lot of people including his parents. J get’s a phone call from S’s parents asking if everything is OK. This threw us all off badly (His parents are a good friend of my parents) J being sober, explained everything was OK and put the hone onto S who had seemed A LOT better now. He was talking to us normally now, about school and stuff. His parents insisted on picking him up. It had been about 5 hours since drop and we were all peaked still.
After S left the acid died down a lot. Me and P were safe with our sober friends and I felt good again. We all decided to walk into town to get something to eat. We ended up in Maccy D’s for about an hour. Then this group of drunk girls who we knew came and sat with us. I’ve never been so annoyed with anyone in my life, I was actually laughing at them… we all were… even our sober friends. I said ‘Let’s get out of hear’ and we all walked outside. At this point I felt I needed to go home with P and J.H. We said out goodbyes to out friends and set out on a 30 minute walk. It was nice. There was an eclipse happening right at this point and we watched it in a very good location.
We got back to mine and talked for a while then decided to hit some DVDs on. J.H left and me and P were left alone watching DVDs. We reminisced on the events that had just happened, whilst experiencing the acid still. We kept trying to go to sleep but we just couldn’t. I was getting near to no visuals but the thoughts running threw my head were insane. We both had it. It had been about 12 hours since drop and we were both lying in bed silent driving our selves insane (We both thought that was what it was like) Basically we would start thinking about something and it would rapidly start changing into other thoughts like a story book then the thoughts would get so ridiculous you’d snap out of I and be back in real world and think ‘Shit that was weird’ then you’d do the exact same thing again. Over and over, a continuous loop. (I just wanted it to end) Every time I got back into the real world my whole body would jolt. It was very weird; we both came to the conclusion to put the DVDs back on. We ended up watching DVDs all night; I go out of bed at around 9am (With no sleep) and got some cereals. P went home and I went onto the computer to talk to the witnesses of last night about what happened.
I spoke to S recently and he’s fine, his parents didn’t know anything was going down but they were just worried about him (I think they may have heard some random shit on the phone when he tired to call him) But everyone OK. He said he couldn’t describe how he felt exactly but gave these words:
‘It was like I was in a constant loop, I didn’t know who I was or where I was going. I knew I was just fighting the acid but I didn’t know how to set myself free. I tried many times to left myself free (Make myself black out) but I just couldn’t. I thought I was going to die at one point. I thought the loop would never end.’
Tragic but he’s OK and is reflecting on what happened. I say this is my last post on Bluelight, because I have decided I don’t want to be a part on drugs. It may sound stupid to a lot of you but I feel I can’t be here anymore. I set out what I came to do and that was to experience new things and feel things I could never imagine. I tried all the drugs I set out to try (LSD, E, Mushrooms, Coke) and feel I have no need to continue.
I want to thank you Bluelight for helping in many hard situations, I came here for help and I received a lot of it. Maybe if it wasn’t for this site I’d be dead.
Throwdown.
The events witnessed on 03-04/03/2007 were ones not to be forgotten.
Me my friends P, S and K decided to embark on an acid trip together, we had all tripped on acid once before except P who had never tripped on acid before but had experienced mushrooms and salvia on many occasions (Fully breaking through on many) The last time we all dropped was at a party, we were surrounded by our friends and were in a familiar place. We all loved it and didn’t get one sense of fear.
We set the date: 03/03/2007. We picked up 2 Davinchi Blotters of an acid dealer we have met many times before. He was a reliable guy and gave us sound advice. He suggested that first time acid tripper P took 1 blotter. Previously we bought 2 drops of liquid LSD off him, it was pretty intense but I felt I wanted to go up a small step. He said that 1 blotter was slightly stronger than each drop. So roughly 2 blotters was about 2 and half drops of the previous acid we had bought. I thought to myself this was the perfect amount.
Now for some reason we didn’t exactly plan out set and setting too well, I really don’t remember why we didn’t. We decided to drop at our local park (Very big and very nice park) it was a perfect sunny day, wasn’t too cold and wasn’t too hot. We all decided to drop both our blotters at the same time (Even first timer P) We had out good friend T with us who was sober for our sitter. I started feeling the acid around 15 minutes as dropping it, about 30-40 minutes later I was fully up. It was amazing, I watched the clouds transform and the trees around me split into hundreds of trees. We all had major giggles and ended up laughing for about 20 minutes. I then thought to myself how funny it would be if we saw a dog walking round with a suit on, this was hilarious, we all started imagining it. P then started talking about what suits would suit which dogs, it was such an in depth convocation about completely and utter randomness. We all then decided to walk somewhere. It took us about 10 minutes to stand up. I was looking down at the grass and watched it grow up towards me and change colours. We started walking somewhere but got about 3 minutes into to the walk and all turned around to each other and said ‘Where the fuck are we going’ we all laughed and sat back down.
It had been about 30 minutes of silence (Everyone was just enjoying the visuals around us) I put my hand in front of my face and moved it side to side, it streaked as I did it. It was like my hand in slow motion. Our sitter decided we should move somewhere else as it was getting cold and windy in the field we were in. We all walked about 100 meters but it seemed about 2 miles. We described the walk all the same…. ‘I keep turning around to one of you to see if you know where we are going or what’s going on but then I realsied you’re as fucked as me’ At this point the acid was peaking like a mother fucked, it was INTENSE, a lot more intense than the last trip I had. We got to the bench and I stood up on it and looked around. We continued to question each other on what we are doing and where we are going. We’d ask each other then look at each other with a smile on our faces and all say ‘Fuck knows’ at the same time.
Out sitter said that she had to go at this point but would be back out in about an hour. Out sitter T was like out mother, we were crazed on acid and didn’t know what was going on (Was hilarious and not scary or anything in a bad way) we had no sense of what was real or what was happening around us. Did we look fucked to the outside world? I questioned how many people I have walked passed on the street on acid and I didn’t even know and what this was going through their head when I waked passed them. Out sitter left us an we were lost, we didn’t know where to go. I then took lead role and told everyone we need to get back to our home town (About a 40 minute sober walk) we started to walk then we’d all stop and be like ‘Uhh where we going… what’s going on HAHAHA?’ we looked around to the need of the road behind us and our sitter was still standing there watching us making sure we got down the road OK. We carried on walking for about 10 which seemed about 4 hours.
This is the point where it all started going wrong. We were in out own bubble, oblivious to what was going on around us. We were on a main road that was for sure (there was still a sidewalk) the auditory hallucinations I was getting at this point were crazy, every time a car went passed it would sound like it was underwater with bubbles coming out of it ‘Chug chug chug chug’ is what I heard. I watched the cars speed pass me and it looked as if they broke through a half invisible wall a certain distance in front of me. We were nearly half way to our destination and me and P (first timer) were doing great. Sure we’d stop every few mins and wonder where we were going but we saw the bigger picture and realized we had to get back to our home town before it got dark. It then became a race to get back before it was dark, but us being under the influence made things a little difficult. Both K and S started freaking out at this point. They’d ask where we were going and where we were and me and P would explain where, we kept telling them it will be ok when we get back to our home town. It was like arguing with a child at this point and it got worse and worse. We told them we were going back and they would ask why and we’d explain because we need to before it gets dark. You got see the fear in S’s eyes, he was freaked and I knew it. I knew that I had to take lead to hopefully end this madness.
I decided to take us the scenic route to avoid the roads. Unfortunately S and K didn’t know the area, which made them even more lost. They’d ask me if I knew where I was going and I’d answer with a yes but still questioning if I truly did know. Maybe I was more crazed than them? Who’s to say… not me. We were nearly at our destination but at this point S was seriously freaked out and was calling for his friend J. We needed people with us at this point, people who weren’t in another world. We called up our friends who were planning on meeting us, luckily our friend A was already at our destination. S and K wanted to just sit down on the sidewalk but I had to explain to them we had to keep walking. At this point we named this adventure ‘M, K’s, S’s and P’s Epic Acid Adventure) (Good name I know) But this beyond a joke for S and K and I could see that. Again I explained to them we need to go with proceeded with them shouting at me, I decided to take off with P as we had to get back. Luckily they followed us.
We walked down a couple of alleys and got to our destination which happened to be out local park which we have spend many summers hanging at, we knew it like the back of out hand and it was like out home. S had gotten worse he was near crying point and seriously needed J to be here. I continually called him telling him to run here. S was running around screaming for help we got A who was waiting for us at a bit of the park. S was slightly comforted by here but was sooo freaked, he was shouting for his parents, an ambulance, the police… ANYONE. He wanted to be out of what he was experiencing. This cleary was freaking me and P out, and at this point K had just got annoying to us. We’d be trying to help S and she would come out with stupid bullshit we didn’t need at that point in time. She wasn’t getting the fear but just making it worse for all of us.
S continued to run around like a mad man screaming, passing out. He shouted at me ‘M WHERE’S MY HOUSE!?’ and I said ‘Why S you don’t need to know where it is we need to stay here’ ‘WHY!?’ The was ‘why’ was used on this day will never be forgotten, if anyone ever asks me why will I always remember this day? I think so. I had to tell him so I said it was in that direction (I pointed) we were pretty close to his house but he couldn’t go back in that state. His parents would kill him and we’d all get fucked. I’;ve never seen anyone so scared and fucked up in all my life. A car pulled into the park car park and S ran over and started creaming at the guy in the car ‘PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME’ by this time J and J.H had arrived. THANK FUCK they were hear. J was a very good friend of S and is very comforting for him. J.H knows his stuff; he’s done a lot of research on acid and knows what he’s doing. He’s a clover guy. This lifted such a weight off mine and Ps shoulders. We were near insanity ourselves. And yes I do mean S was at insanity.
S was trying to run into the road to get home but luckily J.H just grabbed him and took him back. He seemed to calm down slightly but had the scariest look on his face, he then randomly ran off into the field shouting ‘PLEASE SOMEONE FUCKING HELP ME’ J and J.H ran after him and he asked who they even were.
Our friends M and T (Our previous sitter) had no arrived, we calmed S down and were all sitting around having nice conversations, I felt good once again. But at this point S was just lying in T’s arms crying. I knew he was fucked buy tried to keep my mind off of it. In S’s crazed state he tried to ring a lot of people including his parents. J get’s a phone call from S’s parents asking if everything is OK. This threw us all off badly (His parents are a good friend of my parents) J being sober, explained everything was OK and put the hone onto S who had seemed A LOT better now. He was talking to us normally now, about school and stuff. His parents insisted on picking him up. It had been about 5 hours since drop and we were all peaked still.
After S left the acid died down a lot. Me and P were safe with our sober friends and I felt good again. We all decided to walk into town to get something to eat. We ended up in Maccy D’s for about an hour. Then this group of drunk girls who we knew came and sat with us. I’ve never been so annoyed with anyone in my life, I was actually laughing at them… we all were… even our sober friends. I said ‘Let’s get out of hear’ and we all walked outside. At this point I felt I needed to go home with P and J.H. We said out goodbyes to out friends and set out on a 30 minute walk. It was nice. There was an eclipse happening right at this point and we watched it in a very good location.
We got back to mine and talked for a while then decided to hit some DVDs on. J.H left and me and P were left alone watching DVDs. We reminisced on the events that had just happened, whilst experiencing the acid still. We kept trying to go to sleep but we just couldn’t. I was getting near to no visuals but the thoughts running threw my head were insane. We both had it. It had been about 12 hours since drop and we were both lying in bed silent driving our selves insane (We both thought that was what it was like) Basically we would start thinking about something and it would rapidly start changing into other thoughts like a story book then the thoughts would get so ridiculous you’d snap out of I and be back in real world and think ‘Shit that was weird’ then you’d do the exact same thing again. Over and over, a continuous loop. (I just wanted it to end) Every time I got back into the real world my whole body would jolt. It was very weird; we both came to the conclusion to put the DVDs back on. We ended up watching DVDs all night; I go out of bed at around 9am (With no sleep) and got some cereals. P went home and I went onto the computer to talk to the witnesses of last night about what happened.
I spoke to S recently and he’s fine, his parents didn’t know anything was going down but they were just worried about him (I think they may have heard some random shit on the phone when he tired to call him) But everyone OK. He said he couldn’t describe how he felt exactly but gave these words:
‘It was like I was in a constant loop, I didn’t know who I was or where I was going. I knew I was just fighting the acid but I didn’t know how to set myself free. I tried many times to left myself free (Make myself black out) but I just couldn’t. I thought I was going to die at one point. I thought the loop would never end.’
Tragic but he’s OK and is reflecting on what happened. I say this is my last post on Bluelight, because I have decided I don’t want to be a part on drugs. It may sound stupid to a lot of you but I feel I can’t be here anymore. I set out what I came to do and that was to experience new things and feel things I could never imagine. I tried all the drugs I set out to try (LSD, E, Mushrooms, Coke) and feel I have no need to continue.
I want to thank you Bluelight for helping in many hard situations, I came here for help and I received a lot of it. Maybe if it wasn’t for this site I’d be dead.
Throwdown.
