So recently I had a very strange run in with LSD I have tripped many times before experimenting with NBOME, LSD and Shrooms taking NBOME around 10-15 times, LSD 3-4 times and Shrooms maybe a handful of times but nothing could prepare for my most recent encounter with LSD.
To paint the picture, I'm on holiday having a nice time Palm trees, sunshine, swimming pool etc. two friends of mine had come to visit from Germany we had not seen each other in a long time so naturally it didn't take us long to get on the drinks and start to party, we got back home around 4am to which my friend told me he had taken some LSD with him and suggested we all take a tab, so we did, a single blotter we believed was 200 milligrams.
I wont go into the whole trip but it started off the same as any other regular trip for me, lots of giggling, colours start to warm and brighten up, then objects start to breath and pulse adding new depth, any text or lettering started to curl and swirl on my screen in front of me, but this is what I had hoped for and was really enjoying the experience and feeling relaxed.
Must be getting close to 3 hours in now, I am heading for a complete different reality or lack of reality, I'm laying on my back floating in the swimming pool looking at the stars with my head in the water and ears submerged, everything is silent underwater, it feels as if i have entered a new world! When all of a sudden I started to feel very disconnected, very small, lost and insignificant, I got out of the pool, and with a look of fear on my face, my friends ask me if I'm OK, I just tell them I need some rest and went down stairs to my bed.
Here is where it gets interesting for me because I completely lost all sense of reality, I was nothing, there was no I, all I was, where my thoughts, my whole life, existence, reality, memories are all I have, I am nothing more than my thoughts, when I die they will be no more and my existence will be no more like for example we remember nothing before birth but yet we have no instruction Manuel but we can control this amazing body and brain we have with no prior training. The same will be after I die the exact same as what I remember before birth, nothing, and the world just keeps going on!
Family became a lottery number, I couldn't figure out why I have the family I do and what family really means, why are some people born Into bad situations and families, it felt almost pre programmed and un natural or maybe unjust. I come from a great family which I love very much but why is it that others are not given the same experience.
If I'm honest this was a scary experience for me, I thought I was never going to come back to my reality I just couldn't understand the purpose of my existence I felt so insignificant just like a flash in time. I was laying in bed and I could see the shadows around my bed that looked like arms or roots/branches blowing in the wind and trying to grab hold of me or wrap around me. Tribal patterns in the corner of my eye and when I turn my vision to focus on them they fade away.
By this point I was frightened, I went back up stairs outside with my friends, I looked like I had seen a ghost I couldn't figure anything out who I was, who I was with why I was on holiday, thoughts of friends, family, memories everything was just I can't explain I felt so vulnerable like it was all disappearing and I was never going to get it back my reality felt like it was slowly deleting itself. My friends set by my side and started to comfort me they brought me milk and started to talk to me reassuring me and calming me down, slowly I felt as though I was started to slip back into my own reality as I know it.
A very strange and powerful experience that has stuck with me, I feel good after it, almost a boost in confidence, anyway I just wrote this to kind of help myself put it together but also I would be interested to hear if you have had or know anyone that has had a similar experience and also what is to be taken from this trip? Cheers.
To paint the picture, I'm on holiday having a nice time Palm trees, sunshine, swimming pool etc. two friends of mine had come to visit from Germany we had not seen each other in a long time so naturally it didn't take us long to get on the drinks and start to party, we got back home around 4am to which my friend told me he had taken some LSD with him and suggested we all take a tab, so we did, a single blotter we believed was 200 milligrams.
I wont go into the whole trip but it started off the same as any other regular trip for me, lots of giggling, colours start to warm and brighten up, then objects start to breath and pulse adding new depth, any text or lettering started to curl and swirl on my screen in front of me, but this is what I had hoped for and was really enjoying the experience and feeling relaxed.
Must be getting close to 3 hours in now, I am heading for a complete different reality or lack of reality, I'm laying on my back floating in the swimming pool looking at the stars with my head in the water and ears submerged, everything is silent underwater, it feels as if i have entered a new world! When all of a sudden I started to feel very disconnected, very small, lost and insignificant, I got out of the pool, and with a look of fear on my face, my friends ask me if I'm OK, I just tell them I need some rest and went down stairs to my bed.
Here is where it gets interesting for me because I completely lost all sense of reality, I was nothing, there was no I, all I was, where my thoughts, my whole life, existence, reality, memories are all I have, I am nothing more than my thoughts, when I die they will be no more and my existence will be no more like for example we remember nothing before birth but yet we have no instruction Manuel but we can control this amazing body and brain we have with no prior training. The same will be after I die the exact same as what I remember before birth, nothing, and the world just keeps going on!
Family became a lottery number, I couldn't figure out why I have the family I do and what family really means, why are some people born Into bad situations and families, it felt almost pre programmed and un natural or maybe unjust. I come from a great family which I love very much but why is it that others are not given the same experience.
If I'm honest this was a scary experience for me, I thought I was never going to come back to my reality I just couldn't understand the purpose of my existence I felt so insignificant just like a flash in time. I was laying in bed and I could see the shadows around my bed that looked like arms or roots/branches blowing in the wind and trying to grab hold of me or wrap around me. Tribal patterns in the corner of my eye and when I turn my vision to focus on them they fade away.
By this point I was frightened, I went back up stairs outside with my friends, I looked like I had seen a ghost I couldn't figure anything out who I was, who I was with why I was on holiday, thoughts of friends, family, memories everything was just I can't explain I felt so vulnerable like it was all disappearing and I was never going to get it back my reality felt like it was slowly deleting itself. My friends set by my side and started to comfort me they brought me milk and started to talk to me reassuring me and calming me down, slowly I felt as though I was started to slip back into my own reality as I know it.
A very strange and powerful experience that has stuck with me, I feel good after it, almost a boost in confidence, anyway I just wrote this to kind of help myself put it together but also I would be interested to hear if you have had or know anyone that has had a similar experience and also what is to be taken from this trip? Cheers.
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