continuousbeing2
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So, I've been interested in trying acid for some time now. I have done my fair share of psychadelic drugs (mushrooms many times, DMT, Salvia) and felt an overwheliming intellectual curiosity to do it. So much has been written and said about the drug. So, I have been aking around about it for about a year and have been keeping my eyes open. Nothing.
Finally, on friday i went to the Widespread show here in LA. I was just grooving out to the music when some guy in the row behind me taps me on the shoulder. He looks at me and says "WOuld you like a hit of some really good acid?" Well, of course I was game. I told him yes, of course I would. I then saw him pull out the dropper and realized it was liquid. SHit. I was the one driving and the friend I was with doent have a license. Well I asked her if she would feel comfortable driving home and she said no. WHich is fair. So I asked him to drop it into my water bottel, I figured i would take it the next day or so.
Well, I watch the whole second set while holding that water bottle for dear life. All I could think about was downing it. But i refrained. After the show, i took her home and i went on my merry way home. I got there about 1230. I was torn. I wanted to take it, but it was already getting near one. I wavered bacck and forth for about 30 minutes and finally looked at the dog and said fuck it. Downed the bottle. Minty fresh. So, i said to myself, just ahve to see what happens.
I threw in simpsons season 7 to pass the time of coming up. about halfway through the third episode i said out loud "holy shit" as i realized that in the last 3 minutes or so the world had startred to become insane. I realized that when the guy told me it was a hit of good acid he wasnt kidding.
The world started to rush at me. Everything became energy and ruched by me so fast. It was the most intense thing I have ever experienced. The surges of electricity thorugh my body were so intense I thoght i was going to explode. It was definitely not comfortable. The room started to illuminate with flashed of green, red and blue lightning. And it really illuminated so that I could actually see the other side of the room even though I had all lights off. I was in awe.
I went to sit at the computer so I could put the headphones on listen to some music. I put the visualizations on and watched them for about 10 minutes, even though it felt like hours. Then I realized that I never turned them on. HOly shit balls. I repeated this phrase out loud many times for the next few hours.
I decided to send my closest friends some emails, god knows why. Im pretty sure they didnt make much sense except for in little bursts. I even knew it when i was typing them. Stuff about changing the world, and love and all that good idealistic stuff. at this point the rushes of energy are so intense i need to lay down on the floor and close my eyes and be curled up in the fetal position. But it wasnt bad in any way, it was amazing and awe inspiring. I decided to finish the email i was sending and the letters on the screen started to move around and switch palces on me. THe keyboard and the screen also split into two distinct clones. Wow. I have never experienced visuals like this before. only the warping of things and the bending of light and stuff like that. this was beyond seeing things, this was the bending of reality. at this point i realized that i wasnt even close to the top yet. holy shit balls indeed.
i decided to just lay on the floor with the headphones on some more. a fter some time (i have no idea how long, time was on the edge of not existing) i realized that i couldnt even listen to the music. that so much was going on that i needed to listen to the world.
At this point, the crazy insane visuals started to end and the mindfuck kicked in, big time. Reality started to fold over into itself. As I laid on the ground, i peeled back the layers of reality that is the world we see everyday and looked into the eye of the infinite. I saw everythng i always aimagined was there. Confirmation of my thoughts that there is something greater than us made me smile. I loved it. At this point I had come back to reality a little and i had to pee. on my way out, i looked at myself in the mirror. I saw into my eyes and got stuck in an infinte time loop. I experienced the lives of all living creatures. I have memories of being a 15 year old girl int he mall, of being a grandfather whose wife hadjust died after 80 years of marriage. I experienced prison, i experienced love, loss, life. I experienced eternity in an instant. And it was so beautiful i started to cry. I didnt really notice it at first, but I was bawling. From joy though, not pain or sadness.
At this point i went and laid in bed. I closed my eyes and saw flashes of light, which I knew were exntire existences popping into and out of existence. I was outside of time at this point. I just was.
As I started to come back into my self, i just lay there experiencing the malleable nature of reality. The warping and bending of existence with my mind. I used my hands to warp the world. Not that i could see with my eyes, but that I could see with my brain. i twisted life. I turned it. I prodded it, pushed it. I was god. At one point i felt the twist in my body, in my stomach. I felt the physical reality of me bending it. It was indescribably cool. at this point I knew two things that were diametrically oppossed for an abolsute certainty. That reality was false but also incredibly real, at the same time. I didnt beleieve this, i knew it. And it drove me crazy how this was possible. But it was. And is.
I was still ahving mild visuals of grids and the warping and breathing of things. I was still having mild surges thorugh my body. But i was defintiely back to reality now. I laid there for a long time just thinking abiut what i had experienced. I looked at the clock and it was 830. Wow, it felt like a lot lot longer than that.
Throughout the day I felt very out of it. I had not slept at all that day. I only took an hour nap. But, I am so incerdibly happy I did what I did. And also that I didnt do it at the show. I would not have been able to do anything but sit there and trip my face off.
All in all, it was the most intellectually stimulating thing I have ever experienced. I got confirmation of ideas I have had for years, that I have known to be true but never knew how. THis gave me concrete evidence that th human mind is far more powerful than most humans know or even can imagine. We are living so much int he material existence that we have forgotten our infinite nature. That the mind is the ultimate measure of humanity. We can evolve so far beyond where we are now. Magic exists, we can manipulate reality if we get to that mental level. If we evolve t the next stage of human existence.
In the end, I am extremely happy I had this experience. I am extremely happy that it was so strong (i really think it was a shulgin ++++ as i had complete merging with all of existence). I love that I handled it and didnt go permanently insane. I have so much respect for this drug now. It has so much power. I would love to take a lower dose and see what its like.
All I can think of right now is a line from 311's song homebrew- "oh, ive been insane, and i wont ever be the same"
thats how i feel. I was insane. and i wont ever be the same. And i love it.
Then, on a side note, later that night I go together with my old roomate from college and we rolled. All in all, it was a delightful weekend.
Thank you for reading this, if you did. Be easy. Keep it on the positive.
Finally, on friday i went to the Widespread show here in LA. I was just grooving out to the music when some guy in the row behind me taps me on the shoulder. He looks at me and says "WOuld you like a hit of some really good acid?" Well, of course I was game. I told him yes, of course I would. I then saw him pull out the dropper and realized it was liquid. SHit. I was the one driving and the friend I was with doent have a license. Well I asked her if she would feel comfortable driving home and she said no. WHich is fair. So I asked him to drop it into my water bottel, I figured i would take it the next day or so.
Well, I watch the whole second set while holding that water bottle for dear life. All I could think about was downing it. But i refrained. After the show, i took her home and i went on my merry way home. I got there about 1230. I was torn. I wanted to take it, but it was already getting near one. I wavered bacck and forth for about 30 minutes and finally looked at the dog and said fuck it. Downed the bottle. Minty fresh. So, i said to myself, just ahve to see what happens.
I threw in simpsons season 7 to pass the time of coming up. about halfway through the third episode i said out loud "holy shit" as i realized that in the last 3 minutes or so the world had startred to become insane. I realized that when the guy told me it was a hit of good acid he wasnt kidding.
The world started to rush at me. Everything became energy and ruched by me so fast. It was the most intense thing I have ever experienced. The surges of electricity thorugh my body were so intense I thoght i was going to explode. It was definitely not comfortable. The room started to illuminate with flashed of green, red and blue lightning. And it really illuminated so that I could actually see the other side of the room even though I had all lights off. I was in awe.
I went to sit at the computer so I could put the headphones on listen to some music. I put the visualizations on and watched them for about 10 minutes, even though it felt like hours. Then I realized that I never turned them on. HOly shit balls. I repeated this phrase out loud many times for the next few hours.
I decided to send my closest friends some emails, god knows why. Im pretty sure they didnt make much sense except for in little bursts. I even knew it when i was typing them. Stuff about changing the world, and love and all that good idealistic stuff. at this point the rushes of energy are so intense i need to lay down on the floor and close my eyes and be curled up in the fetal position. But it wasnt bad in any way, it was amazing and awe inspiring. I decided to finish the email i was sending and the letters on the screen started to move around and switch palces on me. THe keyboard and the screen also split into two distinct clones. Wow. I have never experienced visuals like this before. only the warping of things and the bending of light and stuff like that. this was beyond seeing things, this was the bending of reality. at this point i realized that i wasnt even close to the top yet. holy shit balls indeed.
i decided to just lay on the floor with the headphones on some more. a fter some time (i have no idea how long, time was on the edge of not existing) i realized that i couldnt even listen to the music. that so much was going on that i needed to listen to the world.
At this point, the crazy insane visuals started to end and the mindfuck kicked in, big time. Reality started to fold over into itself. As I laid on the ground, i peeled back the layers of reality that is the world we see everyday and looked into the eye of the infinite. I saw everythng i always aimagined was there. Confirmation of my thoughts that there is something greater than us made me smile. I loved it. At this point I had come back to reality a little and i had to pee. on my way out, i looked at myself in the mirror. I saw into my eyes and got stuck in an infinte time loop. I experienced the lives of all living creatures. I have memories of being a 15 year old girl int he mall, of being a grandfather whose wife hadjust died after 80 years of marriage. I experienced prison, i experienced love, loss, life. I experienced eternity in an instant. And it was so beautiful i started to cry. I didnt really notice it at first, but I was bawling. From joy though, not pain or sadness.
At this point i went and laid in bed. I closed my eyes and saw flashes of light, which I knew were exntire existences popping into and out of existence. I was outside of time at this point. I just was.
As I started to come back into my self, i just lay there experiencing the malleable nature of reality. The warping and bending of existence with my mind. I used my hands to warp the world. Not that i could see with my eyes, but that I could see with my brain. i twisted life. I turned it. I prodded it, pushed it. I was god. At one point i felt the twist in my body, in my stomach. I felt the physical reality of me bending it. It was indescribably cool. at this point I knew two things that were diametrically oppossed for an abolsute certainty. That reality was false but also incredibly real, at the same time. I didnt beleieve this, i knew it. And it drove me crazy how this was possible. But it was. And is.
I was still ahving mild visuals of grids and the warping and breathing of things. I was still having mild surges thorugh my body. But i was defintiely back to reality now. I laid there for a long time just thinking abiut what i had experienced. I looked at the clock and it was 830. Wow, it felt like a lot lot longer than that.
Throughout the day I felt very out of it. I had not slept at all that day. I only took an hour nap. But, I am so incerdibly happy I did what I did. And also that I didnt do it at the show. I would not have been able to do anything but sit there and trip my face off.
All in all, it was the most intellectually stimulating thing I have ever experienced. I got confirmation of ideas I have had for years, that I have known to be true but never knew how. THis gave me concrete evidence that th human mind is far more powerful than most humans know or even can imagine. We are living so much int he material existence that we have forgotten our infinite nature. That the mind is the ultimate measure of humanity. We can evolve so far beyond where we are now. Magic exists, we can manipulate reality if we get to that mental level. If we evolve t the next stage of human existence.
In the end, I am extremely happy I had this experience. I am extremely happy that it was so strong (i really think it was a shulgin ++++ as i had complete merging with all of existence). I love that I handled it and didnt go permanently insane. I have so much respect for this drug now. It has so much power. I would love to take a lower dose and see what its like.
All I can think of right now is a line from 311's song homebrew- "oh, ive been insane, and i wont ever be the same"
thats how i feel. I was insane. and i wont ever be the same. And i love it.
Then, on a side note, later that night I go together with my old roomate from college and we rolled. All in all, it was a delightful weekend.
Thank you for reading this, if you did. Be easy. Keep it on the positive.
top job!