giant_slayer
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This was my 2nd time with LSD. My previous time had been with two other people (a friend and her boyfriend). Despite having more last time, I think this trip was a lot more intense. Firstly, I was alone for about half of it, and secondly, I was told that the other blotters I had were very very weak.
I was a little nervous about taking this alone. However as I am leaving the country I really wanted/needed to explore this drug, as I believed it had huge potential for self-exploration (or so I had read etc). Therefore, I headed to my friends house (he was at work). I brought along some coloured pencils, a notepad, three art books (one gothic/fantasy style) and one optical illusions book, two cartoon movies (sponge bob and alice in wonderland), a selection of cds, and some fruit.
1.30pm - I had 2/3 of the blotter (mainly because I am gumby and couldn’t cut it in half properly). I then put on some music and clean up the house a bit (he is a major pig!!). I hide anything that could be dangerous (ie knives) and breakable. His house really smells so I decide to go for a quick jog to the supermarket up the road. I am thinking maybe this had an impact on my trip. I wasn’t feeling anything as I was walking; however the walk takes me past my old kindergarten and primary school. It was lunch time and all the kids were outside playing etc. This made me think of some of my primary school experiences (good and bad), which really made me smile).
2.30pm - I am back at home and I feel a little high. As if I’d been smoking weed a couple of hours before and now just stoned. The flamings lips are sounding really good. Since everything seems to be going sweet, I decide to take the other half. I am feeling very positive and am playing with their cat.
3.00pm - I have put on some shopongle and am looking through the art books. There is nothing visual, however I feel a little physically ill. I think it may have been anxiety? I feel like a million butterflies are in my stomach. I grab a pillow and decide to chuck on spongebob.
3.30pm - I have only gotten through about 10 minutes of the movie and I stop it. I wasn’t in the mood to watch it yet. I stand up and the world seems like it is breathing. Like everything around me is alive. The music is in the other room and I feel as if im being drawn towards it. I decide to change it to infected mushroom (i wanted something more fast/intense). I lie down on my back and listen to the first track. It was fast and instense (a little spooky actually). I am staring at the roof, and I see figures swirling and moving around to the beat of the music. I keep staring and they seem like angels (like little Christmas tree angels).
4.00pmish - I have been lieing listening to the music for a while now. What happens next is what I truly find amazing about this drug. As I am lieing here I feel absolutely amazing, my thoughts are running wild about how beautiful life is. As im lieing there however the cat had decided to walk over me. I don’t mind this as it feels great. It then stares at me …… Then is snarls at me. This has to be the most scariest moment of my life. This cat seems to have malicious intent, like it wants to kill me. I jump up and scream and the cat flys off me. This has sent the cat on a rampage, running and jumping around the room and dashing off to the living room. I am absolutely petrified now. I carefully, walk out into the living room. I am scared shitless (as if for your life kinda thing). I cannot find the cat. I go to the front door, open it and peer around outside. Despite being a nice day I feel as if it is cold and dark. This is another moment which freaked me out. As im looking out the door, I feel something touch me on the sholdure. I freeze in a panic. I feel as if it is death touching me. I turn around and the cat is on top of the couch, staring at me. I am absolutely freaked out and panicing. However I start taking deep breaths and try to relax myself. I decide that the best thing to do is to just get the cat out of my sight. So I quickly grab it and literally throw it (sorry animal lovers) into a spare room and slam the door.
It’s now… 5pmish – I slump down onto the couch feeling exhausted. The cat had really spun me out. My thoughts now go on a completely different angle than they were before. I start thinking about my flaws as a person. I had a notebook and I start writing everything down that I think is wrong with me and how I am towards people. Some of these things include being selfish/self involved. Not caring enough about other people. Not showing my friends enough interest. Not seeing things from other people’s point of views etc. My thoughts then turn to life itself. I feel like (Douglass adams fans) I have been put into the total perspective vortex from “the restaurant at the end of the universe”. I feel like I am completely insignificant, and the universe is just so depreciatively huge. I feel worthless and I start thinking about my life at the moment. About where am I going, as I have since dropped out of uni.
Anyways, im not feeling all that great. The music seems dark and scary. I head to the other room to turn it off. Searching through my cds I hope for something a little more bright. I find the polyphonic spree. Ahhhh. I put on light and day and suddenly the world seems goods again. It is amazing how quickly a person can go from one extreme emotion to the other while tripping. I am feeling on top of the world after listening to this song. I also start feeling amazingly bad for putting the cat away. I hated this cat like nothing else only an hour ago. Then I couldn’t have cared what happened to the cat. Now I feel extreme remorse for locking it away. I quickly go and get it and hug it till my heart is contempt. I feel great now and I want to go out side. I also realize I am extremely hungry. I start thinking about going up the shops to get some food. This is when my mood turned rapidly again. I started feeling an immense amount of fear. About having to walk there (who knows who I could come across!). About ordering food, about everything that could possibly go wrong. I am so scared now. Going outside the door feels like climbing mt everest or jumping out of a plain. However I finally finally finally build up the courage to go outside. And again, my mood changes dramatically. The world seems beautiful. The grass is greener, the flowers brighter. Everything feels and looks amazing. I start to walk, then jog. I feel like i am doing the hardest task anyone has ever faced and I feel so good about my self for working up the courage to do it. I still cant get over how great I feel just because I am walking to the shops. I walk/jog/skip the way there and gracefully order some food. I head back. Everything went perfect, not a hitch. I get to the door to go back inside….. It’s locked and I don’t have keys! ARHAGHA my world turns to turmoil again. The outside seemed so lovely but now seemed like a hell. There were kids/people in the street. I felt like they were staring at me. I wanted to get inside so bad. I am panicking again so I call my friend. He laughs and tells me to go through the back door. Phew. I get inside and everything is alllll good again.
6pmish. – I decide to watch the rest of spongebob. This movie is made for people on acid. I feel like I am 8 again. I laugh at everything, it all seems so funny. I pull out my coloured pencils and squiggle all over it. There is nothing special about it. It is just like a child’s drawing, but I feel that is the most beautiful picture ever. I looking through the optical illusions book and giggle and all the funny things.
6.30pmish – My friends roommate comes home. She is a lovely girl and I am so happy to see her. I really really felt like company at this stage so it was great that she turned up.
The rest of the night is a blast. I guess now I just get all the “fun trippy stuff” as my friends are great distractions from exploring myself again. We went for a drive (he drove obviously), and being the crazy eccentric person he is made it feel like a rollercoaster. He’s never done acid or mushsrooms but tried his hardest to trip/freak me out. Manic screaming at completely random times etc. We ended up at hungry jacks and the place was so bright and crazy. It seemed like a fun house.
Anyways this has gone on waaaaay to long so I’ll stop boring you. I really feel like I have learnt from this trip. I am glad that I took it alone, but I am also glad that I was with friends for the second half. I guess I got the best of both worlds (getting a glimpse at the potential of this drug by really having to face myself, and getting to have a great time “tripping out” and seeing “cool shit”).
I am still amazed at the roller coaster of emotions that I went through. For one instance I could feel like I am superman and invincible. The next I could feel like a worm on the bottom of someone’s shoes. I am now super-amped to explore the world and explore my mind. I also have a renewed interest to head back to uni after my traveling. I was doing behavioural science, and after this trip I really feel like I would like to head into developmental psychology. The next few days I have just watched children (not as a pervert!) and how they act and they simply amaze me now. The mind of a child is just so fragile and imaginative.
Anyways, thanks for reading if you did, I really wanted to get it all down just to put everything into place. I also watched donnie darko for the first time yesterday…. What a serious mind fuck!
Ps some lame random shit I wrote in my book
Everything in life is a placebo. This apple is a fucking good placebo
How do I know if the universe is real . I’m told about the universe from when I am born. I am told everything from when I am born. So how do I know what is real and what is not.
Everything is subject. How people perceive something is to key to everything.
I was a little nervous about taking this alone. However as I am leaving the country I really wanted/needed to explore this drug, as I believed it had huge potential for self-exploration (or so I had read etc). Therefore, I headed to my friends house (he was at work). I brought along some coloured pencils, a notepad, three art books (one gothic/fantasy style) and one optical illusions book, two cartoon movies (sponge bob and alice in wonderland), a selection of cds, and some fruit.
1.30pm - I had 2/3 of the blotter (mainly because I am gumby and couldn’t cut it in half properly). I then put on some music and clean up the house a bit (he is a major pig!!). I hide anything that could be dangerous (ie knives) and breakable. His house really smells so I decide to go for a quick jog to the supermarket up the road. I am thinking maybe this had an impact on my trip. I wasn’t feeling anything as I was walking; however the walk takes me past my old kindergarten and primary school. It was lunch time and all the kids were outside playing etc. This made me think of some of my primary school experiences (good and bad), which really made me smile).
2.30pm - I am back at home and I feel a little high. As if I’d been smoking weed a couple of hours before and now just stoned. The flamings lips are sounding really good. Since everything seems to be going sweet, I decide to take the other half. I am feeling very positive and am playing with their cat.
3.00pm - I have put on some shopongle and am looking through the art books. There is nothing visual, however I feel a little physically ill. I think it may have been anxiety? I feel like a million butterflies are in my stomach. I grab a pillow and decide to chuck on spongebob.
3.30pm - I have only gotten through about 10 minutes of the movie and I stop it. I wasn’t in the mood to watch it yet. I stand up and the world seems like it is breathing. Like everything around me is alive. The music is in the other room and I feel as if im being drawn towards it. I decide to change it to infected mushroom (i wanted something more fast/intense). I lie down on my back and listen to the first track. It was fast and instense (a little spooky actually). I am staring at the roof, and I see figures swirling and moving around to the beat of the music. I keep staring and they seem like angels (like little Christmas tree angels).
4.00pmish - I have been lieing listening to the music for a while now. What happens next is what I truly find amazing about this drug. As I am lieing here I feel absolutely amazing, my thoughts are running wild about how beautiful life is. As im lieing there however the cat had decided to walk over me. I don’t mind this as it feels great. It then stares at me …… Then is snarls at me. This has to be the most scariest moment of my life. This cat seems to have malicious intent, like it wants to kill me. I jump up and scream and the cat flys off me. This has sent the cat on a rampage, running and jumping around the room and dashing off to the living room. I am absolutely petrified now. I carefully, walk out into the living room. I am scared shitless (as if for your life kinda thing). I cannot find the cat. I go to the front door, open it and peer around outside. Despite being a nice day I feel as if it is cold and dark. This is another moment which freaked me out. As im looking out the door, I feel something touch me on the sholdure. I freeze in a panic. I feel as if it is death touching me. I turn around and the cat is on top of the couch, staring at me. I am absolutely freaked out and panicing. However I start taking deep breaths and try to relax myself. I decide that the best thing to do is to just get the cat out of my sight. So I quickly grab it and literally throw it (sorry animal lovers) into a spare room and slam the door.
It’s now… 5pmish – I slump down onto the couch feeling exhausted. The cat had really spun me out. My thoughts now go on a completely different angle than they were before. I start thinking about my flaws as a person. I had a notebook and I start writing everything down that I think is wrong with me and how I am towards people. Some of these things include being selfish/self involved. Not caring enough about other people. Not showing my friends enough interest. Not seeing things from other people’s point of views etc. My thoughts then turn to life itself. I feel like (Douglass adams fans) I have been put into the total perspective vortex from “the restaurant at the end of the universe”. I feel like I am completely insignificant, and the universe is just so depreciatively huge. I feel worthless and I start thinking about my life at the moment. About where am I going, as I have since dropped out of uni.
Anyways, im not feeling all that great. The music seems dark and scary. I head to the other room to turn it off. Searching through my cds I hope for something a little more bright. I find the polyphonic spree. Ahhhh. I put on light and day and suddenly the world seems goods again. It is amazing how quickly a person can go from one extreme emotion to the other while tripping. I am feeling on top of the world after listening to this song. I also start feeling amazingly bad for putting the cat away. I hated this cat like nothing else only an hour ago. Then I couldn’t have cared what happened to the cat. Now I feel extreme remorse for locking it away. I quickly go and get it and hug it till my heart is contempt. I feel great now and I want to go out side. I also realize I am extremely hungry. I start thinking about going up the shops to get some food. This is when my mood turned rapidly again. I started feeling an immense amount of fear. About having to walk there (who knows who I could come across!). About ordering food, about everything that could possibly go wrong. I am so scared now. Going outside the door feels like climbing mt everest or jumping out of a plain. However I finally finally finally build up the courage to go outside. And again, my mood changes dramatically. The world seems beautiful. The grass is greener, the flowers brighter. Everything feels and looks amazing. I start to walk, then jog. I feel like i am doing the hardest task anyone has ever faced and I feel so good about my self for working up the courage to do it. I still cant get over how great I feel just because I am walking to the shops. I walk/jog/skip the way there and gracefully order some food. I head back. Everything went perfect, not a hitch. I get to the door to go back inside….. It’s locked and I don’t have keys! ARHAGHA my world turns to turmoil again. The outside seemed so lovely but now seemed like a hell. There were kids/people in the street. I felt like they were staring at me. I wanted to get inside so bad. I am panicking again so I call my friend. He laughs and tells me to go through the back door. Phew. I get inside and everything is alllll good again.
6pmish. – I decide to watch the rest of spongebob. This movie is made for people on acid. I feel like I am 8 again. I laugh at everything, it all seems so funny. I pull out my coloured pencils and squiggle all over it. There is nothing special about it. It is just like a child’s drawing, but I feel that is the most beautiful picture ever. I looking through the optical illusions book and giggle and all the funny things.
6.30pmish – My friends roommate comes home. She is a lovely girl and I am so happy to see her. I really really felt like company at this stage so it was great that she turned up.
The rest of the night is a blast. I guess now I just get all the “fun trippy stuff” as my friends are great distractions from exploring myself again. We went for a drive (he drove obviously), and being the crazy eccentric person he is made it feel like a rollercoaster. He’s never done acid or mushsrooms but tried his hardest to trip/freak me out. Manic screaming at completely random times etc. We ended up at hungry jacks and the place was so bright and crazy. It seemed like a fun house.
Anyways this has gone on waaaaay to long so I’ll stop boring you. I really feel like I have learnt from this trip. I am glad that I took it alone, but I am also glad that I was with friends for the second half. I guess I got the best of both worlds (getting a glimpse at the potential of this drug by really having to face myself, and getting to have a great time “tripping out” and seeing “cool shit”).
I am still amazed at the roller coaster of emotions that I went through. For one instance I could feel like I am superman and invincible. The next I could feel like a worm on the bottom of someone’s shoes. I am now super-amped to explore the world and explore my mind. I also have a renewed interest to head back to uni after my traveling. I was doing behavioural science, and after this trip I really feel like I would like to head into developmental psychology. The next few days I have just watched children (not as a pervert!) and how they act and they simply amaze me now. The mind of a child is just so fragile and imaginative.
Anyways, thanks for reading if you did, I really wanted to get it all down just to put everything into place. I also watched donnie darko for the first time yesterday…. What a serious mind fuck!
Ps some lame random shit I wrote in my book
Everything in life is a placebo. This apple is a fucking good placebo
How do I know if the universe is real . I’m told about the universe from when I am born. I am told everything from when I am born. So how do I know what is real and what is not.
Everything is subject. How people perceive something is to key to everything.
Totally understand the feeling of becoming a child...
