Well today I took my little one to a friend's party which was lovely for her. Usually these things are completely torture for me. Lots of people around. Usually I feel anxious and can't wait to get out of there feeling like it's the hardest possible thing to do. Now I'm on suboxone I took her today and I actually made conversation with people. I sat there confidently talking to other people like a normal person. I got through the three hours pretty fine. Usually listening to loud musice is really intense n invasive - well it wasn't today.
Oh and then we walked home in the dark. Now was I frightened of this? Nah I blissfully walked home, listening to the river, along the road - feeling calm n tranquil thinking of getting home to have a nice hot chocolate and a sasuage butty.
All is well with the world and I can take my child to a party and be a normal person without being a complete nervous wreck unable to properly talk to someone n not feeling like the loud music is too intrusive.
I actually paid hooky cooky with my daughter n her friends today - this was normal and ok for me to do.
I made the best decision of my life to get on suboxone to overcome my addiction n get my life back n if people want to hate me for it. Well that's their choice n none of my business.
What matters now is now and the future.....
lots of lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnng sunny walks,
around the stalks,
in the countryside,
where many will play and hide
full of trees,
with lovely calm, windy breeze
On, on and along
singing a peaceful song
going at a gentle pace,
after all no need to race.
Anyway now things are starting to go ok and I've got this confidence beyond belief I'm going to change my life. Get ripped, eat healthy, make new friend, learn how to manage confrontations without feeling intimidated n scared and ENJOY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't really think of any other?
Evey
xxxx
Oh and then we walked home in the dark. Now was I frightened of this? Nah I blissfully walked home, listening to the river, along the road - feeling calm n tranquil thinking of getting home to have a nice hot chocolate and a sasuage butty.
All is well with the world and I can take my child to a party and be a normal person without being a complete nervous wreck unable to properly talk to someone n not feeling like the loud music is too intrusive.
I actually paid hooky cooky with my daughter n her friends today - this was normal and ok for me to do.
I made the best decision of my life to get on suboxone to overcome my addiction n get my life back n if people want to hate me for it. Well that's their choice n none of my business.
What matters now is now and the future.....
lots of lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnng sunny walks,
around the stalks,
in the countryside,
where many will play and hide
full of trees,
with lovely calm, windy breeze
On, on and along
singing a peaceful song
going at a gentle pace,
after all no need to race.
Anyway now things are starting to go ok and I've got this confidence beyond belief I'm going to change my life. Get ripped, eat healthy, make new friend, learn how to manage confrontations without feeling intimidated n scared and ENJOY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't really think of any other?
Evey
xxxx
