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KittyPaws

KittyPaws

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Hey there guys,

I joined in hope to learn some things and make some friends. I've been taking codeine / dihydrocodeine most days at least the last 2 years now. I've built up a tolerance so I need 8-10 tablets (300mg) to feel nice and content. I remember the early days when 2 co-codamols would make me feel awesome - Im an ultra-rapid metaboliser of codeine. No one in my life knows about it because I'm a good, sensible girl who got herself a degree and now is a qualified pharmacist. Part of me feels shameful and thinks I should quit. I don't smoke, I don't enjoy drinking.. This is like my little comfort in my life. I know I'm not at my best though, I could work better and be a better friend, better daughter, But nothing makes me feel as good as the opioid hug.

Also.. Two of the best nights of my life were DnB gigs on MDMA. I would love to occasionally have nights like those again, experiment with different substances. I feel like a split person though. One half is the good girl who dreams of settling down and finding that special person, having babies..and progressing her very prospective (and very responsible) healthcare career.. The other half yearns to find like minded people- get down and dirty, and get totally fucked out of our faces. It's a conflict.

Thanks for reading my ramble x
 
Ahhh conflicts. Everyday. All day.a pharmacist huh? To me that would be a bad combo but that's the demon inside me. I'm a single parent to an 8 year old. Pretty responsible really. Except when it comes to my meds. I've been on oxycodone and morphine for some time now some days for pain some days for me. So I know conflict pretty well. I'm new here but have been reading posts for a good while. I hope you find the answers you seek. From Nevada USA
 
Thanks for your reply and sorry for such the delay in responding. I took the leap to go cold turkey and I'm successfully 5 days in.

I wish you all the best with your parenthood and life, I can't wait to be a mum one day. I hope you're okay X
 
hi there and welcome to the site :)

We have a social section for Europe and you can find that here, it is a bit on the quiet side at the moment. We also have a site social thread that you can find here it is fairly offbeat and may seem strange to a newcomer but don't let that put you off saying hello and joining in.
 
Day 6 .. I feel pretty normal actually. I still wake up not wanting to wake up.. I'm not sure what to do with myself or what to aim for. I have a good job which I'll be returning to at the end of the week ..but I've just realised that this habit actually started about 5 years ago.. I mean it wasn't until the last few months that I was taking sooo many tablets.. But it's like.. I don't even know who I am without any substance in me. 18/19years.. To almost 24 years old.. And I don't know the "real me" I'm probably just talking shit like always X
 
Hi there. Well done for quitting. I remember a while ago I stopped taking codeine after daily use and thinking...wow, that wasn't that hard! Of course I would re-use again and trust me the wd symptoms get worse the more you quit then use again!

I hope that now you've made a decision that's put you on the right course! Watch out in a few weeks and months for the mental temptation to kick in! You'll tell yourself you're just gonna take DHC one more time!

I've ended taking 32 Nurofen Plus a day; sometimes twice and it's screwing with my stomach. I wish when I was in the same boat that you're in, I quit for good!

I hope it works out for you!

Elvis
 
Yeah I've been there with the nurofen plus :/ and it's especially bad cause I would have to take them on an empty stomach to get the hit.. Which is really bad because of the ibuprofen obviously . It's surely better to CWE co-codamol. :/

Day 8 :D I will be looking out for the day I'm tempted xx
 
I find the biggest problem is going to work straight. It's just fucking boring. Good luck to you anyway, you sound like a cool kid. X
 
Day 11 .. I thought going back to work would be weird.. But I actually felt the same :S I'm definitely feeling better and sleeping better now. I find happiness in normal things now. When I was using ... Everything seemed so pointless and dull compared to the buzz. I'm not going to lie yesterday I was tempted. But I didn't.
 
Hey, hope alls going good, im new here actually, and from south east England too!
I understand your conflict - I am a physics student at a top uni, I'm a high achiever and live a very buy life, I have so many goals. But at the same time I find myself wanting to spend all my time getting high, my best memories are of being out of my mind - for me I'm a bit of a stoner, before I went to university I smoked about every other day, however meeting like minded people who also just wanted to get high all the time there has made me reach the point of smoking about 4 times a day - I'm trying my best to cut down, I actually haven't smoked in 5 days, but its hard. Getting clean is hard. How are you doing with that if you dont mind me asking?
And despite my constant use of wed, it actually isn't my drug of choice - MDMA definitely is, however I find myself taking way too much of it on nights out so am trying my best to avoid it - it ends up being a very expensive habit i find.
 
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