love

[roarkisdead]

just give me alittle something to get me through the day, doesn't have to be that much. the world is just alittle too hard, the rain too cold, the walls too close.
just give me a taste a sniff a tease.....of what could be what will. only has to take the edge off.
just give me it, its all i ask.
o, you seem to know what i mean. you have this same desire, tempation, addiction. what is the problem.
wrong answer. wrong price to pay, my life, my rules.
you haven't played this game very long, well i have, i know what you do. the feelings you give, the rush the thrill the excitement, then crashing, hitting the floor. room spinning, head pounding, people crying. the trip is over, reality again.
you keep haunting me, cursing me, tempting me, teasing me. just leave, save me from the pain, myself.
take me away. let me be alone. end this. take it all. end it all.
one more time then if it has to be- this is my hell, my heaven

 

[Tijo]

Good job showing a few of the many struggles with addiction. Definately a love/hate thing as you have decribed. "Sometimes a jimi thing slides my way and keeps me swingin'" as Dave Matthews said but in the end you're back where you started, usually even worse. The key word is temporary. As Brandon Boyd of incubus said, "temporaryism has been the black plague and the Jesus of our age".