love/regret/abject misery etc.

I'm sorry.
I just fell in love with you.
I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop it..
and neither could you.
I'd take it all back if I could..all of it..
and I told you so a million times.
I tried to leave so many times because
I knew how it hurt you..waiting.
and how I'd hurt you because I was so scared.
but you wouldn't let me go..you promised never to let me go.
you always knew better.
I complicated everything out of fear..
just like you always said.
I never wanted to hurt anyone..
much less the only good in the world.
it was real. my love. so real..
I wish you'd have asked me what was true instead of believing
someone who beat me weeks before and you blamed me for it.
if I were your friends I'd probably hate me too..
but they don't know the truth.
I'm sorry, my love. so sorry.
i'll never stop missing you..
I wish you'd known the truth.
I wish I'd fought harder.
I miss you so and always will.