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[chestylarue]

I am trying to detox from suboxone. It's very difficult. I have taken it for about 5 yrs and went from two or more every day to two a week. I stopped completely about 9 days ago and I am just now feeling the withdrawal symptoms and they are hardcore and unlimited. I am lost. I can't control my mind. I feel like something is unbalanced almost like a dream mixed with reality. I don't crave the subocone. It's the benzos. I know some kind of relief will come from those and I crave them so bad. I'm so lost. Does this even make sense?

 

[Smoky]

Hi, Welcome to Bluelight!
Yes, it makes sense. Subs are more difficult than heroin to detox from IMO, but it is possible. Yes, your brain is wanting the drug, it is not stable. It's not you, and it will take time to feel better … for your system to reach homeostasis. I was seeing demons flying around, and felt an enormous sense of derealization and anxiety, ocd. It does pass.

Here is the Suboxone/Buprenorphine Mega Thread v. 19, as well as the The Opioid Withdrawal Megathread and FAQ. Also, check out Sober Living below on the right, maybe? There are others going through this. Best, Smoky