Lost...

[malyn]

I'm a new member, intro in new member forum, but I just am realizing it's Sunday morning I haven't slept again, and I'm going to try to clean my house lol...I should be in bed..but all I can think about is how I just don't give a shit about anything anymore..my husband and I split in oct, he's moved out of state and has hooked up already to a new " family" fuck this one I guess and I simply just can't let go..I wonder If its really over him, loneliness, fear of dating again, or if my illness which has me on many meds make me just not care..I guess I just needed a place to vent..I'm lost, in life I guess..wondering if there's a future and when or if things will change...? Just need friends I guess no one quit understands what I think I'm gong thru....o friends or family but is my fear of a lost relationship and being " single" again or if I'm so physically dependent on my meds that I have just given up....lost..

 

[COUSiNSEX]

Well, it's better to be single then in a toxic relationship where both parties have become so co-dependent that the relationship is no longer out of love but just out of convenience because you already know this person, they live with you etc. You can always meet someone else, but I get you on the "don't give a shit" attitude that you have been embracing recently. I myself have begun to feel totally indifferent, dispassionate towards people, friends, the world etc. The medication I take helps me feel happy, but it's all artificial. Don't fear being single, relish in the possibilities of meeting someone new, someone better for you. You may feel down and out now if this whole ordeal just occurred but time will pass and eventually you should feel better. -db-