lost...

[**itsmE**]

I am lost....
In a world where i feel noone can understand me but me
Where my thoughts are so confused
So alone
That i cant even establish a common ground
How is it i can see so clearly
All that i can be
All that i want to be
All that i used to be
But if i ever try to grab hold of it
Or even just reach out for a touch
It slips away out of sight
And im left feeling even more lost than before
Like im alone in a battle for happiness
How is it that i know so well what i have to do
And how to go about it
But when i try to put my words into action
It always comes unstuck
As if to never have tried at all
How is it that i have become so desperate
So pathetic
That i feel i cannot step out into the world
Without the help of an unwelcomed 'friend'
Has life really become that unbearable?
Is it really that bad?
It used to be so much more than this
So why has all its worth disappered?
I know i have to say no more
But how am i supposed to get through without you?
I cannot go it alone
I am lost....
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** the happiest of people dont necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes their way **

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

Shell:
Ya know, everything you write (emails too) makes me feel as though I am looking into a mirror and seeing myself.

I think you know the answer...you're just afraid to admit it cuz you don't know if you can do it...and the thought of a life any different than the one you're living right now seems impossible. But...is this really living??
I know there's a beautiful girl inside of you, so please don't give up. And sweetie, please know that you are never ever alone...I'm always here for ya.

Much love,
your friend 4-ever,
~kimmy.