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lost job for being on suboxone maintenence

I have worked at the same place for 20 years , and i tell no one anything ,i dont want spread around .

Bunch of gossips there .
 
Hi guys. Sitting tight. Holding on. Cravings are such a bitch!! I know after a month they get better. I love living in Florida but I hate how easy it is to get pills. FUCK. Sometimes the cravings get so bad all I can do is cry. Is there anything I can take (non narcotic/herbal) to get my brain back because this shit is nuts. It's like I have a demanding boss screaming at me from inside my own head. And I have this fucking connection blowing up my phone and Facebook, telling me he's got Percs. Jesus, help me !!! He won't stop because when he gets me some, I buy him some too. My guess is he's prob sick and I get it but damn, dude! I'm doing this for me and my 3 beautiful babies. I'm a stay at home mom and I love my job. I starred using again almost a year ago, last July. I have a tmj disorder and got some hydro then one of my husbands workers told me he can get me Percs and it just went on and on from there. I would up snorting blues. FUCK! I had 10 years clean from heroin and an mmtp. Never looked back, was so happy. Had 3 babies in 3 years. Had a great life. More than I ever dreamed of. My hubby is so amazing. He doesn't use. Only smokes weed. He is so supportive but doesn't really get addiction. I moved to Scotland 8 months ago. Codeine is OTC and I talked the doc into 400 50 mg tramadol / month. Shitty drugs but they don't really prescribe anything else there. Anyways. I kept usi g. Kicked the tramadol, that was hell. Comparable to methadone. But now we moved back home. My tmj is such thati can easily get hydrocodone from a dds for it. Which I have now, 3x. And I still have that perc guy. So today is the last day of this bullshit taper I made That I didn't stick too. So I'm out and I don't want more. I just want me back. I want my clean sober life back. There is nothing better than feeling good for no damn reason and waking up feeli t good with no narcotics. I want that again. Thanks for letting me get this out. It's like a dirty secret and I have to get it off my chest. Im going to be lurking around here and posting a lot. I know we all can do this. Life is too good to waste it like this. I don't want to look back a decade from now, when my kids are teenagers and have all theses regrets. God help me.
 
I am right there with you. If you are in Orlando pm me. I'm going to a group at my church tonight. Hold on! Just remember this too shall pass.
 
luckygirl79 said:
Hi guys. Sitting tight. Holding on. Cravings are such a bitch!! I know after a month they get better. I love living in Florida but I hate how easy it is to get pills. FUCK. Sometimes the cravings get so bad all I can do is cry. Is there anything I can take (non narcotic/herbal) to get my brain back because this shit is nuts. It's like I have a demanding boss screaming at me from inside my own head. And I have this fucking connection blowing up my phone and Facebook, telling me he's got Percs. Jesus, help me !!! He won't stop because when he gets me some, I buy him some too. My guess is he's prob sick and I get it but damn, dude! I'm doing this for me and my 3 beautiful babies. I'm a stay at home mom and I love my job. I starred using again almost a year ago, last July. I have a tmj disorder and got some hydro then one of my husbands workers told me he can get me Percs and it just went on and on from there. I would up snorting blues. FUCK! I had 10 years clean from heroin and an mmtp. Never looked back, was so happy. Had 3 babies in 3 years. Had a great life. More than I ever dreamed of. My hubby is so amazing. He doesn't use. Only smokes weed. He is so supportive but doesn't really get addiction. I moved to Scotland 8 months ago. Codeine is OTC and I talked the doc into 400 50 mg tramadol / month. Shitty drugs but they don't really prescribe anything else there. Anyways. I kept usi g. Kicked the tramadol, that was hell. Comparable to methadone. But now we moved back home. My tmj is such thati can easily get hydrocodone from a dds for it. Which I have now, 3x. And I still have that perc guy. So today is the last day of this bullshit taper I made That I didn't stick too. So I'm out and I don't want more. I just want me back. I want my clean sober life back. There is nothing better than feeling good for no damn reason and waking up feeli t good with no narcotics. I want that again. Thanks for letting me get this out. It's like a dirty secret and I have to get it off my chest. Im going to be lurking around here and posting a lot. I know we all can do this. Life is too good to waste it like this. I don't want to look back a decade from now, when my kids are teenagers and have all theses regrets. God help me.
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Firstly and most importantly, block your "connection" from your phone and facebook account right now!. Why have that temptation there?
 
Have you told your oxy hook up what you're trying to accomplish? This should be one of your first steps so you can avoid the easy temptation right away. Loperamide is an OTC opiate that is used to treat diarrhea. In higher doeses (20-40mg) it can provide some physical symptom relief other than just diarrhea, too! Feel free to inbox me if you have any questions, I'd be more than happy to help.
 
Find a different job that will take you or doesn't care that you're in treatment and on suboxone, and consulting a lawyer might be in your interest since what they did was illegal but you'd have to prove it, provide evidence/documentation, etc.
 
I have let that pass. I am taking a little break from cooking so that I can fix my brain. It is just too stressful right now to be in a kitchen....I have come to a stunning realization about my self medicating. I have to believe I'm worth something...growing up I always believed what my parents told me and that is that I am worthless and I'll never amount to anything. I know now this is not true. I have a wee one that I am now able to talk to so I want to be my best for him. I want him to have the things that I didn't have.

Tampa is not too far away. PM me if you want to meet upat a meeting
 
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