madmick19
Bluelight Crew
my heart is pounding with loss this weekend
a true sorrow has emerged that frightens me.
i went to a funeral, my knees became jelly
a tear welled in my eye, i have lost something from my past, a dear friend
nothing short of a lady,
it was my friends gran...
but not only a friends gran, she felt like family.
as the coffin was lowered i was light headed, torn with grief
ashes to ashes dust to dust....
i have hidden away from friends, family
when these things happen i need time alone
i called my best friend today, who also happens to be my ex girl friend
we were still seeing each other till bout to mins ago..
"im seeing some one" she says
i start to shake now, i dont know whats happeng with me, my chest feels like its being crushed, i feel torn
then the hammering of the nail has to take place, i expect her to cut me away with harsh words and she does,
with a fire now burning inside ill let her have this, i know she needs to cut the past loose.
i start to slow down shaking, feeling the emotions of the past now, we stayed to comfort each others loss.
i feel all the emotions of the weekend now,
it will be my saddest day till another comes across to overtake it.
i only wish that it is not soon.
the dark writing i have written here makes me feel at ease with my sorrowful side why is love my most painful side, the side im most uncomfortable with.
i guess every action does have an equal and opposite reaction......
a true sorrow has emerged that frightens me.
i went to a funeral, my knees became jelly
a tear welled in my eye, i have lost something from my past, a dear friend
nothing short of a lady,
it was my friends gran...
but not only a friends gran, she felt like family.
as the coffin was lowered i was light headed, torn with grief
ashes to ashes dust to dust....
i have hidden away from friends, family
when these things happen i need time alone
i called my best friend today, who also happens to be my ex girl friend
we were still seeing each other till bout to mins ago..
"im seeing some one" she says
i start to shake now, i dont know whats happeng with me, my chest feels like its being crushed, i feel torn
then the hammering of the nail has to take place, i expect her to cut me away with harsh words and she does,
with a fire now burning inside ill let her have this, i know she needs to cut the past loose.
i start to slow down shaking, feeling the emotions of the past now, we stayed to comfort each others loss.
i feel all the emotions of the weekend now,
it will be my saddest day till another comes across to overtake it.
i only wish that it is not soon.
the dark writing i have written here makes me feel at ease with my sorrowful side why is love my most painful side, the side im most uncomfortable with.
i guess every action does have an equal and opposite reaction......
