Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
this poem is over due tis my appology letter to someone i hold in hihg esteem. in hopes that they might read this amatuer atempt at rationalizing what my emotions actually are. this one is for you christan.
we were like lovers, you and I, lovers of lifes challenges. free thinking men on lifes puzzling journey.
I learned alot from you, took from you, a sense of completion of overpowering confidence. Every step along the way finding one more peice to the convuluted puzzle.
My life was rocked by what you were and who you would become. i had never known so much confusion before i met you, but like a guiding light, my beacon, you helped me through the shady waters of my deepest depression, my anxietys, my fears, knew me for who i was not who i was pretending to be.
Ive never been so close to knowing who i was through someone elses eyes. i saw everything you saw, the lies, the hiding behind my emotions, it sickened me, the reflection of truth in those piercing blue eyes.
Justice?....karma?, i got what i deserved in the end. I lost something dear to me, something i thought id never loose, a friend i thought i had for life. You meant the world to me and never knew it, never had the guts to tell you, i thought if i let him know i care then im vulnerable, weak, not worthy of knowing. In one day my world, my friend, my fellow journey man in life was gone. The only thing left is the memory of all the perfect days. I will never be able to repay you for that.
If i can never have your friendship back then i will forever live in my thoughts and memories, because there you are perfect, you are everything i tried to make you, everything you tried to be. Forever a perfect day, forever my friend.
-phil-
[This message has been edited by liquidphil1 (edited 13 September 2001).]
we were like lovers, you and I, lovers of lifes challenges. free thinking men on lifes puzzling journey.
I learned alot from you, took from you, a sense of completion of overpowering confidence. Every step along the way finding one more peice to the convuluted puzzle.
My life was rocked by what you were and who you would become. i had never known so much confusion before i met you, but like a guiding light, my beacon, you helped me through the shady waters of my deepest depression, my anxietys, my fears, knew me for who i was not who i was pretending to be.
Ive never been so close to knowing who i was through someone elses eyes. i saw everything you saw, the lies, the hiding behind my emotions, it sickened me, the reflection of truth in those piercing blue eyes.
Justice?....karma?, i got what i deserved in the end. I lost something dear to me, something i thought id never loose, a friend i thought i had for life. You meant the world to me and never knew it, never had the guts to tell you, i thought if i let him know i care then im vulnerable, weak, not worthy of knowing. In one day my world, my friend, my fellow journey man in life was gone. The only thing left is the memory of all the perfect days. I will never be able to repay you for that.
If i can never have your friendship back then i will forever live in my thoughts and memories, because there you are perfect, you are everything i tried to make you, everything you tried to be. Forever a perfect day, forever my friend.
-phil-
[This message has been edited by liquidphil1 (edited 13 September 2001).]
