lost count of the days I have been sober..

thats a good thing, right? cuz it's been THAT long. might not seem long to most, but fuck.. 50 days or so is a life time and a GREAT STEP in the right direction. has NEVER been this easy and have never felt as confident as I do now. I surly changed my LIFE AROUND since getting out of rehab; left the girlfriend, changed jobs, stop talking to a few "people", and left the old apartment and on to the next. doing a 180 here, not your typical 360 and soon be back to where I was. no triggers, no feelings, no nothing when it comes to the opiate. I don't know why or how, but I truly feel great. Come on by and put the dope in-front of me w/ a nice needle and I'd throw it away! I feel that way.. am I completely whacky!? I don't know why but I never felt this confident/good before. My last use was an overdose, and made me realize how miserable I have been over the last year or so.. so what did I do? I changed things, finally. I left the old/bad places behind. I feel great, as said before. Subox or not.. don't care! For the first time in a long time I do not feel handcuffed.. its great! I finally got the balls to cut all and stop!

 

Well done on staying clean. And it's ace that you are recognising the positives of what you've achieved. Sorry that things did not work out with your girlfriend but I guess that somethings are just not
Meant to be
Take care, Evey x

 

Awesome, dude. Did you actually want to quit with every ounce of being or was it a spontaneous thing?
Good job on leaving the girlfriend. Junkie couples don't work out, at all. It's hard enough supporting your own habit, nevermind 2.
Anyways, congrats. Take it one day at a time. Now all you have to do is taper off the subs.

 

its funny cuz the GF was far from a junkie. she tried to help but it was me. I dont know how to describe it but she.. she.. drove me NUTS in other ways. I truly cannot explain the feeling because even I dont fully understand why but I just felt the NEED TO USE around her.