Losing your first love hurts.

I have recently have had a 1 year relationship and on many different terms. Ya know and I had a lot to do with it ending. I am a very jealous person. I let my jealousy interfer with my relationship. This girl my ex new was one of his best friends and they had an intimate encounter many years ago before we had started dating. He had told me this and I didnt think it would be a problem in our relationship until we started to hang out with her. I felt as if she were hitting on him and trying to take him from me. I started to not want to go to her parties. It then got to the point that where we didnt hang out with her at all and i really liked it because i didnt have to worry about her taking him from me.
He then went to jail and was gone for a month and a half. It was the hardest time in the world. Then when he got out he said that he wouldnt talk to her exclusivley and everything would be ok. That he wouldnt talk to her unless she talked to him first. Part of me was happy that i didnt have to deal with the stress of loosing him to her but then again i felt like shit because i was keeping him from his best friend. Not something i wanted to do. but everything was going good until they started to talk. they had made plans to go to coffee and he never told me i had to find out on my own. Then when i asked him about it he said they hadnt made it offical and it was because he owed her money. Well i didnt want to let it bother but it did.. I over analized the situation and made a big deal out of it which ended up me not only loosing my first love but me also loosing my best friend. If i were given the oppurtunity to go back and change things i would if it meant staying with him for the rest of my life.

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