*Cosmic Mist*
Bluelighter
I feel like i'm losing it.
I'm losing it and i don't want to lose it, but i can't help it.
i can't write any more, not to you, not about you... not at all.
I want to look into your eyes and know, 19 years down the line since we first came into contact, that you still love me.
But i can't...
... i can't because you won't let me.
I am the only child you ever had. The only flesh and blood relation that you have had any say in at all. You were supposed to be there for me...
... and nuture me...
...and respect me...
... and care for me...
... and love me...
but i don't know where you are - i haven't in years. I searched long and hard and finally found your address...
... BUt you're never home, and you never answer the phone. You don't answer my letters or return my phone messages.
Sometimes i wonder if i mean anything you you at all anymore. You once told me you'd never leave me - so where are you now??
It's so hard to live without you, but it becomes easier everyday. You'll have to excuse me if i don't say "i love you" next time i hang up the phone, but i'm not sure i even know the meaning of those words anymore - all the love inside of me died when you decided to leave me behind.
I'm sorry mother dearest, but i can't even remember your name...
I'm losing it and i don't want to lose it, but i can't help it.
i can't write any more, not to you, not about you... not at all.
I want to look into your eyes and know, 19 years down the line since we first came into contact, that you still love me.
But i can't...
... i can't because you won't let me.
I am the only child you ever had. The only flesh and blood relation that you have had any say in at all. You were supposed to be there for me...
... and nuture me...
...and respect me...
... and care for me...
... and love me...
but i don't know where you are - i haven't in years. I searched long and hard and finally found your address...
... BUt you're never home, and you never answer the phone. You don't answer my letters or return my phone messages.
Sometimes i wonder if i mean anything you you at all anymore. You once told me you'd never leave me - so where are you now??
It's so hard to live without you, but it becomes easier everyday. You'll have to excuse me if i don't say "i love you" next time i hang up the phone, but i'm not sure i even know the meaning of those words anymore - all the love inside of me died when you decided to leave me behind.
I'm sorry mother dearest, but i can't even remember your name...
