I have been a daily pot smoker for around 3-4 years now. Smoking around .3 grams, 3-5 times daily. I found myself starting to lose my interest in the herb. For the first time ever, I have bomb-ass bud sittin in my jar and i have no urge or desire to get high. Weed used to be my life. I'm not sure what happened... maybe the life changing event of the loss of my father made me lose interest in pot? I'm not quite sure, but I miss being excited about getting my MJ. Now I use it more as medication and I don't technically get "high" anymore even after a .3 sesh from my bong. I find myself going more the benzo route lately. Could benzo use cause lost interest in marijuana? I don't get high off benzos either, I use them for daily panic attacks/disorders. I'm so confused... I used to smoke every chance I could get and now it seems like the fact I could light one up any time I want now is killing it for me and I have no urge to get high, but liek I said I miss it. I was just wondering who else feels like this or could explain why I do or atleast help be better understand why i feel like this. And even though I don't smoke so much anymore, it's almost as if I HAVE to have weed in my jar and if I dont I freak the hell out, even if i wasn't planning on smoking.
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Losing Interest... or something?
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Blind Melon
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I think a lot of it has to do with the loss of your father. There is nothing at all wrong with consuming cannabis (in my opinion), but you definitely don't want to make it your identity. I bet you want to make your father proud, and you feel like being a "stoner" would disappoint him. The thing is, you can smoke weed and not be a stoner. It doesn't have to define you. I think you need to find yourself in order to really enjoy cannabis again. Also, it sounds like you have anxiety (as do I) so I would stick to indica dominant mj.
Careful with the benzos. I am courting addiction with them, and it's a little scary. I get extreme anxiety and benzos are the only thing that kill it 100%. I definitely need to work on that.
Good Luck.
Careful with the benzos. I am courting addiction with them, and it's a little scary. I get extreme anxiety and benzos are the only thing that kill it 100%. I definitely need to work on that.
Good Luck.
Appreciate replies guys, thank you for support. Blind, now that I put some thought into what you're saying... I think you hit the nail right on the head. My father was against MJ, but never disowned me or treated me different as his son knowing I smoked it.