Things seem to be looking up for me right now. I'm off all of my medicines, excluding Adderall (which I'm pretty much off, but have not ruled out taking in the future). Two months ago I was on Carbitrol, Wellbutrin, Abilify, Adderall, Focalin, Temazepam and then Tramadol. Now I'm unmedicated and feel so much better - but my therapist is pretty thoroughly worried about me. I saw my psychiatrist today and didn't even mention being off meds (yet again).
Overall, I feel good like this. I also stopped smoking weed or using any drugs (for the most part), and while I was drinking a few beers a night this past week, I decided today to stop that, as being lucid at all times is extremely important to me.
Of course, this Fall's big vice remains - poppy pods. I've been pretty consistently opiated on them since early September, maybe even late August, I don't remember. Ideally, I want to get off those too and be 100% sober. It just keeps me sane, help me sleep, makes me happier, and relieves my horrible back pain.
Overall, things are looking up, happy to say. Work and school are going well, as is my poetry, and my relationship with C is amazing. In some ways, I feel like I'm becoming a more conventional person - which isn't a bad thing at all.
Overall, I feel good like this. I also stopped smoking weed or using any drugs (for the most part), and while I was drinking a few beers a night this past week, I decided today to stop that, as being lucid at all times is extremely important to me.
Of course, this Fall's big vice remains - poppy pods. I've been pretty consistently opiated on them since early September, maybe even late August, I don't remember. Ideally, I want to get off those too and be 100% sober. It just keeps me sane, help me sleep, makes me happier, and relieves my horrible back pain.
Overall, things are looking up, happy to say. Work and school are going well, as is my poetry, and my relationship with C is amazing. In some ways, I feel like I'm becoming a more conventional person - which isn't a bad thing at all.