So to start off, I'm on very good terms with my doctors and their nurse practitioners. Through them I was diagnosed ADHD and severe anxiety. I'm currently on Adderall, Xanax, and Klonopin. The problem is I feel like the root of all of these issues are from my sleep disorders and I've recently found that only opiates help me to have an actual good night of sleep without waking up in panic.
I initially stretched the truth on how bad my attention problems were but failed to tell them about my sleep issues because I feared they would misdiagnose me as schizophrenic. You see I have terrible wake/sleep cycles, I sometimes wake in a panic, I'll hallucinate, I'll have sleep paralysis nearly every night, if I don't sleep without a light or noise I'll hear things as I try and sleep, whether it be whispers or a loud ZAP as if something just shocked my brain and I jump out of bed. Surprisingly benzos don't help this, and these symptoms only occur at night when I'm tired, never during the day time. This phobia of sleep has led me to sleeping in very bad conditions (loud music, lights) and I wake up feeling like shit and borderline narcoleptic so I need amphetamine to get me through the day. (Also these sleep issues have been life long, not as a result of my medications)
The best nights of sleep I have ever gotten were from opiates, whether it be hydrocodone, oxy, or recently I tried methadone and slept like a fucking baby.
I would like to continue on my benzo treatment due to my addiction and dependence on them but would like to try opiates for sleep because I know for a fact they give me a full night of sleep, I just don't know how to go about telling my doctor this and I also fear being pulled off other medications if they think I'm just looking for recreational use. On occasion I do abuse but for the most part I take it as I feel I need.
Do you think it's possible for a doctor to prescribe opiates as a long term sleep aid for cases of severe sleep disorder? I've tried ambien and it just gives me fucked up dreams lol and SSRI's are shit and so is trazodone, it makes me want to kill myself the next morning.
I initially stretched the truth on how bad my attention problems were but failed to tell them about my sleep issues because I feared they would misdiagnose me as schizophrenic. You see I have terrible wake/sleep cycles, I sometimes wake in a panic, I'll hallucinate, I'll have sleep paralysis nearly every night, if I don't sleep without a light or noise I'll hear things as I try and sleep, whether it be whispers or a loud ZAP as if something just shocked my brain and I jump out of bed. Surprisingly benzos don't help this, and these symptoms only occur at night when I'm tired, never during the day time. This phobia of sleep has led me to sleeping in very bad conditions (loud music, lights) and I wake up feeling like shit and borderline narcoleptic so I need amphetamine to get me through the day. (Also these sleep issues have been life long, not as a result of my medications)
The best nights of sleep I have ever gotten were from opiates, whether it be hydrocodone, oxy, or recently I tried methadone and slept like a fucking baby.
I would like to continue on my benzo treatment due to my addiction and dependence on them but would like to try opiates for sleep because I know for a fact they give me a full night of sleep, I just don't know how to go about telling my doctor this and I also fear being pulled off other medications if they think I'm just looking for recreational use. On occasion I do abuse but for the most part I take it as I feel I need.
Do you think it's possible for a doctor to prescribe opiates as a long term sleep aid for cases of severe sleep disorder? I've tried ambien and it just gives me fucked up dreams lol and SSRI's are shit and so is trazodone, it makes me want to kill myself the next morning.