Ganjcat
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I have been using for a while opiates i mean and my tolerance is not the lowest but ive never not gotten high anyway -cut a long story short, i recently been through some really depressing stuff and i was so depressed i felt detached and just constantly thinking not my usual self, and I know its not good to use opiates for this but it is what it is.
They have always worked for me sometimes a bit less due to tolerance and whatnot but the high was never as subtle or hard to relax with as it is now i mean i know it is subtle but I know my opiates-it shouldn't be this subtle.
Because of how depressed i have been its really taken a lot out of me i feel like i have no energy or will not in the withdrawal way no, I feel this way if I'm high or not and since feeling that low it dont seem to matter how high i get my mind just doesn't seem to want to enjoy life I'm always worrying intensely about feeble things i know they are feeble and i shouldnt be thinking of them but i dont think its the worries its that I'm to used to worrying about stuff now.
But i have been slowly improving by just trying to clear my mind and if i do manage to clear my mind(not worry or think about anything) i can feel the opiate high but i have to consciously make myself not worried which the opiates would do on their own i just wanna get back to my old self i know its not tolerance bcause ive dont experiments no one in my family is very understanding or they just dont care so i just had to write this somewhere im sorry if its against any guidlines i feel a bit better actually after getting this off my chest it would be nice to have some insight from someone else though.
They have always worked for me sometimes a bit less due to tolerance and whatnot but the high was never as subtle or hard to relax with as it is now i mean i know it is subtle but I know my opiates-it shouldn't be this subtle.
Because of how depressed i have been its really taken a lot out of me i feel like i have no energy or will not in the withdrawal way no, I feel this way if I'm high or not and since feeling that low it dont seem to matter how high i get my mind just doesn't seem to want to enjoy life I'm always worrying intensely about feeble things i know they are feeble and i shouldnt be thinking of them but i dont think its the worries its that I'm to used to worrying about stuff now.
But i have been slowly improving by just trying to clear my mind and if i do manage to clear my mind(not worry or think about anything) i can feel the opiate high but i have to consciously make myself not worried which the opiates would do on their own i just wanna get back to my old self i know its not tolerance bcause ive dont experiments no one in my family is very understanding or they just dont care so i just had to write this somewhere im sorry if its against any guidlines i feel a bit better actually after getting this off my chest it would be nice to have some insight from someone else though.