I put myself out there too much. I opened up and let down walls that got me hurt, when I was already hurting.
I was too emotionally dependent on him. And who could blame him. What pressure to be someone's reason for living.
The sex was a really bad idea. He thought "it would bring us closer", and swears its not a line. I never took him for the type like that. And we did go out and have a good night with friends
afterwards so it wasn't like he just kicked me out.
It wasn't even good....I miss sex with my ex thats for sure. That was to die for. But even old dogs can be taught new tricks if it works out.
And if it doesn't SOMEHOW I HAVE to learn to be ok with that. I have to learn to love myself but I don't know how, so I look for it in others.
Maybe I can see a more true reflection in their eyes of who I really am.
OK I'm out before I cry...
I was too emotionally dependent on him. And who could blame him. What pressure to be someone's reason for living.
The sex was a really bad idea. He thought "it would bring us closer", and swears its not a line. I never took him for the type like that. And we did go out and have a good night with friends
afterwards so it wasn't like he just kicked me out.
It wasn't even good....I miss sex with my ex thats for sure. That was to die for. But even old dogs can be taught new tricks if it works out.
And if it doesn't SOMEHOW I HAVE to learn to be ok with that. I have to learn to love myself but I don't know how, so I look for it in others.
Maybe I can see a more true reflection in their eyes of who I really am.
OK I'm out before I cry...
