Looking at mary thru the mirror

[itsabirditsaplane]

I love mary. nothing seems to satisfy me better other than sex on a high level. but im a little paranoid about the rebirth process. Bud is one of those things that has attached herself to my life. I really don't care who says what. but to me, weed has got me thru a lot of problems in my life.
anxiety
depression
ADHD
BIRTH
And really just life. I wonder tho. Is it necessary to consider her as a life long partner. I mean when I was a teenager I use to joke around( or be very serious) about walking around in my walker, while puffin on a doobie. but now that I am older (24), it seems like im not smoking to get high no more. But to help me with things other people might take a handful of pills to overcome or hide. I have studied weed and learned things that I never knew before. You can say that I see things differently about Pot. Give me some input. Do you think as you get older, you seem to become more experienced about weed. I mean book smart, and do you think it can be a life long partner or will the choice die away just as age does?
just speaking my mind.

 

[Jibult]

You can say that I see things differently about Pot. Give me some input. Do you think as you get older, you seem to become more experienced about weed. I mean book smart, and do you think it can be a life long partner or will the choice die away just as age does?
just speaking my mind.

To answer your first question, I would say it varies from person to person. I know a few 60+ year old weed heads that are dumber than a bag of bricks but cool as all hell to have a session with, but then I know a pair of school-age teenagers (who are also cool to smoke with, actually) that know more about the herbal than a majority of people I've come across throughout my weed-smoking career.

The second question... that seems to vary from person to person as well. I mean, I think it most definitely could be a lifelong "partner" under ideal circumstances, but more often than not societal, health and legal problems prevent a person from viewing it as a long-term thing. Most of us just seem to be living in the moment, and usually, in my experience, when a person stops living one day at a time is when they start to see that a daily weed habit is not the spouse they want to share the entirety of their life with. I'm still a day-to-day person, and I truthfully have no idea what it says about me that I recognize that fact, that aspect of my personality but have found myself unable to change it. I've chalked it up to addiction, to be honest, but it seems like now that I've figured out a word for it I don't really want to do a damn thing about it....


I dunno, personally, cannabis has nearly eliminated my social life-- not because all I do is smoke, but because all I did with other people is smoke. If I'm not smoking, it's like I don't know what the fuck to do with myself in the company of others anymore. It just feels... awkward... meaningless almost. Kind of like, "What's the point?", you know?

...shit, most people probably don't know. It's kind of why I keep thoughts like this to myself, but the OP made me feel like I needed to throw my two pennies in the mix.

 

[itsabirditsaplane]

To answer your first question, I would say it varies from person to person. I know a few 60+ year old weed heads that are dumber than a bag of bricks but cool as all hell to have a session with, but then I know a pair of school-age teenagers (who are also cool to smoke with, actually) that know more about the herbal than a majority of people I've come across throughout my weed-smoking career.

I don't know if i should agree or disagree with this. i mean i know im only 24 and yeah i have been smoking since i was 10 but to be honest i cant say weed has made me stupid or dumb. i have a degree in cosmetology and i am going to school for phycology, and yeah you can say im a day to day person. i don't feel as though weed is addictive. personally i am not addicted. i can quit anytime. and a person who is really addicted to something i don't feel as tho they can quit anytime they want. i have quit smoking and started again by choice not by addiction. idk maybe there is a fine line that i am missing. or maybe it has to do with personality, but i also feel as though no addiction is greater than another. some might disagree. such as a heroin addict is addicted to the needle, or the crack addict is addicted to the pipe, i guess in a since a weed addict can be addicted to the joint. but again i say to me it has to be personality, some people have an addictive personality. i know people who have tried roxys one time and got addicted then i know people who do it on a once n a blue moon. and are not addicted.



I dunno, personally, cannabis has nearly eliminated my social life-- not because all I do is smoke, but because all I did with other people is smoke. If I'm not smoking, it's like I don't know what the fuck to do with myself in the company of others anymore. It just feels... awkward... meaningless almost. Kind of like, "What's the point?", you know?

i mean that can also do with habit and not addiction?! you have done it in routine so long that it became a habit. and since a habit and an addiction is so similar i can feel that way. but again i say i really don't feel as though weed is addicting!

 

[Jibult]

To answer your first question, I would say it varies from person to person. I know a few 60+ year old weed heads that are dumber than a bag of bricks but cool as all hell to have a session with, but then I know a pair of school-age teenagers (who are also cool to smoke with, actually) that know more about the herbal than a majority of people I've come across throughout my weed-smoking career.

I don't know if i should agree or disagree with this. i mean i know im only 24 and yeah i have been smoking since i was 10 but to be honest i cant say weed has made me stupid or dumb. i have a degree in cosmetology and i am going to school for phycology, and yeah you can say im a day to day person. i don't feel as though weed is addictive. personally i am not addicted. i can quit anytime. and a person who is really addicted to something i don't feel as tho they can quit anytime they want. i have quit smoking and started again by choice not by addiction. idk maybe there is a fine line that i am missing. or maybe it has to do with personality, but i also feel as though no addiction is greater than another. some might disagree. such as a heroin addict is addicted to the needle, or the crack addict is addicted to the pipe, i guess in a since a weed addict can be addicted to the joint. but again i say to me it has to be personality, some people have an addictive personality. i know people who have tried roxys one time and got addicted then i know people who do it on a once n a blue moon. and are not addicted.



I dunno, personally, cannabis has nearly eliminated my social life-- not because all I do is smoke, but because all I did with other people is smoke. If I'm not smoking, it's like I don't know what the fuck to do with myself in the company of others anymore. It just feels... awkward... meaningless almost. Kind of like, "What's the point?", you know?

i mean that can also do with habit and not addiction?! you have done it in routine so long that it became a habit. and since a habit and an addiction is so similar i can feel that way. but again i say i really don't feel as though weed is addicting!

Well, at its most basic an addiction is just a habit that you feel you can't maintain normalcy without. It's nothing like a dependence; there's no direct withdrawal symptoms or anything. You just have it in your mind that you need to do whatever it is you happen to be addicted to in order to feel "right." You're absolutely right, though, I just don't think your statement holds true in my particular case. You also have to keep in mind that a particular substance may not be habit-forming or addictive to one person and the next person that comes along develops a crippling dependence. It all comes back to the whole "varying from case-to-case" thing.

Just for the record, I'm also 24 (December 19, 1988, mang) and don't feel stupid in the slightest. When it comes to book-learning, curricular education, I'm on the money. My weakness comes with my anxiety-- I'm able to reason out every side and aspect to a given situation or scenario, but once I find all the interrelated pros and cons during a decision-making process I get stuck. No side ever wins me over, I just try to find the reasoning behind positions/decisions and then I'm unable to choose the "right" one because every choice I'm presented with has its own merits. I'm like the ultimate neutral party-- that's why it makes arguing certain points here on Bluelight (even ones that I don't necessarily agree with but understand how they came to be) so easy for me.


Keep in mind that I don't think my opinions are anywhere near the norm, they're simply my opinions. I may treat them as fact because they're reality to me, but I'm well aware that other peoples' experiences likely differ from my own.

 

[itsabirditsaplane]

Just for the record, I'm also 24 (December 19, 1988, mang) and don't feel stupid in the slightest. When it comes to book-learning, curricular education, I'm on the money. My weakness comes with my anxiety-- I'm able to reason out every side and aspect to a given situation or scenario, but once I find all the interrelated pros and cons during a decision-making process I get stuck. No side ever wins me over, I just try to find the reasoning behind positions/decisions and then I'm unable to choose the "right" one because every choice I'm presented with has its own merits. I'm like the ultimate neutral party-- that's why it makes arguing certain points here on Bluelight (even ones that I don't necessarily agree with but understand how they came to be) so easy for me.


Keep in mind that I don't think my opinions are anywhere near the norm, they're simply my opinions. I may treat them as fact because they're reality to me, but I'm well aware that other peoples' experiences likely differ from my own.

i think you are right. i mean i have extreme anxiety, expecially when it comes to being stressed out, but that's why i love weed. thanks for the input tho!