All i've ever had from you
Is the look in your eyes,
So i've gotten pretty good at knowing
What each look means.
Today i saw a look that broke my heart,
And i didn't know what to say to it.
I guess today all i wanted to do was respond with a look too,
But mine would have been different
And all i could do was look away.
You should have gone when you first intended...
Walked out that door and went on with your day's routine,
And left me here to cry these tears alone
They weren't meant for you to see,
Or to catch.
Sometimes the emptiness in me eats me up,
And its that part of me i dont want you to see
So today, I hate that you had to watch it
And the look in your eyes said, you felt guilty.
Today i tried to explain to you what i want out of life,
And i guess the words i was saying
Didn't come out right as usual
Becuase you still have no clue.
On my drive to school, 15 minutes late,
I glance in my rearview mirror and the course my tears took
Is still inscribed there on my cheeks
And i think of all these things i should have said.
The truth is, I don't want you time...
I don't want you to save your money for us to go somewhere,
I don't want material things, or memories to fill a shoebox...
I have you, here and now
And all i want is that part of you that you share only with me,
That makes me different from every other person in your life,
That makes me... yours.
Those looks that you think say so many things to me late at night,
They don't say anything... only in your head
All i hear is the silence, and the absence of all feeling,
And those looks are just empty to me,
They say there is nothing there, when maybe there is.
I don't need your presence here,
I don't need ties to your heart...
I just want your soul --
That part of you that no one else touches,
Or even thinks to.
You look at me searching for the words that will make me understand
But you still want some sort of solution from me,
And this time, i dont have one
I don't know what is missing,
And maybe nothing is missing,
But something keeps me awake at night,
And something makes me heavy with sadness,
And something is just... NOT COMPLETE in me
And all i really want is to have that,
Whatever it is.
I begged you to stay...
All i wanted was for you to make me more important that just ONE
Of those million things you had to do today,
And i wanted you to stay so bad
That when you put on your coat and turned to leave,
I thought my lungs would collapse.
And after a few sympathetic looks and heavy sighs,
You stayed,
But it was like it didn't even matter then
Because i had to beg you to do something
That you obviously didn't want to do
And so i lay there silent,
Fighting back hot tears and my mid-afternoon sobs
And wished i hadn't begged you after all.
And all we accomplished was me saying out loud,
once again,
How disappointed i am in everything
And how i'm tired of sitting around waiting for this great thing to happen,
When all i really want,
Is just more than that look from you...
That distant, empty, silent look.
Is the look in your eyes,
So i've gotten pretty good at knowing
What each look means.
Today i saw a look that broke my heart,
And i didn't know what to say to it.
I guess today all i wanted to do was respond with a look too,
But mine would have been different
And all i could do was look away.
You should have gone when you first intended...
Walked out that door and went on with your day's routine,
And left me here to cry these tears alone
They weren't meant for you to see,
Or to catch.
Sometimes the emptiness in me eats me up,
And its that part of me i dont want you to see
So today, I hate that you had to watch it
And the look in your eyes said, you felt guilty.
Today i tried to explain to you what i want out of life,
And i guess the words i was saying
Didn't come out right as usual
Becuase you still have no clue.
On my drive to school, 15 minutes late,
I glance in my rearview mirror and the course my tears took
Is still inscribed there on my cheeks
And i think of all these things i should have said.
The truth is, I don't want you time...
I don't want you to save your money for us to go somewhere,
I don't want material things, or memories to fill a shoebox...
I have you, here and now
And all i want is that part of you that you share only with me,
That makes me different from every other person in your life,
That makes me... yours.
Those looks that you think say so many things to me late at night,
They don't say anything... only in your head
All i hear is the silence, and the absence of all feeling,
And those looks are just empty to me,
They say there is nothing there, when maybe there is.
I don't need your presence here,
I don't need ties to your heart...
I just want your soul --
That part of you that no one else touches,
Or even thinks to.
You look at me searching for the words that will make me understand
But you still want some sort of solution from me,
And this time, i dont have one
I don't know what is missing,
And maybe nothing is missing,
But something keeps me awake at night,
And something makes me heavy with sadness,
And something is just... NOT COMPLETE in me
And all i really want is to have that,
Whatever it is.
I begged you to stay...
All i wanted was for you to make me more important that just ONE
Of those million things you had to do today,
And i wanted you to stay so bad
That when you put on your coat and turned to leave,
I thought my lungs would collapse.
And after a few sympathetic looks and heavy sighs,
You stayed,
But it was like it didn't even matter then
Because i had to beg you to do something
That you obviously didn't want to do
And so i lay there silent,
Fighting back hot tears and my mid-afternoon sobs
And wished i hadn't begged you after all.
And all we accomplished was me saying out loud,
once again,
How disappointed i am in everything
And how i'm tired of sitting around waiting for this great thing to happen,
When all i really want,
Is just more than that look from you...
That distant, empty, silent look.
