6 days on methamp. I wasn't 100% enjoying it but not 100% hating it, but I wouldn't redo this ever again.
Holywtf you are more brave than I am!
Well, it was really bad. The police got involved because my parents called them. I literally had a psychotic break, and was getting really violent and I was ready to fucking. kill. someone. Although I don't remember a whole lot from the few years before that, I
do remember the mindset and some of the psychotic thoughts and patterns in my mind. It was very fucked up and I never want to ever feel that way again. I believe I felt like someone who had been pushed to the point of a brutal mall shooting, not caring if it kills them.
I came off of methamphetamine, dextroamphetamine, oxycontin, fentanyl, alprazolam, clonazepam, gabapentin, & zolpidem all at once. I do not believe anyone in my family, nor the police, nor my friends, really understood the implications of danger this kind of detoxification & withdrawal was going to cause. I ended up at a friend's apartment, who laid out a sleeping bag for me next to the couch and tv on one side of his place. I had to be carried up the stairs to his place, and that was when the w/d had barely even begun (I was 93 lbs).
As far as the benzos go, I was prescribed 16mg Klonopin/day and 2-3mg Xanax/day, plus I was buying bars from my dealers and adding anywhere from 20-40mg Xanax on top of what I was already prescribed.
I could not ever really put into words what that withdrawal was like. No words could do that horrible, terrifying, extremely painful experience justice. I couldn't get up, to stand and try to walk, for 3 1/2 weeks. I thought I was going to die, literally. I actually can't believe I made it through that alive. I don't care what anyone else's belief is; I personally believe God was not through with me, I had more to do.
All I can do these days is try to tell people who ask me about drugs, and who are curious, what I went through.
P.S. - To reiterate the addictive nature of benzodiazepines (which I'm sure you understand),
AFTER ALL I WENT THROUGH, I went right back to benzos again. It went on for another ~6 years. I am now free from them; I am no longer drawn by the tempting sirens.