I've been stoned pretty much the majority of my time, except sleeping, for the last 5 1/2 years. I've been wanting to cut back but when I'm not stoned I feel immensely depressed, unhappy, ready to fight, and a mix of other unpleasant emotions. The thing is I grew up suicidal/depressed from a very very young age. When I quit smoking I feel I just revert back to my childhood mindset of hating everything. I'm just wondering how much of that is the weed and how much of it is actually me. How do you other long time heavy smokers feel when you're not stoned?