PopsicleAndSnocone
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 22, 2022
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I am a middle aged NB person. I have been doing drugs on and off since 16. I became homeless at 16, coincidentally... So infer what you will here. (My mom decided she didn't want anyone living with her since I had been back two weeks after 4 years at a "boarding school" for "kids with issues". )
I was born w/ cerebral palsy. So there's that also.
I have been mostly clean off heroin for a couple of years, but have had stints of being clean for up to 5 years at a time.
I'm currently being prescribed methadone (was at a clinic, now private Dr. I am allowed due to being fully disabled) was on 75mg. in September. Am on 10mg now in Feb 2022.
Am on remeron and having withdrawals due to a raise in my dosage from 30mg to 45mg. It literally broke my brain. I went off for 9 days. During that time I had mild visual hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. My Central Nervous System (CNS) was shuddering and shaking uncontrollably during that time. Night sweats, appetite changes, pretty much all the symptoms from sudden remeron withdrawals. I had a stash of kpins from a former legitimate script (which was stopped when I got back on methadone. Dr says will re-prescribe when I'm fully off methadone. I'm fine with that.)
However to stop the worst of the remeron withdrawals I started taking 0.5 kpin a day to be able to sleep and eat. I talked to my GP about it and they said being that I'm on such a low dose of the methadone and that I have a tolerance from the much higher previous dose of methadone, that they didn't see a problem with it. I wasn't experiencing any sedation from either (previous kpin dose 2-3mg for years).
However, I would like to try and stop the benzos because I will have to see the pain Dr in March. So far if I don't take it, I can't sleep and the CNS shuddering and shaking comes back. Kratom helps temporarily but I'm not taking it every day as I kinda want to use it only if I absolutely need to. (1/2gr at a time 2x per day on the days I am taking it. Red strains like Bali and Kali.)
Any suggestions? Every day I feel achy and awful even with 15mg remeron (because I had no choice to take it after 9 days of hell)... And the kpins. Could theoretically take more methadone since the script is written for 20mg per day. I really am trying to do the right thing here though.
Ugh. Anyway hi.
I was born w/ cerebral palsy. So there's that also.
I have been mostly clean off heroin for a couple of years, but have had stints of being clean for up to 5 years at a time.
I'm currently being prescribed methadone (was at a clinic, now private Dr. I am allowed due to being fully disabled) was on 75mg. in September. Am on 10mg now in Feb 2022.
Am on remeron and having withdrawals due to a raise in my dosage from 30mg to 45mg. It literally broke my brain. I went off for 9 days. During that time I had mild visual hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. My Central Nervous System (CNS) was shuddering and shaking uncontrollably during that time. Night sweats, appetite changes, pretty much all the symptoms from sudden remeron withdrawals. I had a stash of kpins from a former legitimate script (which was stopped when I got back on methadone. Dr says will re-prescribe when I'm fully off methadone. I'm fine with that.)
However to stop the worst of the remeron withdrawals I started taking 0.5 kpin a day to be able to sleep and eat. I talked to my GP about it and they said being that I'm on such a low dose of the methadone and that I have a tolerance from the much higher previous dose of methadone, that they didn't see a problem with it. I wasn't experiencing any sedation from either (previous kpin dose 2-3mg for years).
However, I would like to try and stop the benzos because I will have to see the pain Dr in March. So far if I don't take it, I can't sleep and the CNS shuddering and shaking comes back. Kratom helps temporarily but I'm not taking it every day as I kinda want to use it only if I absolutely need to. (1/2gr at a time 2x per day on the days I am taking it. Red strains like Bali and Kali.)
Any suggestions? Every day I feel achy and awful even with 15mg remeron (because I had no choice to take it after 9 days of hell)... And the kpins. Could theoretically take more methadone since the script is written for 20mg per day. I really am trying to do the right thing here though.
Ugh. Anyway hi.