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Slinky Madinky

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Hmm- nervous. But i think thats a result of a crap weekend and my lack of codiene and tramadol. What to say? I am a housewife/mother/chauffer/cook/cleaner/nanny/coach. I feel like a slight odd ball in that I enjoy getting a buzz more then most of the people i interract with. Not one wine, it has to be a bottle, now I have moved onto vodka and congratulating myself for not buying any for a week. (back on the wine - swapping one for the other!) But my true love would have to be tramamdol, and codeine - I live in the back arse of beyond and there isnt a lot avaliable here. I take what i can get:-) I lived in the UK and did a stint in London and oh my days. How wonderful to be amognst it all. Thats the problem with being back in NZ...not a whole lot avaliable. Have always been hedonistic but now I am trying...wanting to be educated and normal. That is...I really dont see a problem with getting alittle out of your head as long as your responsbile and capable. Alcohol is a shitty drug. Its by far my least favourite. Weight gain, slow reflexes, dumb decisions. I prefer the clairty of tramadol, but three a day and water extraction with panideinne extra (15mgs of Codiene) was not cutting it.So due to my health anxiety I thought i would go back on the anti depressants for a while.Give the trams a break, i only have a limited stash and they wont last forever. I dont know if it beats the trams but i would rather taper off slowly. Today is my third day with no codiene and no tramadol. I can feel the anxiety creeping back in which is why i have started Escitalopram lexapro in a bid to beat the anxiety and constant nawing feeling at the pit of my stomach. Hmmm - this has ended up being a bit boring and I didnt mean it too! Anyway - hello. I hope to read and educate myself a bit more. And hopefully i may have something useful to add!
 
I'm new here too and can relate to a lot of what you say. My first choices are xanax and klonopin with vicodin and Percocet in a close second place. I drink wine if all else fails and I know all about a full bottle rather than a glass or two. I just want to feel anything but "normal" which for me is high strung and irritable. Anyway, cheers!
 
First off I wish my mom was as cool as you are lol.. anyway sounds like you like your every once in a while opiate treat... I dont see anything wrong with it if you can control it? Problem is everybody thinks they can control it and it always in the long run ends up controling you. Jus sayin
 
First off I wish my mom was as cool as you are lol.. anyway sounds like you like your every once in a while opiate treat... I dont see anything wrong with it if you can control it? Problem is everybody thinks they can control it and it always in the long run ends up controling you. Jus sayin

Totally! Nothing wrong with a treat if it stays a treat! ;
 
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