legsbenedict
Greenlighter
Hello All,
I'm an everyday chick with a pretty bad dependency on benzos. I work, socialize, etc., and I don't use any other substances save for the occasional drink. My problem is that I've had lifelong, debilitating anxiety (I was housebound for over a year about 15 years ago - my shrink actually came to me). I go through periods when I'm much better than others, and I always stay on my long-term meds (Zoloft and Wellbutrin), but when my panic and anxiety flare badly, I have not found *anything* to touch the help that benzos give me. They allow me to go to work and live a normal life. Problem is, I've recently developed a somewhat serious health issue and have some other stress going on, and my psych is throwing benzos at me like crazy. My tolerance is SO high that I know I can't go on like this. I had a very scary health procedure and I took 12mg Klonopin to get me in the hospital door. 12. That's insane. And yes, I could walk afterward just fine. I have insomnia from my body pain, so my psych prescribed Halcion. I swear it does nothing for me. I've taken 1mg with the only effects being I "benzo texted" and bought too much crap online. I have tried Valerian, kava (I got some good quality stuff from a friend married to a Fijian), and none of that does much. I am looking for some sort of alternative. I like alcohol socially, but it makes my heart feel crazy after a couple drinks. I accept that I may have to "tough things out" a bit, but I also need to live my life, and when my anxiety is terrible, benzos are pretty much the only thing that help. Anyhow, glad for this forum and I enjoy reading all the posts. Happy weekend to all!
I'm an everyday chick with a pretty bad dependency on benzos. I work, socialize, etc., and I don't use any other substances save for the occasional drink. My problem is that I've had lifelong, debilitating anxiety (I was housebound for over a year about 15 years ago - my shrink actually came to me). I go through periods when I'm much better than others, and I always stay on my long-term meds (Zoloft and Wellbutrin), but when my panic and anxiety flare badly, I have not found *anything* to touch the help that benzos give me. They allow me to go to work and live a normal life. Problem is, I've recently developed a somewhat serious health issue and have some other stress going on, and my psych is throwing benzos at me like crazy. My tolerance is SO high that I know I can't go on like this. I had a very scary health procedure and I took 12mg Klonopin to get me in the hospital door. 12. That's insane. And yes, I could walk afterward just fine. I have insomnia from my body pain, so my psych prescribed Halcion. I swear it does nothing for me. I've taken 1mg with the only effects being I "benzo texted" and bought too much crap online. I have tried Valerian, kava (I got some good quality stuff from a friend married to a Fijian), and none of that does much. I am looking for some sort of alternative. I like alcohol socially, but it makes my heart feel crazy after a couple drinks. I accept that I may have to "tough things out" a bit, but I also need to live my life, and when my anxiety is terrible, benzos are pretty much the only thing that help. Anyhow, glad for this forum and I enjoy reading all the posts. Happy weekend to all!
