Doxepin Dream
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- Joined
- Oct 20, 2017
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Hey guys.
Much knowledge did I gain from this website in the past! It did not, however, make me Yoda.
Late last night during a panic attack I've decided to join it at last, in search for advice. Luckily, by today I already figured out what was wrong with me (Believe it or not, it was not drugs, combination of drugs, or anything other than a -brand of a terrible cheap coffee that has been causing panic attacks!!!-)
I am what I'd call myself a functional addict, though addiction might be a strong word. I can quit any time, especially when I am thrown in a very happy situation, at leisure or vacation. But my passion in life has always been exploring alternate states of consciousness. I am -fascinated- by pharmaceuticals, herbs, and properties of foods, on how they affect the brain, and I'm contemplating joining a pharmacology program.
My focus has always been, and always will, harm reduction while maximizing the effects of a drug. I seek the purest form of experience -with the least harm possible-. This means supplements, drug holidays, exercise, etc. Any time something affects me adversely I seek ways to combat it. Any time I feel 'toxicity,' I seek ways to remedy it.
My drug of choice? Adderall. Ever since the end of college when I tried it to finish my thesis, I was in love. I'm also a very regular user of cannabis, both flower and dabs, however I can only tolerate live resin, as most butane based dabs tend to leave me with unpleasant feelings.
I have been on adderall on and off for about 7 years. I have gone through the cycle of extreme abuse with it, pushing doses and staying up, however, being in my 30s now, I am focused on health. There are times when I wish I didn't need to do it, but no drug yet has given me such clarity of thought. My focus in life right now is to try and lower my dose to just 10 mg a day, instead of the 20 a day I am prescribed. While I might have a mild form of ADD, I have gone all my life through life until I was 20 without this drug, and believe it is doable. I do think that I might need it, but in a very small dose, of possibly only 5 mg. I can't help abusing it, however, thus, I am a functional addict.
The other drug I am put on is called Gabapentin. I take 600 mg in the evening as it helps me wind down and sleep off the adderall. It's incredible side effect is that it makes me ravenously hungry, thirsty, and horny - all of which are welcome as I'm quite thin and have gastric problems. I look forward to joining this community, reading about various recreational uses of drugs and combinations, harm reduction, and perhaps even getting help and advise in lowering my doses for the same effect and benefit.
Sorry for keeping this vague, I most definitely try to maintain anonymity!
The reason why my nickname is Doxepin Dreams, is because, one time when my rommate came back from overseas she brought some antidepressant pills called Doxepin. She let me try them because she knows I like to explore alternate states of consciousness and... from just 3 pills I took every night, I had the most vivid, incredible, scary, fascinating, and mind-blowing dreams. They were so vivid in fact I had to write them down. It is things like this that propel me to explore more perception, because I know that the engine of perception we are given as human beings is flawed and limited. As with infra-red light, certain vibration and radiation we cannot detect, a certain drug may open up a neural pathway of looking at a thing in an entirely new manner. I do not condone or disapprove of drug use, however for myself, it is a way of gaining knowledge about both myself, and the mystery of the human mind.
Much knowledge did I gain from this website in the past! It did not, however, make me Yoda.
Late last night during a panic attack I've decided to join it at last, in search for advice. Luckily, by today I already figured out what was wrong with me (Believe it or not, it was not drugs, combination of drugs, or anything other than a -brand of a terrible cheap coffee that has been causing panic attacks!!!-)
I am what I'd call myself a functional addict, though addiction might be a strong word. I can quit any time, especially when I am thrown in a very happy situation, at leisure or vacation. But my passion in life has always been exploring alternate states of consciousness. I am -fascinated- by pharmaceuticals, herbs, and properties of foods, on how they affect the brain, and I'm contemplating joining a pharmacology program.
My focus has always been, and always will, harm reduction while maximizing the effects of a drug. I seek the purest form of experience -with the least harm possible-. This means supplements, drug holidays, exercise, etc. Any time something affects me adversely I seek ways to combat it. Any time I feel 'toxicity,' I seek ways to remedy it.
My drug of choice? Adderall. Ever since the end of college when I tried it to finish my thesis, I was in love. I'm also a very regular user of cannabis, both flower and dabs, however I can only tolerate live resin, as most butane based dabs tend to leave me with unpleasant feelings.
I have been on adderall on and off for about 7 years. I have gone through the cycle of extreme abuse with it, pushing doses and staying up, however, being in my 30s now, I am focused on health. There are times when I wish I didn't need to do it, but no drug yet has given me such clarity of thought. My focus in life right now is to try and lower my dose to just 10 mg a day, instead of the 20 a day I am prescribed. While I might have a mild form of ADD, I have gone all my life through life until I was 20 without this drug, and believe it is doable. I do think that I might need it, but in a very small dose, of possibly only 5 mg. I can't help abusing it, however, thus, I am a functional addict.
The other drug I am put on is called Gabapentin. I take 600 mg in the evening as it helps me wind down and sleep off the adderall. It's incredible side effect is that it makes me ravenously hungry, thirsty, and horny - all of which are welcome as I'm quite thin and have gastric problems. I look forward to joining this community, reading about various recreational uses of drugs and combinations, harm reduction, and perhaps even getting help and advise in lowering my doses for the same effect and benefit.
Sorry for keeping this vague, I most definitely try to maintain anonymity!
The reason why my nickname is Doxepin Dreams, is because, one time when my rommate came back from overseas she brought some antidepressant pills called Doxepin. She let me try them because she knows I like to explore alternate states of consciousness and... from just 3 pills I took every night, I had the most vivid, incredible, scary, fascinating, and mind-blowing dreams. They were so vivid in fact I had to write them down. It is things like this that propel me to explore more perception, because I know that the engine of perception we are given as human beings is flawed and limited. As with infra-red light, certain vibration and radiation we cannot detect, a certain drug may open up a neural pathway of looking at a thing in an entirely new manner. I do not condone or disapprove of drug use, however for myself, it is a way of gaining knowledge about both myself, and the mystery of the human mind.
