Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
As someone who does both, what is ur personal opinion on how it's affected you physically/mentally? Have you noticed any consequences so far?
Well, since you asked...my prescribed d-amp helps me be a very high performing and well regarded person in my professional life. I rarely take more than the prescribed dose and when taken in combination with Abilify and Catapres it seems to block or negate any desire to get wasted or high. I previously had a problem with IV coke and my psychiatrist reckons the d-amp he prescribed for ADHD killed the coke cravings. I get a hunger for IV Meth when I stop taking the abilify for longer than a week.
I don’t actually feel any speedy effect from d-amp. I describe the feeling as ‘being myself’ - without it there is a crucial bit of me not present. This is the bit that ties everything together and coordinates my thoughts and actions. I personally see no downside from prescribed d-amp and my medical test results including cardio check out fine.
Meth is my go-to for a bi-polar manic episode as coke once was. It’s cheaper, higher, longer lasting and better for sex. Plus it gives me that ‘complete me’ feeling that coke doesn’t but d-amp also does. When I discovered meth I went from “Sure, I’ll try some” to “Holy Fuck how did I end up in this much trouble” in 6 months. Contracts, relationships, reputation all seriously damaged. That time the come-downs were what killed me - I was living alone and friendless and kept hitting it up to avoid how awful I felt. Now a good 4 years later I’m wondering whether better management of the comedowns and spacing out “recreational” use might be possible - especially with what I have learned about myself myself from extensive therapy. To complicate things I sometimes do MDMA to deal with bad comedowns from Meth. Abilify also kills MDMA.
I would not recommend meth to anyone but the most seasoned and experienced drug user who accepts the price of admission but also has the life skills to keep on top of it where it always wants to take you (to hell, one way). Looking over my posts from the last month I’m thinking it’s time to put this manic episode to bed and start on the abilify again as I have a day job to get back to. Meth hates your day job.