hey there, ive allready posted my 2 encounters with mdpv in the mdpv-danger threat http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showpost.php?p=9789135&postcount=538.
i had 2 binges where i consumed (vaped) approximately ~800 mg pv the first time over 3 or 4 days and about 1000mg over a time of 4-5 days combined with 400 mg d2pm and about 200-400 mg phenazepam(also vaped a little bit of it).
the 2cond binge ended on monday, so its about a week ago.
im still alive, i think mrs justice wasnt watching as i was doing this shit, please dont judge this, i condemn myself pretty hard for this, doing this shit to myself my family, "the rc-scene"(ppl like me are dangerous for the rc scene) and of course putting my girlfriend trough this, i really really fucked up this time!
i already went to a hospital where they checked my pulse which was of course raised(usual hr is about 60-70 and now its still around 80-110 depending on what im doing, i would consider this normal, my blood pressure was about 140/80 also usual for me.
(in retrospect i regret going to the hospital because they didn't do shit for my and told my things i already knew, so that was some waste of money)
i discovered quite unusual patterns of behavior which i first thought to be psychotic, but have been told from a men that works in a emergency admission at a that a stimulant induced psychosis would remark quite quick after the trip has ended, so i seemingly dodged a bullet there too
but im still not really being on a normal level, having problems with my coordinations , my balance is quite fucked and the heart rate is still not normal
so i still have some options, i consider going to a cardioloist to check if all the stuff damaged my heart, i could go to a neurologist to check if there is some damage done, also i could go to the local drug-counseling center
but i fear that noone would be able to help me out there, im totaly fragituted, lost 15 kilos and feeling kinda depressed.
ive been calling a person in berlin from a drug study group of one of the political partys here in germany who is the "expert" there for research chemicals and he couldnt help my out with any informations, he didnt even knew what mdpv was.
so my question is what i should do next exept eating healthy, taking some magnesium and of course if any of the doctors could help me in any way(they dont know the metabolism of mdpv, at what receptors it binds etc).
so how longlasting could be the after effects, did i do real physical damage to myself? and would a neurologist or a cardiologist even be useful for me or will tell me that they have no idea about nothing?
i had 2 binges where i consumed (vaped) approximately ~800 mg pv the first time over 3 or 4 days and about 1000mg over a time of 4-5 days combined with 400 mg d2pm and about 200-400 mg phenazepam(also vaped a little bit of it).
the 2cond binge ended on monday, so its about a week ago.
im still alive, i think mrs justice wasnt watching as i was doing this shit, please dont judge this, i condemn myself pretty hard for this, doing this shit to myself my family, "the rc-scene"(ppl like me are dangerous for the rc scene) and of course putting my girlfriend trough this, i really really fucked up this time!
i already went to a hospital where they checked my pulse which was of course raised(usual hr is about 60-70 and now its still around 80-110 depending on what im doing, i would consider this normal, my blood pressure was about 140/80 also usual for me.
(in retrospect i regret going to the hospital because they didn't do shit for my and told my things i already knew, so that was some waste of money)
i discovered quite unusual patterns of behavior which i first thought to be psychotic, but have been told from a men that works in a emergency admission at a that a stimulant induced psychosis would remark quite quick after the trip has ended, so i seemingly dodged a bullet there too
but im still not really being on a normal level, having problems with my coordinations , my balance is quite fucked and the heart rate is still not normal
so i still have some options, i consider going to a cardioloist to check if all the stuff damaged my heart, i could go to a neurologist to check if there is some damage done, also i could go to the local drug-counseling center
but i fear that noone would be able to help me out there, im totaly fragituted, lost 15 kilos and feeling kinda depressed.
ive been calling a person in berlin from a drug study group of one of the political partys here in germany who is the "expert" there for research chemicals and he couldnt help my out with any informations, he didnt even knew what mdpv was.
so my question is what i should do next exept eating healthy, taking some magnesium and of course if any of the doctors could help me in any way(they dont know the metabolism of mdpv, at what receptors it binds etc).
so how longlasting could be the after effects, did i do real physical damage to myself? and would a neurologist or a cardiologist even be useful for me or will tell me that they have no idea about nothing?

