Long Term Drug Abuse... do you ever come back?

[Erikmen]

Although I stopped abusing earlier I moved on to Methadone 7+ years ago and I had this belief that my life was normal and everything was just the way it should be.
Together with my family, working and participating again. Kids seem to have loved it.
But this castle was made of sand. After all, I was still completely dependent from something that I thought it was gonna be impossible to get away from.
Better late than never. I finally quit but maybe because it lasted too long it´s been something very difficult to deal with. Although I hear you saying that your serotonin got back to normal I just can´t imagine that happening anymore.
I used it for too long and I simply don´t know who I am anymore. I´m restless and so anxious, sad..
I truly hope I someday I can say what you are telling above. For me it´s still very very far from happening..
But I´ve made my mind and will continue, despite of my total lack of hope at this moment.

 

[carolinen27]

still stuggling when will it end

 

[perfectpitch]

i`ve tied everything & started at young age & now in my 40`s been clean for 6yrs & decided the way you see life will not change as it opens your mind to not everything is black n white as there`s all these shades of grey between that......as far as excitement n passion etc it`s very hard to know if your past has affected you as you started at young age & everything excites you but as you get older you mellow you learn to keep emotions in check so none of us really now unless we can see ourselves in the future from when we were kids in 2 different scenario`s.....drugged life or the boring one.....lol.........best bet is don`t worry about things you can`t change....life is wot it is & wot you make it so just be happy your still here & not in a gutter or 6ft under