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TDS Logging my way to a better life

Thanks for the responses guys!

Today is probably going to be a bit of a rough day. Took about a half dose of kratom this morning because I just didn't feel like I wanted it at all. Dipped on my way to work which was nice but left me with a bit of an anxious feeling, not sure if related. I decided that eating an entire box of eggo waffles would help cure my woes. So far so good! Now my stomach is too full for me to care about anything else!

I'll probably fake my way through most of work today and hopefully find something this afternoon to hold me over until the day ends. Either way, I can't really complain about my mood much today as it is completely bearable and I am functional, which is really all I long for nowadays!

Hope everyone is putting a fight up against their darker side today!
 
Today was a decent day, again. Things seem to be going well. I was a bit anxious this afternoon, but thankfully I was just getting to the gym, so I had a nice outlet for a couple of hours to play basketball & lift a little bit.

Since I just saw another thread get closed that looked kind of like where my thread was going (blog type nature), I guess I might as well start asking questions.

So, my question for you guys:
When you find yourself particularly stressed or anxious (normally when most of us turn to our DOC or begin craving), what do you do to combat that naturally??

Many times, I find myself just sitting around and letting the anxiety build because I tend to freeze up when it hits and I can't seem to break myself from obsessing over it. I'm very interested to see how all of you deal with these situations!
 
Honestly,

I smoke about 10-12 cigarettes a day, I try to read as much as possible because that keeps my mind busy. I play games (just started playing again after a many year hiatus), and it's like something to look forward too because I enjoy the story line and want to complete it (swtor), and other things the game has to offer. We just moved, so I've been spending a lot of time organizing, and just doing house chores like watering the yard, and everything else you could imagine.

Music is my other big outlet, but I only do this when I am really feeling it. It's kind of like I get super anxious all of a sudden or I get this itch, and all I can do is make music. Generally I will work on music anywhere from 15 minutes to hours.

I have been doing to much suboxone lately, around 1.5-1.8 mg a day, less today. Tomorrow I plan on taking just a mg, and tapering all the way off ending sometime around Sunday probably.

When I'm off the suboxone is when the real tests will begin. So far I have just been functioning and maintaining. I get by, but I don't feel that deep inner sense of peace like I would feel from knowing that I was 100% sober.

Also, I have had good experiences in the past with meditation. Deep breathing exercises, holding my air in and out, and falling into meditation for as long as I can. Recentely it is not long, and that is a sign of how I am doing, I believe. If I am only able to sit in one place for about 5 minutes, meditating, before I have to get up then I usually know my head is going fast, but it is hard to slow down. I know that I am getting stabilized as far as my emotions go, and eventually completely sober so I will have to work hard at calming myself and focusing on meditating for at least 10-15 minutes. I used to do meditations as long as one hour. It might be the best benefactor besides yoga imo.
 
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