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Yeah. If My Tulip Be Touchin' Alpra or - Benzo At My Rate... I'Do Anythin' TaStopit.

delta_9 said:
Ok, so I was reminiscing...

Have any of you had a problem like this,
not wanting your SO to do certain drugs,
and how did you deal with it?
I always wonder if I could've done/said something better,
like I do with every part of our relationship it seems :\
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:\ = you stillin' bad about shit, Capt'n 9...?
If so,
may I ax' why?

PEACE
UnS
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(oh, an' yes, I was engag'd to a woman
who didn't take any'tang apart from pharms...
but that a dif....fuckitect...)​
 
UnSquare said:
:\ = you stillin' bad about shit, Capt'n 9...?
If so,
may I ax' why?

PEACE
UnS
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(oh, an' yes, I was engag'd to a woman
who didn't take any'tang apart from pharms...
but that a dif....fuckitect...)​
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Very much so...
It's not that I'm mad or anything, in fact that's the farthest thing from my mind, I just wish it hadn't ended the way it did. She and I come from very different upbringings, and even though I fully understood I would've had some trouble providing for her in the manner to which she's accustomed, I loved her with all my heart and still do, and I would've done anything to make it work.
It really brings me down...especially in the first few weeks after our break up, I was a real mess. I couldn't function at all. Still struggle with it today.

Lysis said:
My boyfriend was the same way - he did weed with me once and then started to hide it. One time I had a stomach ache and he gave me something (no, I don't know what it was..he was my bf so I trusted him). Even thinking back I thought it was odd that he gave me what looked like a 4th of a pill.

I'm not sure about you, but from what I sensed from my BF - I'm the sweet (ha!) innocent girl who has had a sheltered life and had been taken care of. He was a recovering addict with a street sense (he was homeless for a time way back before I knew him) and was even in jail for cooking meth. Basically, he was a bad boy but he had moved away from that life and never wanted to look back. He never wanted me to see that life. I never knew him when he had that kind of life. He actually spoke to me about it rarely and I know he was embarrassed by a lot of things he did.

He might be a little more extreme than what you are. I was also against drug use, so I suppose he hid it from me for the obvious reasons of not arguing about it. I think a lot of it was to shield things from me.
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Yes, our situation was similar. I have done things in the past I hope she never does, but she understood I wanted what's best for her and whenever I tried to get her not to do something it was only because I was looking out for her. And there was no lack of communication about my past either.
She wasn't 'against drug use', far from it, she enjoyed using drugs but I know after she started dating me she got into more serious drugs and started using more often, and I just didn't want to see anything bad happen to her. I've seen drugs do things to people that she hasn't, and I definately know more about drugs than she does. I'm not bragging or anything, in fact sometimes I wish I didn't know some of the things I do, but since I do know, it gives me some insight and makes me think things I'd rather not think. I hope that makes sense.
 
Maybe it's just me but I'm a bad influence. I'm always getting my bf to get all kinds of wack with me. Sometimes it's to the point where I have to fill up his capsule with more molly than I told him I did. I don't do heroin or anything that I wouldn't want other ppl to do, so I don't have that problem. When my bf and I met we both were rollin face and it was known that I love to get fucked up. Even early in the relationship(5 yrs ago) I told him that I would choose drugs if it ever boiled down to that decision.

I personally think if you're doing something and you're telling your SO not to do the same thing, then you're a hypocrite and that's a bad thing imo.

The only person I don't want to do any drugs is my little bro. That's coz he was using drugs when he was 12 and has spent 9-10 months out of the past year in jail. I wouldn't even smoke weed with him anymore! I did enough damage when he was young and now he's a heroin loser...sigh...
 
My ex used to do a bunch of drugs with her girlfriend before me but she never knew what she was using, she was just handed the stuff and told to take it.

When she started dating me I taught her a lot about harm reduction and basic chemistry. Which turned out to bite me in the ass once I started using smack often. She wanted to start using too, because she wanted to be a part of everything in my life, and I had given her the know-how to do so. Fortunately I managed to quit using before she started using, but yeah. I loved her so much I just didn't want her to go down the same road I went, didn't want her to see all that bad shit. It's a bitch using drugs in a relationship.
 
Me and my B/F were heroin buddies.When me and him became involved & I fell in love with him I didn't want him using.I couldn't stand the fact of him going through w/d,and the risk of him going to jail. when he would go and cop drugs it would leave me sick to my stomach because I worried so much about him.So I ended up having to clean up.'cause its not going to work out if one person is allowed to use & the other isn't. Its hypocritical but I know where you are coming from.
 
delta_9 said:
Very much so...
Yes, our situation was similar. I have done things in the past I hope she never does, but she understood I wanted what's best for her and whenever I tried to get her not to do something it was only because I was looking out for her. And there was no lack of communication about my past either.
She wasn't 'against drug use', far from it, she enjoyed using drugs but I know after she started dating me she got into more serious drugs and started using more often, and I just didn't want to see anything bad happen to her. I've seen drugs do things to people that she hasn't, and I definately know more about drugs than she does. I'm not bragging or anything, in fact sometimes I wish I didn't know some of the things I do, but since I do know, it gives me some insight and makes me think things I'd rather not think. I hope that makes sense.
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I don't think there's anything wrong with trying to protect her. Hopefully, she sees it's just love coming from your side and understands it from your perspective. Sometimes, when you feel strongly about a subject, it's hard to sit back and see it from another's view.

Your situation kinda sits at a point where if she doesn't do it with you, she'll do it with another. And regardless, does she have the personality to be an addict? That's a hard decision. I knew my boyfriend had it in him. He even told me that if he was ever unconscious tell the doctor not to give him opiates. He was trying hard to stay away from them. I knew he was capable, so maybe that's why I was against it.

The problem was then he just hid it from me. Would your ex-gf hide such a bad addiction?
 
I was once entering into a relationship with one girl. I wanted to be totally honest and open with her, so if she truly accepted me the way I was she'd have to accept my drug use too. Therefore, I'd just do it openly in front of her when she'd come to visit on nights that I had some. Initially, she would be disapproving, to which I would respond that I respected her opinion but it was my personal decision. Eventually she began to develop an interest in it and watch avidly as I did it, ask questions, etc. at which point I began to worry. For some reason, I didn't want to be the one to introduce her to it. If it was her personal decision--then fine, but I think I was attracting her to it. We ended up growing apart over this.
 
I think that this should be in SLR, woukd you like me to move it or should it stay here?
 
Junction said:
If it was her personal decision--then fine, but I think I was attracting her to it. We ended up growing apart over this.
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That's how my SO is also.my ex and I still hang out and she has shown a lot of interest in drugs mainly since I started using which shows a lack of genuine interest I believe. Although I care for her she is free to do what she wants only I don't want it to be on my head should she do something stupid. I want to help her along and as much as I try and educate her, she is far too immature IMO especially for psyches which is part of the reason we broke up. shes only 16, maybe when shes out of HS
 
i have some friends i get stoned with and hang out with them even when the weed/E has disappeared. but i do have friends who all we hang out for is to get high, we have nothing else in common
 
I guess it depends. Me and my friend used to hang out with a bunch of potheads everyday and they would toke up. We never took one hit. :) Also one of the guys quit for a few months and they still kicked it with him. But they did also skateboard together and stuff (even though me and my friend never stake boarded) I guess it depends...

I have three groups of friends:
Partying buddies.
Druggie buddies.
And friends.

Don't feel pressured to keep burning if you don't want to just because you're afraid of losing friends.
 
A True Story

to start with my name is matthew and on my 33rd birthday i was released from the clark county detention center (jail in vegas), any way, i had a couple drinks then called my dad for help, (a place to stay etc..) he told me i was outta luck, so i was drunk depressed and homeless....this is where it gets weird..ill tell it from 2 points of view, mine and everyone elses...i was on an airplane going somewhere, for no reason why, but i had done extensive travelling to europe and asia, s it was not out of the norm, i met this stewardess and we made out twice during the course of the n.d.e....then 5 remember DISTINCTLY being in a dr.'s office complete with check in nurse and all, but i was the only person there......he was doing something with myn LEFT hand, and it worked perfectly........i remember opening and closing it and thinking wow medicine has come a long way.........then fast forward 1 month, i am in the hospital waking up out of a coma with a paralyzed left hand and ankle....it took me a full 3 months to believe my dads(real) version of the events...i was found face down by 2 garbage collectors and they had to hit me with that shot that breaks the breast bone in your chest, i know there is an afterlife, i flatlined twice on my way to the ER...i was as close to death as 4 can get, 5 still have the scars on my head where they hit me with a hammer, the hair wont grow there, this happened july 31st 2005....they brought the priest in to read me my last rites, i came to thinking i had been on vacation..BELIEVE ME THERE IS LIFE AFTER DEATH .....


my left hand is STILL paralyzed....how would i have known there was evena problem???
 
Man, that's strange. Why can't it have been a dream & hallucinations? Why must it have been in an after-life?
 
If I understood this right, it sounds like you had more of a premonition in the form of a dream? I say that because after your dream you said "fast forward a month."

Or are you saying you dreamt while in the coma? I've read articles where they have thought that maybe comatose patients can still hear people.

I'm still struggling with life (or a form of spiritual existence) after death. I analyze it too much so unless some spirit smacks me upside the head I'm still a skeptic. I really wish I wasn't and had experiences like you and some others around here. :-/
 
it was like a month had passed, i was on a journey w/ 2 guides, then they stopped me, and said i cant come with them yet
 
no offense man buy iv died a few times and i sure as hell cant just walk into the doctor's office and start demanding shit from my pedestal. Id suggest you stay far far away from any substance for a whiiiile, it seems called for.
 
dude my left fucking hand(mainly leg pain) is paralyzed..........theirs NOTHING they can do BUT write scripts.... I take heroin(shot up the anal cavity) for my
pain......sucks
 
browntar said:
Man, that's strange. Why can't it have been a dream & hallucinations? Why must it have been in an after-life?
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cuz i was dying......i was "clinically dead" for a few seconds..
 
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