The last week or so has sucked a big fat one. Work wise, far too busy. Too much stress. Also having 2 days off as my world crumbled did damage to an already damaged track record of absenteeism due to mental health problems.
I saw my shrink as I was having a crisis with a break up, also some other issues that he explained were very likely side effects of mianserin and seroquel. I thought i was getting fat but its fluid retention in my legs from those drugs. I have been taken off them and given valium to use for anxiety and sleep. I will not abuse that drug. Im smarter than that.
I also got an apology. Whether I accept it or not or if I can really be friends after being treated so poorly remains to be seen. But I think the 4 years of mutual respect will heal the hurt eventually. I care a lot about him but cant think straight enough to make any decisions about keeping a friendship going now.
I need to fix practical things. I cleaned up the house and put up an ad for a flat mate on the net. Less than 20 mins later, Declan the Irish builder rang and wanted to inspect. He just left. Hes moving in next week.
So Im relaxing about this house now. Also having a flat mate will be good company and he seems cool so it looks like Im not going to go downhill any more.
Liz always bounces back. Im smiling again!
I saw my shrink as I was having a crisis with a break up, also some other issues that he explained were very likely side effects of mianserin and seroquel. I thought i was getting fat but its fluid retention in my legs from those drugs. I have been taken off them and given valium to use for anxiety and sleep. I will not abuse that drug. Im smarter than that.
I also got an apology. Whether I accept it or not or if I can really be friends after being treated so poorly remains to be seen. But I think the 4 years of mutual respect will heal the hurt eventually. I care a lot about him but cant think straight enough to make any decisions about keeping a friendship going now.
I need to fix practical things. I cleaned up the house and put up an ad for a flat mate on the net. Less than 20 mins later, Declan the Irish builder rang and wanted to inspect. He just left. Hes moving in next week.
So Im relaxing about this house now. Also having a flat mate will be good company and he seems cool so it looks like Im not going to go downhill any more.
Liz always bounces back. Im smiling again!
