Living the life of abuse...

[opiumlady7310]

I can not figure out yet how to blog, or if I have to wait a certain amount of time, but here is my thoughts today.. My entire family is an addict of some form.. I myself am an Opiate addict... IV use addict.. An attraction to the needle, if you will... I would use other drugs if I could figure out how to break them down for IV use, but Im too scared to try... Anyway, my 23 year old son and his wife are also heroin addicts... He said something to me yesterday that made a lot of sense to me... They just snort it, but the bottom line is, he said that once you know that feeling, once you feel that euphoria, its damn near impossible to stay away from... And he is right.. I dont believe in a devil per se, but I believe that opiates are most def the anti-christ... Constantly calling, waking you up out of your sleep,(when you can sleep)... Telling me, its okay... One more time wont hurt... Just a little bit wont hurt... It is the life that I love to hate......

 

[Maya]

It is a love and hate relationship for sure, that has been my relationship with drugs and alcohol for years. It gives you a great feeling but then puts you down when you are coming down that you crave for more.. It won't let you go until you tell it no more and try to be strong about it. The important thing is you fight even if you relapse you don't give up fighting and be better the next time around. I honestly think that anyone can get clean and no one here will judge you if you relapsed etc. We are all here for each other, for support and for advices. I am not familiar with your drug history but if you know the consequences then I think you know where it will bring you to the end.

 

[Ubi]

Sorry to read your going through this.
Myself, I had been hiding my addiction in the dark for years; then I found this site of open minded (for the very most part) people often dealing with similar issues and my World is not so dark anymore.
This is a safe place to come. You will find a group of compassionate souls willing to offer cosmic hugs and words of encouragement.

I do not know your history or why you started using in the first place but you have started sharing on this thing and this is a good step.
well wishes to you and yours and may you receive the strengths you need in the time to come

ubi

 

[ad lib]

I can not figure out yet how to blog, or if I have to wait a certain amount of time, but here is my thoughts today..

Once you hit 50 posts you will be able to blog =)

My entire family is an addict of some form.. I myself am an Opiate addict... IV use addict.. An attraction to the needle, if you will... I would use other drugs if I could figure out how to break them down for IV use, but Im too scared to try... Anyway, my 23 year old son and his wife are also heroin addicts... He said something to me yesterday that made a lot of sense to me... They just snort it, but the bottom line is, he said that once you know that feeling, once you feel that euphoria, its damn near impossible to stay away from... And he is right.. I dont believe in a devil per se, but I believe that opiates are most def the anti-christ... Constantly calling, waking you up out of your sleep,(when you can sleep)... Telling me, its okay... One more time wont hurt... Just a little bit wont hurt... It is the life that I love to hate......

Opiates are tough, aren't they? I'm 22 and I was addicted to IV pill use for about 1 1/2 years. It's not easy to overcome. I recently relapsed on oral opiates...and learned my lesson.. so I'm taking a break.

What made you start using?