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LakersFan88

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Hello!

I hope this is an appropriate section for my post. For give me if it isn't.

A quick background, I was hooked on 60mg of Oxycodone per day for the last 3 years. Last week, I decided I could no longer do this to myself nor my loved ones anymore and before I completely lost everything I loved.

I took my last 10mg oxycodone 1/6/16, and began the cold turkey process. With the help of Lope, I was able to get thru the first 4 days without being completely miserable. I started with a large dose and tapered down by almost half each day and have not again dosed with the Lope since 2 days ago, and don't plan to.

Today is day 6, my first day back at work, and surprisingly I am doing better than expected. The only real W/D symptoms I have are the chills and I am freezing all damn day, but nothing that I can't get past.

I know I am definitely not out of the woods yet, and am still readjusting to being free from these pills.

I just wanted to share my story in hopes of being able to get some sort of support via this forum to keep on fighting the good fight and staying away from these evil things. So any words of advice, encouragement, etc.. would be greatly appreciated.

Blessings
 
You're doing great!
You're almost over the hump - if not already.
I am on day 11 of no Heroin.
It's been a struggle but I am going to get thru this!
Much love
 
You got this both of you! Just keep taking life as it comes one day at a time!

If you ever need advice, or just someone to talk to, pm me! I am always happy to illuminate the path to a happy life without opiates.
 
Thank you both!! Can't tell you how much I appreciate the response!

Congrats on day 11 w0w!! That's amazing!! Just gotta know we deserve better!!

@manboychef thank you, appreciate the offer and may take you up on it sometime!

Tomorrow marks 1 week for me!! Never thought I'd make it lol but I've today I was able to tell a few close friends about my addiction who had no idea (and do not use), it was a very emotional day but it feels wonderful being able to get it off my chest. I don't have to fight alone, my real friends have my back. I'm forever grateful for that.

Now I just debate on telling my Father. He is my best friend and I would hate to worry him or stress him with dripping a bomb like this on him. But I feel like it would really help my recovery. Anyone have any experience with this? He and I are close, I don't think he would freak out but don't wanna disappoint him or make him feel guilty. Sorry for rant lol going to try and get some sleep now and get one week under my belt!

Blessings!
 
Well done!!! Oxy is an evil & all consuming drug. It lures you in quickly & IME, can rapidly take over your life as it's just so damn tempting to take a bit more each time to try to always gain that initial buzz.

You've done a great job, & I'm really glad for you that you also have friends irl who've got your back dude.

Congrats. Sorry I can't offer advice as whether to tell your father.

It's kinda like when someone has an affair and then wants to confess. Are they doing it for their own gain, or is this news just going to hurt their loved one...


Rtp
 
1 WEEK CLEAN!!!

Thank RTP!

I really appreciate your response!! Each comment/post makes me feel that much better!

Thank you for reinforcing what I am doing!! It's not easy but I know better, I deserve better, so I'm going to do better.

I will have to ponder on whether or not I am going to tell my father. I figured this would be something I need to decide on my own.

Thanks for everything everyone! You help me more than you know!
 
Almost had a scare today!

I found some pills that I didn't know about, and although it did cross my mind (very much so), I did not use. I wanted to just have 1 but I denied my craving!!

They are no longer in my possession, by the way.

Staying as strong as I can. Everyday can only get better
 
Thank you w0w!!

Not sure how I resisted but I did! Thank God!!

I feel really good about quitting this time (2nd time quitting). I feel as though I have more to offer and I don't want end up a wasted talent, as some unfortunately do.

I truly owe it to myself to get better, and live a life I can be proud of, not one that is kept a secret.

My motto has been:
I know better, I deserve better, so I'm going to do better.

Thank you for the positive reinforcement! BL and with the help of some friends, I think I will be okay ;) (someday)
 
Day 8 of being clean!!

Never thought I could do it!! My friends and girlfriend have been amazing in supporting me thru this.

I never mentioned this before but I am an emcee in a hip-hip group in Colorado, and yesterday was my first attempt at writing again being clean.

I was quite nervous, not sure if I would be "As good" as I was on the drugs, but to my surprise, I was able write quality work that was on par with what I've been doing for years!!

This is a major confidence boost and I am going to be focusing solely on recovering and creating music. Wasted so much time thinking and obsessing over pills, not anymore!!

I do feel I am getting a little better each day. Still not sleeping the greatest, still a tad achy, still freezing all the time, but I know it's better than how I felt while using!

Hope you all have a great day!

PS - If anyone is interested in hearing my music, let me know and I can send you a link ;)
 
you're doing awesome!! keep it up!
you're over the worse of it, congrats!!!!
I am trying to step off Kratom now, which has been a little hard, but I'm doing my best.
cheers
 
Thank you w0w!!

Means a lot just to get little response on here! I appreciate it!

Today I am beginning to feel genuinely happy about my future! I have not felt this way in quite some time! It's a blessing!

I honestly could not have done it without my friends, family, and BL!! The support I have received has been overwhelmingly awesome and I feel so grateful for this 2nd chance.

I wish you the best w0w!! Never really tried Kratom but a couple capsules, but I understand the battle you are fighting, but keep your head up. If you ever need to PM, feel free, I feel as though the least I can do is help someone the way y'all have helped me. (I've actually been pondering on ways that I can use my experience to help others like me that may feel like there is no hope, which is a first for me lol)

You deserve better and you're doing better, just remember that!
 
Today is Day 9 for me!!

Yesterday was a little rough, felt pretty good for most of the day, then once I got off of work, I had a horrible headache and neck pain.

That little devil wanted me to go use so bad, but I refused, took some sleep meds and went to bed for about 10 hrs!! Woke up this morning feeling pretty good actually!

I only hope I can hang on to this feeling all day today! I hope the rest of you are hanging in there!

I am getting better each day and I owe it all to all of your stories and my friends! I hope the worst is behind me!

I know better, I deserve better, I am doing better.
 
Day 10 free from opiates!!

Starting to feel normal again!

Still getting slight chills here and there and my arm pits have been sweaty (Sorry, maybe TMI lol)

I just want my life back and I feel like I'm getting it day by day!
 
Day 13, almost 2 weeks free from opiates!!!

I cannot believe I am finally getting my life back!!

Feeling like a normal person again and starting to get back to life without pills!

Blessings
 
Congrats on the clean time, I can't wait to get there. Congrats on not doing any of what you found I had a relapse during sleep so I don't know how you did it. Determination is key. Keep it up.
 
Thanks Pucman!

I'm not sure how exactly I am managing so well, but I have an awesome girlfriend and friends and family that fully support me in my recovery. That definitely helps.

All I know is that I desperately wanted my life back and freedom from pills, so my mind set has been and will hopefully stay from from them.

If you ever need any support or advice, feel free to contact me!
 
Day 15, over the 2 week mark!!

I cannot believe it lol!!

Starting to really feel like a normal human again.

I have been socializing with friends more, trying to eat a littler better, and just enjoying being free from those evil pills!

I try to laugh as much as possible and keep telling myself that I am stronger than any substance and if I can do this I can do anything!
 
You're doing amazingly well. Ten days off oxy & I was so numb and unmotivated that I went the sub route just to feel ok,- that life was manageable.

That was after many yrs & a huge oxy habit though!

Keep it up, u do deserve a happier, healthier you!!

Rtp xx
 
I haven't been on here as frequently as I once was. But I am still clean, today is 20 days and tomorrow is 3 weeks of freedom!!

I cannot believe i have made it this far!! I've wanted my life back now for sometime and was always afraid to quit, but I found the strength and was able to commit and change!

My life is getting some normalcy back. Been spending more time with friends and family. Been saving money and spending it wisely. My relationships with just about everyone is my life
has gotten much better! I still have some slight PAWS, but nothing that I cannot manage. I've had little to no cravings. I've even been contacted to purchase some recently and I've turned them down every time, no second guessing.

I wanted to be off of pills more than anything and with the help of BL and my friends and fam, I have done it and am still going strong!!

Blessings!
 
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