Living a lie

[Traumatizd4life]

Not complete:: Another song, may lose something without music....make up a song in your head or something.
I Lost my sight
and now i am alone
The truth has died, at nights i cry
But in the days i am alive
Alive but living a lie
I never, never knew at all
the nights i would spend
staring at my wall
Alone without a friend
without a life
because i am living a lie
You thought you knew me
but today you said goodbye
You said i wasnt who you thought i was
You said i am living a lie
You said i never told you who i really am
The truth is i had no reply
because the truth is simple,
i am living a lie.
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PlUr
Peace
love
Unity
respect
Im so damn kinky
IM me at EndTheEmpire
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The Legend of Zelda theme song kicks Ass
[This message has been edited by Traumatizd4life (edited 31 October 2001).]

 

[Chris_nl]

i feel the same atm
maybe you didnt meant it the same way i read it
having a VERY hard time to find out im gay
im 17 and really the only image i have is that from a macho instead i have such a big hart and i need so much love
i behave like some cold dude who doesn't care
but i fucking do
then on the other hand i dont have any good friends and the relation with my parents is shit too
im so STUCK
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[Traumatizd4life]

Well im not gay...i dont think :/
It is a relationship thing though...i am involved with soemone who, well i do like her, but i like someone else so much and i feel torn.

 

[Chris_nl]

it amazes me that i can say that im gay
(it's strange how you can act like a stranger
and it aint you, it's scary and it's shit and im so stuck)
and i quit doing drugs cold turkey 1 week ago
i hope this is 1 step in the good direction
i hope i can find myself somewhere
and can accept the way i am
because atm i cant and i feel horrible
but i guess im on the wrong forum hah
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[Traumatizd4life]

Work through it man, don't worry about it your still the same person right?!!?
Its just one of those things you have to work through....like having a small penis..*coughslooks-down-at-myslefcoughs*
well its not that small...
Anyways sorry for the out-of-context joke.
But seriously, dont stress it more then you have to, everything will work out if givent he time and effort

 

[Traumatizd4life]

That didnt make sense...ummm jsut dont listen to my advice please...

 

[Chris_nl]

yea i know
after being addictive to all kind of drugs and even stealing from my own parents i know were i am today
i should quit drugs and be sober for a few month and maybe even tell a girlfriend about it
i know most people dont find it a problem if you're gay but it's just i dont have peace with it
i want a girl
but maybe im indoctrinated by the pron industrie?
haha
and yea sorry to kill your own thread with your own meanings behind it
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[FallingAngel]

I really liked your song. Even though it didn't have the music, it was still powerful. Another day goes by where I struggle to find my true sexuality, and just like you I am living a lie...