Lipstick Stains & Invisible Chains

[cherry_colored_lean]

I panic at the thought that time to find true love is running out,
Being with you is constant torment with out a doubt.
Yet emptiness consumes all when I'm with out you,
I think I'm getting high off feeling blue.

Why are so many strong, independent women becoming obsessed with the wrong men?
They'd bend their tired, aching backs for no love from Ben,
And cook & clean-clean & cook for a little unavaliability from Chris...
They choose the wrong men - who to their many women dismiss.

Addicted I am to this man who cannot love me,
My trusted kin only advise me to pack my bags and flee!
But my emotional warning system is 6 feet underground,
My man, my love - his love is as I feared - no where to be found.

She's in a highly developed stage of denial, constantly yearning for the drama her man provides.
Drugs, money schemes, and dangerous peope - just to feel alive.
The trouble is, these are ordinary things, even with all the drama, she doesn't feel much at all,
Such a twinfold theme - all denial no control - will she survive this freefall?

My rebellion, frustration, isolation - I've rejected all of my feelings except this one -
Freefloating is my helplessness to change this man, I can't do it - I'm done!
I feel like I've ruined everything we had right from the start.
This was just another journey through lipstick stains & invisible chains...

_cherry

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

Hmph.
I remember starting to read this, and then for some reason or other (probably being too stoned... hehe 8) ) I got sidetracked and forgot about it.

I really really REALLY like this.

So, bumpity bump up to the top.

 

[jeebus13]

Very good. I especially like the references to the futility of denial. Cheers.

 

[neverwas]

Yet emptiness consumes all when I'm with out you,
I think I'm getting high off feeling blue.

i know that feeling all too well

your writting is both honest and deep. its hard to put such feelings into words sometimes and be so open bot it but uve done a great job

i think theres something in ur peice for everyone

 

[beanpoophead]

i really like this

fits my current state of mind very very good