Just before writing "God's choices, God's choices, God's choices", in my last entry, which I heard as I was waking up, something like that (some is missing), I had been watching a bear tear three little boys limb from limb. It seemed I was watching a nature program. This was filmed in Siberia. There was snow on the ground. Siberia, but one little boy had a name, "Zwolf", which is Germanic. I seemed to place it in some Scandinavian country. Finland. Zwolf had a large tumor on the side of his head, almost as big as his head. Him and seemingly two other little boys were sitting in snow, up against a kind of embankment. When the bear took him, I didn't feel bad. At least not as much as I would have if the boy had been fully healthy, and happy. I accepted it. Not that I enjoyed the show. I wondered why nobody that was filming it, did anything.
I heard the other boys screaming, as it moved onto them. The first one didn't scream because I think he was decapitated rather fast. Another screamed, having his arms or arms ripped off. It was all violent... More than I felt a nature program should show. Each of their names seemed to be variations of the same name, like slightly different languages.
In an earlier part of my sleep, I dreamed I had a pet lion. I had a lion, and a regular domestic cat, who resembled my old cat, Olly- a ginger cat. But the lion stayed in a small apartment with me, and I felt bad about this, eventually giving him up. Much detail I forget, but I also gave a computer to someone- The actor that plays Jax in Sons of Anarchy (Charlie Hunnam), who I just saw in Pacific Rim. I also watched a video of a guy who friended Lions, and Hyenas, so that probably played into my dreams.
The bear, I had a choice on my mind... To go get more chicken, or eat less today. I've been thinking I've been eating too much. I don't know if the bear tearing the boys up, and my thought on if I should go get more meat, were associated, but it did weigh in.
A girl in my dream... I was trying to get some action- Maybe more, from her. She sent me a picture of flowers, over text. Pink-purple/Fuchsia. I wanted to send her a picture of the Orchid that I gave to my mom, but I hesitated, and didn't.
I heard the other boys screaming, as it moved onto them. The first one didn't scream because I think he was decapitated rather fast. Another screamed, having his arms or arms ripped off. It was all violent... More than I felt a nature program should show. Each of their names seemed to be variations of the same name, like slightly different languages.
In an earlier part of my sleep, I dreamed I had a pet lion. I had a lion, and a regular domestic cat, who resembled my old cat, Olly- a ginger cat. But the lion stayed in a small apartment with me, and I felt bad about this, eventually giving him up. Much detail I forget, but I also gave a computer to someone- The actor that plays Jax in Sons of Anarchy (Charlie Hunnam), who I just saw in Pacific Rim. I also watched a video of a guy who friended Lions, and Hyenas, so that probably played into my dreams.
The bear, I had a choice on my mind... To go get more chicken, or eat less today. I've been thinking I've been eating too much. I don't know if the bear tearing the boys up, and my thought on if I should go get more meat, were associated, but it did weigh in.
A girl in my dream... I was trying to get some action- Maybe more, from her. She sent me a picture of flowers, over text. Pink-purple/Fuchsia. I wanted to send her a picture of the Orchid that I gave to my mom, but I hesitated, and didn't.