anyone else ever been in this position?
anyone ever been admitted into hospital via k abuse?
and whats a good way to ween yourself off such a strong mental addiction... feel kind of helpless.
Hi;
I myself am addicted to ketamine. I've been using it for three years of which the last year serveral days a week; due to tolerance I can now use serveral grams a day; ever since I got to these doses some mild problems started. My addiction is also due to escapism, so I think I can relate a bit to your story. I now use anywhere in between 0.5 and 4 grams a day, usually no more then two though.. I've had K-cramps around 10 times now, the last time was sunday evening, the first time about half a year ago.. as with you they are not enough to scare me off it strange enough, even in horrible pain I just keep doing more if I have any even though I know that can cause the K-cramps to go on for days and days. The pain is worse then anything else I know, the first time I had an ultrasound scan done of my organs and I was really scared that I'd die (all test results were fine though; they couldn't find any damage whatsoever
). In the peak of the pain I can do nothing but just lie / roll around a bit in pure agony, not capable of even standing up. Normal painkillers do nothing, not even a combination of 1 gram of paracetamol, some codeine and 400 mg of ibuprofen, that doesn't even make a difference.. What does help is not eating too much fat and taking a few day break of the ketamine; after a sufficient break it goes away and if I keep the amounts I take somewhat reasonable it stays away.
Bladder issues I never really had before, no pain or anything, but this weekend I messed up (I was just about to open a topic about my own addiction and this bladder issue when I saw your topic); I did a lot of K last week especially on the weekend, even for me and I did speed and LSD and completely forgot to drink water for 12 hours or so; result? Severe dehydration which had the result of causing bad pain in my bladder since sunday morning.. Peeing réally hurts, there's constant pressure and pain in that area.. feels like a bladder infection with glass shards for pee.. K-cramps are worse but this isn't really nice either. The bad thing isn't even the pain, it's the fact it's still constantly on my mind and really all I want is to snort another line; I really only want one thing: dissociation... I drink a lot of water now and I haven't done any ketamine since sunday afternoon, I really hope it's just a slightly damaged bladder wall and not scarred yet; this is the first time it has ever hurt due to K and I hope cutting down nów isn't too late and that it still restores on its own, ffs this réally hurts..
I have no advise against cravings and stuff like that; except for fix the other issues in your life; try to get rid of the reasons for your escapism, make yourself wánt to be conciously and actively connected to the world; keep yourself busy. Those things help to reduce the intake and even if quitting isn't possible yet, cutting down is still beneficial for your health.. I myself don't want to quit the ketamine; not ever. I do however want to cut down to using it serveral times a year only; get my tolerance down to that one gram would last me a weekend and not do it more then once a month ever.. That'd be lovely, and if I want that strong enough I'll be able to do it and once my life is a bit better under control it'll be easier..
Not really sure if my post is useful; I have no real advise but I understand in what kind of situation you are I guess; atleast a little bit, and hopefully my health issues (serveral times of having k-cramps and now since this weekend the feeling my bladder is full of crushed glass..) are kind of an extra bit of turn off of the stuff.. I by the way read a lót about ketamine relate health issues; if you want any information I can give some, especially on k-cramps which I read a lot about.
Goodluck in getting your addiction under control.
